It's not that I don't want to say something ruthless to push him away.
But really, I can't say it.
I truly can't bear it.
After all, he's the big brother I've loved for nineteen years.
After all, the one I wholeheartedly love so much, now also loves me.
I really don't want to hurt a sincere heart, this heart that loves me.
I wish I could cherish all of this, turning it into my brightest legacy.
'Big brother, thank you, thank you for letting me know your feelings while I'm still alive. It really makes me happy, moved, grateful, and also feels blessed and lucky.'
'Except for not being able to be with you, not being able to let you know I still love you, not being able to let you know that I'm about to leave this world and won't see you again... apart from these, I truly feel blessed.'
'I've loved you for nineteen years, without regretting a single day.'
'Thank you for being you.'
'Loving you did not waste my youth.'
'Being loved by you did not waste my life.'
