So She really, truly couldn't understand Han Litong, and had no idea what she actually wanted.
Fengxi loved her for so many years, yet she just had to give Him up for that so‑called responsibility she felt she ought to shoulder. Later, for the sake of the man she loved, she still gave up the better life Fengxi could offer her. In the end, when Fengxi finally let go, she suddenly felt that she'd fallen in love with Fengxi.
She never once had a moment of genuine happiness. She felt it was heaven being unfair to her, but she clearly had had many choices. Even if all the earlier chances were gone, no longer something she could choose, at least now she could still choose, couldn't she? She could have chosen a calm, joyful life, yet she insisted on brooding over the scars in her heart. Like this, she would never have any ease, and would only drag other people down with her.
