I'm standing glaring at what appeared in front of me in shock, like I'm dreaming. Gravity felt much more heavier when i saw her.
Haime and Amira were speechless too. If we were looking at a ghost, we wouldn't be this shocked.
To think we would see our Inna looking like a mess, drunk, in high spirits and on top of it talking to me like nothing happened!
This sight will always be in the back in my mind everytime i see a drunken person with red eyes.
Inna tried to approach me with a hug, leaving me dodging it subconsciously.
"Hahaha! What's wrong. You all seem like you've never seen me before."
Amira reacted to the scene with complete disbelief.
"This girl is out of her mind!"
Haime too felt like she had something to say.
"We're just wondering, we saw Nadeer in a terrible state so we are trying to figure out what happened between you two."
Inna responded as if that's nothing to be concerned over.
"Between us two? I don't know what got into him. But what i know for sure is that he wouldn't think he has a chance with me anymore-"
"What?! What did you tell him?!"
I was angry at Inna in a way i never been angry at anything before. My gears were heated.
I stepped closer to her face, looking deep into her irises. They both wouldn't move and her smirk wasn't shaken in the slightest.
Feeling like the situation turned personal between me and Inna, Amira and Haime stepped aside leaving the scene entirely to us.
"Stop acting like this and tell me exactly what happened."
Inna stayed silent for a moment before she let out.
"Are you seriously assuming i would be that easily persuaded?"
"What do you mean?"
Getting angry was the right thing to do. We were supposed to have fun. Plus Nadeer put in too much effort for the party to be great. Only for it to be ruined by her arrogant personality.
Those were the kind of thought that i had then. But deep down, i was kind of relieved.
"For the most of my life i was known as a control freak. The girl that people would think she has the answers for everything. And i helped feed into that narrative with my own efforts. And i was satisfied because i love control. Don't you agree?"
"Well... Clearly that was the case."
"I thought I'm going to be this control freak forever. Until i met you. As we kept hanging out together more, i realized how much it is easier to just let go. I don't have to apply control on people to get what i want when i could simply follow the lead of someone else and still get what i want. All thanks to you Ruby. I'm now very happy and don't have to carry a whole load on my shoulders simply to feel satisfied about my life and what i have accomplished."
"H-H-Huh!! Are you saying I'm the reason for what happened?!"
It was tough to grasp what she was saying, not because i didn't understand, but because of how wrapped up she was on what's we were up to. It's like she's always two steps ahead in everything.
Without mentioning it directly, she showed me that she already know that Nadeer is knowledgeable of her controling personality, and that is why he wanted her.
"Heh! Even so. I wouldn't blame you. I don't think you were capable of something like that... No offense."
"Tsk. Like that would offend me. I would never steep that low to manipulate someone to serve my interest."
"... That's what i love about you Ruby."
That immediately made me form a extremely confused face.
"Love... The reason for me being painted as a monster right now. When all i was looking for was love. Yeah. I'm tired of holding someone as a hostage to make sure i don't get my feelings hurt. I wanna be like you, with a big heart, so that everyone loves me~"
In that moment, my forced anger has ran out, and i addressed the situation with what i really wanted to say.
"... I bet it feels so good to finally say that. We don't need to pretend anymore."
Inna looked eyes widen at me from the statement i just let out, like it struck a sensitive nerve. Just to then go back to her usual collected self that like how she is always.
"Yeah... I never thought i would ever say something like this... Don't you think that things would be a lot simpler. If we just done one single action. Then we would be exactly where we want to be."
"... Umhmm. It's like we have these rules that we push on ourselves and we keep following them, even though they mean nothing."
"Exactly."
The conversation was at this point calm and chill, which made me stress and my blood started to boil again.
"... Uhh. I'm terrified... I'm scared."
My instincts made feel this way. Now that I'm with Inna, i wanted to tease her.
Only a person who understands well and feel for you, a person who's very special would understand what a vague reaction like that actually meant.
Inna came and hugged me from behind, bringing her head to rest on my back, before she started moving her hands around.
"There's no reason to feel bad. No reason to be afraid. Your guider is here. And she is very proud of you."
It was a sweet moment where i shared this emotional feeling with Inna. Her words were exactly what i needed to calm down.
When we were just a bit away from upscalling this intimite moment, my phone rang.
Bringing back my awareness to the situation, i pulled it out to check who it was, and to my surprise it was Nadeer.
"Hello? Nadeer? What's up?"
The call got a lot of wind i could barely hear anything.
"Uh... Ruby. I don't know what to do anymore. I... *Heavy inhale*."
"What? What's wrong? Where are you?"
"... I'm in my old school. I'm on top."
When he said he's on top, i knew how ugly the situation has turned into.
