Gradually, this feeling was magnified infinitely by Qian, a mix of self-loathing and fear of having her secret discovered intertwined in her heart. She began to suffer from insomnia, started to panic, felt like someone was stalking her, and felt that everyone was looking at her the wrong way.
Qian knew she needed to see a psychologist, but for someone with her mindset, going to the psychiatry department was tantamount to telling the whole world she was "crazy." If everyone found out what had happened to her, how could she continue in Lishi?
Lishi, although large, was mostly familiar. Qian was afraid that her visit to Lishi's psychiatry department would be discovered by acquaintances, so she deviated, detouring, and self-righteously found a "safe" little county.
