Nico has three wives. All of them have married Nico at some point, and each of them must've already been up on that stage with Nico already. Knowing this, my mouth can only stay shut due to the unbearable sadness.
Just what is there for me in the future?
Is there even a future for me?
A future where I am happy? A future where I am not alone?
A future when I am happy with him?
Does such a thing even exist…?
Do I not have the right to be happy...?
Just what... can I even do? With my own life?
Without realizing, I got too absorbed with all the negative thoughts. All sorts of imagination rolled in my head about how painful it would be for me to keep living.
Now, more than ever, all those thoughts are rushing into my head faster than it has ever been. Before, I had my exams and training to keep my mind away. But now, especially when there's such a happy couple right in front of me, the realizations mercilessly wreck my sanity into pieces.
