I used to roll over and kiss you in the morning.
Good morning.
I just realized.
That you never leaned in to kiss me back...
Fuck that.
You used to go around telling people
That I was "your person."
That shit hurt,
Cause how could you treat someone you "love."
Like shit, like that?
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I got so used to you
Making me coffee
When I'd wake up.
But I do that for myself now,
That's an emotional shake-up.
It's been a year since I last saw you,
Been four years now
Since we breakup.
I mean, broke up.
I've been open to new love,
But I'm having no luck...
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I am a different man,
My heart knows what it wants,
But I will never chase another one
For days,
Or weeks,
Or months.
I need mutual attraction now,
I need that shit upfront.
I won't clock you.
I will block you.
Sorry if I come off blunt.
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I've healed so much
Beyond her touch
That I can finally see.
All the stars that shine,
Beyond my mind,
That randomicity.
I'm afraid to love
Beyond, above
What presents before me...
I can see the flaws
On all their walls,
I've found
That clarity.
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I no longer feel
That longing here.
I'm not as heavy now.
All that love I wasted
On her life,
I've reimbursed
Somehow.
I am invested in me.
I am all that I could need.
I am everything
And everyone
That I could possibly be.
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I got so used to rolling over
And kissing her on the face
That for far too long,
It felt so wrong
To ignore that old taste.
I could never have imagined
That I would leave her someday.
That this love that I had thought I knew
Would quickly melt away.