So there had been some mistakes in pacings etc from my side, and as such, the next two chapters can be thought as Extra-Canon. They do not affect the canon storyline as such, merely being a nightmare conjured by Abeloth to break down Ezra's mind.
I had originally planned to write the whole nightmare but because of people's reception to it, had decided to not continue it.
Gist of the nightmare is basically Abeloth taking an maternal role and doing fucked up shit.