" Within the next few months I used Daniel as my supposed muse , he was wealthy , his father owned an auction house, he was supposed to take over once his father retired but right now he just claimed that he wanted to be rebellious and part of that rebellion was acting as my muse , we travelled around the world , Paris, London, Italy , Japan , we went on the most splendid dates , he spoiled me and he was such a gentleman, before I knew it I saw him as a companion, I started opening up to him slowly but surely and somehow he could relate with me,....while I and Daniel got closer , I and Diah drifted further apart , we moved into a new apartment and she barely came home , when she did come home she reeked of alcohol and cigarettes, she barely spoke to me ans then all of a sudden one day she told me she wanted to make her debut as an author , I had no problem with that, I was infact happy when she had said she wanted to sign into my agency but.....she got denied, they called her story bland, repetitive and none of he characters had depth.
I sighed briefly as I fiddled with my fingers , " the thing about Diah was..... eventhough she loved writing.....she wasn't good at it", I muttered the remaining words , I didn't know why I had muttered those words out like that , maybe some unprofound guilt that still lingered in or just my mind saying that, " I even spoke to my agent to give her book a chance, he agreed but when it got published and entered the market it barely made sales , book critics , both online and in reality mocked and judged her book, at that time I was releasing my first romance novel that I had written with Daniel as my muse ...and just like Cyclic rounds , it blew up overnight , within a week , my book " images of perfection" made up to thirty thousand sales.
I think that was when Diahs resentment deepened , I could tell very much that she despised me with everything in her , we were like strangers living in the same house and this time we didn't speak to each other but one day...I pulled in the courage and decided to speak to her but...I ended up crumbling our relationship ".
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Rhea was sitting at the dining table , different types of dishes laid on the glass turquoise table , she sat there waiting, checking the time , it was almost midnight and if her predictions was right Diah will be back anytime from...., beep, beep, beep , someone was entering in the passcode and it was quite obvious to know who was at the door. The door swung open as Diah entered, soft clicking of heels and a strong scent of alcohol and perfume followed in , slightly disoriented struts and a struggle to remove her shoe till she finally entered in , a black armless dress stopping at just her thigh region, her lips were a smudged bloody red and her thick curly hair was a mess, like someone had been ruffling it, she strodded in, Rhea stood up wanting to talk to her but Diah just ignored her as she walked past her and went straight to the refrigerator, she opened it and took a bottle of water before she chugged it down , she leaned on the kitchen counter catching her breath.
Rhea stood outside the kitchen watching her, she was nervous, then they made eye contact , Rhea pressed her thumb against her palm, she needed to say something, It was Diah, she swallowed hard, " Diah let's.....", she rolled her eyes before Rhea could say anymore, " I'm tired ", she said coldly as she threw the bottle into the trash , she stared at Rhea with that unsettling gaze before she preceeded to walk away , Rhea bit the inside of her lips till she could feel warmth and that metallic taste spread through her mouth , she couldn't just let this go like that, she swiftly turned around, " at least....", her voice was shaky but she dismissed it, Diah paused right infront of her room door , " at least.....let's eat together...for old times sake hmm...", there was silence for a while and it felt suffocating, the tension between them was so thick and it seemed like nothing was going to happen, like she was going to open that door and that will be the end of it, Diah clenched her fist tightly before like in defeat she slowly unclench it with a sigh accompanying it, without looking at Rhea she just stroded to the dining table, sat down and just began to eat . It seemed like just yesterday when they ate customers left overs from where they worked and now they had a feast for just a mere reconciliation, it was almost ironic, Rhea sat opposite her , not touching her food, what was she going to say , for some reason now that she had Diah right infront of her it seemed like she had gone blank.
" You are not eating ", said Diah non challantly as she continued stuffing her face without looking up at Rhea thereby breaking her from her trance , " ah....I will eat later", then a deafening clank echoed through the apartment, it was like some sort of retaliation , Rhea looked up startled at the sudden metallic noise against the table and she saw Diah ruffling her hair more, " I shouldn't eat then...., it will make me feel like a pig,don't out think ", " that is not.....", " it's enough,....I've lost my appetite anyway....I will be going to bed now", her voice was calm and cold like she wanted to say more but she was restraining herself. As she stood up, the chair scrapped against the floor as she attempted to leave, " is this how you want to keep living .....huh Diah?", Rhea asked , her voice quite, concerned , Diah turned back, her jaw clenched, her eyes glinting with something unfamiliar , hatred anger ?, she couldn't tell, Rhea stood up and aggressively snatched her bag from the couch nearby where she had placed it earlier, then she pulled out a pamphlet from the bag and she strodded over to Duah , long strides that lacked that hesitation she had once had, she shoved the pamphlet into Diahs hand, " go back to college, they have good programs at this school, I am willing to pay for whatever expenses or your lifestyle or wha.....", there was a snort and then full blown laughter , Diah was laughing, " why?.....are you tired of having me around , am I becoming a burden to you , is that it Rhea....is that why you are trying to abandon me now", tears already streaming down her her face , her voice chocky as she leaned back on the wall, the lights seemed to grow dimmer . Rhea couldn't speak, that is not what she had meant, is that how she had sounded?, , was Diah like this because of her?, had she been inconsiderate all along?, her vision began to get blurry and her hand felt loose as the pamphlet fell, what had she done.
" We promised to be successful together.....why are you the only one being successful, I have also tried , I tried not to be envious, I tried to be happy for you, but how could I....when I am still living this shitty life and the worst part is I still benefit from you, like you are pitying me", she slid down on the wall, those tears continuously flowing, the pain and resentment that seemed to have accumulated for some months now finally fell, Rhea fell down on her knees as tears also streamed down her face , " why....why are you crying, you are successful, you jave money now , so...what gives you the right to cry alongside me...you are so pathetic", her resentment was full blown now as her face contorted to that of rage, her words felt like venom piercing deep into her chest.
Rhea hurriedly scooted over and desperately grabbed unto Diah hands, her hand trembling against hers, " Diah...Diah I'm sorry, I didn't mean it that way, please forgive me", but Diah just yanked her hand away as she scoffed , " don't act like you care, ...", Diah leaned in closer, " it's your fault I'm this way....., enjoy your bloody money and your useless success , I despise you with everything in me,.....I will leave you with this perfect life of yours ", saying that she stood up as Rheas body just shook as she sobbed, " don't you dare look for me, if you do.....I will kill myself , I already feel pathetically it is, don't make me hate myself mire than I do now..", saying that she left the house , the door clicked closed and a cold atmosphere settled over their home which was now Rheas home , only Rhea quited sobs could be heard in that empty house, now she was truly alone.