Back then, when They were in the Qin Palace, they were merely innocent and young, finding solace in each other's company. Such feelings were mostly a comfort for loneliness and couldn't withstand any tests.
So if Brother Jiu hadn't died at Qin Feng's hands, but took her away from the Imperial Palace and eloped, their ending might not have been any better.
Her self-righteous persistence, now in retrospect, seems like a lifetime ago and like a farce.
And she actually gave herself up for this, willingly enduring hellish torment to avenge her lover. The torment she suffered in the Qin Palace, which she thought of as a living death, was of her own making.
After leaving the Qin Palace, having avenged her great hatred, she could start anew, yet she felt continuing to live was meaningless and committed suicide.
