CHAPTER 36
It's almost a month now, still I can't remember something useful such as my name, my family or a relative, a friend or something I treasure the most.
Sitting under the willow tree, leaning on its body slightly, trying to recall something about myself while my eyes were fixed on the man chopping logs with an axe.
The man's sweat tickles through his forehead down to his jaw. At every swing he makes tiny droplets of sweat falls down to his white shirt making it damp. His panting was in rhythm to his shoulder.
Even watching him from a distance, I could outline his perfect body packed with abs. Dang! So sexy, yet his face remains innocent in contrast to his build. If only his face was a little sinner then I would have offered myself to him for free, but I can't take advantage of the innocent boy. I should keep my dirt thoughts to myself and held my desires within me.
I intently went back to my nonchalant gaze and watch him normally, but suddenly an image overlap's the man. My head hurts, and I can't focus my view anymore. I could feel my body going numb, my vision turning burly as I saw a woman mimicking the man's action. Coldness embraces me and I could tell I will lose my consciousness any minute now.
I don't have the time to stand up or shout for help, as my eyelids grow heavier each seconds and I have become a deaf and mute all of a sudden. My senses were useless.
"Urggg…" I groan softly as I open my twin orbs. My head is aching at its worst.
A hand touches my head while I lay down, groaning. "Are you okay?"
My eyes shift where the voice is coming from, it turns out to be the same man who I claimed to be my husband. I was deceiving myself for almost a month.
The memories that I have lost, I remembered it already. Why and what causes me to be here, who I am, I know it now.
"It seems you're not." The man before me worriedly spoke whilst still checking my body temperature. I know he didn't intend to deceive me, and I was the one who misunderstand him.
He might have noticed that all I did was stare at him, that's why he asked if there's something in his face. All I could mutter was, "Keep your distance."
"Huh? But we're husband and wife." Yeah, I know a married couple knows no distance, but we're not a true couple, so it's inappropriate for as to be so close. No matter how trash I am in the past, I wouldn't force someone to be my lover. Maybe I did seduce all of them, at least they come to me in a silver plate. I didn't force them to!
"Leave me alone." Turning my whole body to the side coldly, I tried to ignore him. I won't expose that I already regain my memories now, but maybe in the future I will.
I've been with him for days, I did get comfortable with him around, but I need to go back Lexus might have been starting to turn the country upside down. He was quite deeply obsessed with me, after all.
"What's wrong?"
"…" Ehh?
Dandelion made me face him. His expression was full of questions. How can you ask me innocently, just like that? "You can't coldly snob at me like that for no reason at all, I don't remember when I offended you, but if you're angry at me, you could just say it so that I can reflect on my mistake. I'm sorry."
I don't know what his problem is, and I don't want to deal with him. I have a bigger one that I need to solve first, I don't have time to entertain him. "Leave me alone and we're good. I need rest, now get out."
He bit his lip, lowers his head, clutching his hand and was about to cry. "I'm sorry, Lily, I'm sorry. Tell me what I did wrong and I promise to not do that again. Just… just don't push me away, please."
His begging made me uneasy, but I tied to suppress my feelings. Seriously, I'm the infamous cruel duke, I can't pity someone who only just beg with words. "The only thing you did wrong is to make me repeat myself. Leave me alone and were good, if not, do I have to make you?"
I hope threatening works, my head is aching so much. I can't bear the pain, all I need now is a good rest. Watching from his reaction, he was somewhat hurt but choose to follow my order. He is reluctant to leave me? Why?
Before leaving the room completely he spoke, "I'm sorry Lily, I'm your husband and I hope you could open up to me. We will solve it together as a couple."
Even though I feel like opening up, I couldn't bring myself to tell him that I regain my memory already. "Hmp!"
"Have a good rest." Wishing me before kissing my cheek tenderly. I was stunned, he really wants to play a good husband card? He was at the door when I screamed, 'hey' at him, making him look back at me smiling like a man inlove. Are you for real?
I couldn't do anything, so I went back to sleeping to lessen my headache. Having your memory returned to you was not a good experience to go through, and it's hellish to the point you'll feel your head will almost burst.
"Lexus, what are you doing right now?" I don't understand why I'm looking for that guy that I treated like a plaything. Sigh. "I wish I could have treated you good, if we will meet again, I'll release you from the relation that chained you a long time ago."
If ever he'll fall for another girl, I won't hesitate to distance myself to him. After all, I only entered that kind of relation we were having was because he could calm my bloodlust and gave me enough energy to sustain my physical needs and suppress my emotions. "I guess I'm a villain in his eyes."
Closing my eyes, embracing the darkness, I let myself succumb to it.
***
(Hi guys! Sorry for the amount of word, and sorry because I updated so late it's because of school activities (Bsp, I.p activity and recognition), but I will finish this novel, though. Erm… about the villain? I don't know when to introduce him/her to you guys. Hope you like this chapter. If you caught some misspelled words, grammar errors, something that confused you, etc. Feel free to comment below. Have fun reading. Wink.)
/I want to laugh right now. I have already finished this chap. But I didn't immediately upload it as school activities and projects overwhelmed me, as much as I like love writing that doesn't make me neglect my study. I know I'm weak, talking about time management cuz guys I don't have it in my vocabulary, much worse the link I used to log in so that I could upload my novel chaps. Have been long DEAD…Tehee. 8;50 pm jan.04.2023/
I'm sorry, I know my story was flawed in many ways. The plot, I don't know if you guys like it. I have already stated my promise, but you know Lexus once said, 'Promises meant to be broken.'
1o53 words
11/21/2022 7:55 pm