"Just stay there don't do nothing. I coming right now!!!"
"..."
After he hang up. Inna turned around and decided to leave.
She throw her hand up and said her goodbyes.
"Go see him. He's probably have something important to say... I'll be seeing you around Ruby."
"Inna..."
I was thinking our moment wasn't concluded well enough. I didn't like the way we left things, dismissing me softly, i watched her leaving me with her furry jacket that was hugging me. Leaving a sour taste just all around.
With this kind of feeling, headed to see my friends and Tori to ask them what happened. I could still feel Inna's hands imprinted on my ass cheeks.
"Hey! How did Nadeer got away!"
"We're just talking to Torino about it. Appearantly he asked to walk for a little and then he vanished."
"Man. he's just called me... He said he's at Southern Academy. At the rooftop."
"Wawawhat? Oh no... We must do something."
Yes. In moments like these it best to call help. But if i did, i thought, i would betray him. Plus I'm don't really believe in that kind help. So i decided to handle it myself.
"Nah, don't worry. I'll just go."
"You sure...? I mean, we could go with you. The party is already cancelled."
"I'm sure. It's late for you guys anyways. I'll go and help him get through this situation."
"This information should stay between us. Don't tell anyone about it."
I left the trio and headed towards Southern Academy. At this late hour, i know I'm not making it home at a decent hour.
I've finally arrived, i checked the time and it was 2:30 am.
I had to push the entrance door which was unlocked, by Nadeer i assumed.
Why does he have to go to such lenghts
The school looked empty, i raised my head to try and see if someone was at the rooftop.
I climbed the stairs and went to the rooftop, i found him sitting near the edge of the building gazing at the horizon.
"Nadeer... You have no idea how worried you got me! On all of us. We didn't know if we're gonna see you again..."
"I'm sorry..."
Damn he was sad. Really sad. His goofy voice is now replaced by a sincere real person's voice.
"You know. I was about to jump, and then i froze and didn't do it. At that moment, your face flashed by my eyes and made me have a thoughtful conversation with myself."
"... Me? Is that so... Well I'm glad you're safe. Glad you didn't do it... You would've made a huge mistake Nad."
"It's like nothing mattered anymore when i wanted to jump. I wasn't suicidal like that. But when Inna agreed to step up to the stage. I got way ahead of myself and started thinking about our future."
"I wanted to be her properity, i got greedily desperate. I wanted her to show me my destiny. This was my ultimate goal."
"But when she asked me for my love so suddenly. I couldn't respond. That was her condition, if it wasn't i would've just dismissed her and laughed. But i had to do it."
"I didn't want to give love to her. Or more like i couldn't. So when i was feeling like I'm selling and failing, i felt like my chronological clock stopped. . . I didn't know what to do next. . . I didn't want to live in this world anymore."
After explaining his thought process thoroughly, i couldn't help but admire the story.
"I didn't know you were in such a deep attachment to your sentiments... That's dangerous."
I felt like this kind of route was very out my outcome. So it was hard to relate to it.
"No. Those sentiments are actually what showed me the right path of viewing things. Even though they were about to harm me, they saved me at the end."
"... Wdy?"
"When your face flashed in front of me. I finally realized. I was never the person who's suitable for Inna anyways. So all i could've done was this failed attempt. Haha, I was never the one."
"... That's great to hear, you will now be able to move on."
Without me realizing, the dawn had just set, i could see the early sun lights raising beaming in the horizon, made me realize the time that was passed and how chilly it got.
"But... How would my face made it into all of this?"
This is when Nadeer looked at me for first time since i came, and said with a subtle voice trying to make me hear him clearly with his hurt voice.
"Because the one that is most suitable for Inna... Is you."
Those word left speechless, thoughtless, i couldn't process what he just said.
"I would be happy if i continued my life in the rainy gloomy days, just for the fact that I've found a match like you two, knowing that y'all are both out there together."
Nadeer said those words with a smile i couldn't doubt it's realness by looking at his eyes.
After that, Nadeer got up. He approached to me and walked passed me, before stopping and putting his hand on my shoulder.
"It been fun hanging out with you, I'll be back to my regular life, take care of yourself for me. Ruby~"
And he left, i stood still. Thinking of what to do and how to fix this, but Nadeer speech was too strong.
I was captivated by how beautiful his speech was. And for some reason, i remembered myself when i was a child.
One of the most beautiful things i experienced since i was kid. Before i went on this road and become a barhopping girl.
Nadeer left, but his words couldn't leave me, i wanted to keep this feeling forever, this is what i was missing, a great believe in the fact that seeking the path of good is highly rewarding and beautiful at the end. As oppose to ending your life.
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