Jay jay's pov :
I was trembling with fear I never been afraid of anything or anyone except him.Yes, we reached the hospital but me?
I.... I don't know what is happening with me even my tears seemed to froze as my thoughts gone wild. I am willing to give up my own life if it would keep him alive. The smell of medicine and hospital touches my skin, doctors don't even comes out and I can't even take seat calmly I was watching them through the iccu glass. I could hear doctors panicking to keep him.... 🥺. it is my fault is shattering me into million pieces maybe what's they are saying out there is true I am indeed bad luck. Kuya Angelo settles me down but my heart beats kept on rising as if they lost its rhythm. I really wanted to cry but they seemed to froze as I was staring at something blankly.
It is me again once it was my uncle,he died then my lilly(to know about characters read breaking hearts and healing and crazy)everyone whom i was being close to is fading from my life and section e around me is holding themselves back while their eyes are telling other story. Thyme, gorya, kevin, Michael, ren is anxiously waiting for the outcome as their legs kept shaking. reo, hillia and jo is trying to put myself together but they don't even realise I am already broken to trillion pieces.
The people who matters is fading from me why why god why are you being so unfair? 🥹what did i do to you to hate me this much? I grew up with parents but they don't even cares if I was existing even though it was completely unintentional I was abused by my own stepdads and i even killed someone and it is now twice. will he be angry with me? I was alone my whole life until section e came to my life and my keif entered in my heart then i was in a love triangle set me up in a engagement i don't even know about.after a lot of time i got to know the people who matters more in my life just betrays me they regreted and i finally got back with my heart beat in my life. Now because of me he is fighting for his life and my fingers were feeling stiff and numb why why me only? don't I deserve love? is it a curse?I was lost in my thoughts when Aries approaches me
"jay he is going to be alright ok"he said forcing a smile, But I know what he is hiding behind it.
After a Long time Doctor emerged out I drag myself to him as if the thread of my life is already tired.
"Doctor nothing happened to h..... him, right?"
My words cracks at the last words.
"We did the best we can and he got stabbed in spinal code he is out of danger but he lost so much blood when he reaches here he is slightly paralysed he can hear us but he can't respond he is not in comma but when you calls them he will respond it may take some time. You can visit him"
As doctor disappear from my sight I crashed to ground my knees touches the ground with a thud
"Jay!!"
"Shit jay are you okay"
voice met my ears but I couldn't even figure out what others were saying. Everything was a blur around me.
Leo came beside me.
"Mummaa"
his hands clutched my fabric as his tiny hands wrapped around me creating a warm hug which i needed the most.
"Mumma papa is going to be alright but he is strong he will come back"
his words breaks me but I can't even cry it was they froze own its own. I cupped his tiny cheeks and said
"Mumma is a bad luck leo everyone close to mumma disappears mumma don't want to lose you too"
his eyebrows meets together making a little frown his next words carry sarcastic response.
"Mumma is my lucky charm without mumma there is no leo"
Aries came beside me and said
"why did you say that jay you are not a bad luck can't you see everyone is afraid to lose you even the person inside there sacrifice himself for you"
exactly i don't want him to sacrifice for me cause I can't bear to loose him.... I really wanted to cry but the air around me felt frozen their voice were not entering into my soul i just stare blankly at the ground as Percy and Aries pulled me into a hug but me? I don't know how to respond back my hands felt weak my hands felt sweaty
Percy said something to ease the situation
"Come on baby sis your handsome brother hugs you don't be grumpy just hug back you will never get this chance again"
I can't say anything I was frozen to the ground.
"You can visit him"
Those words rang in my head as soon as they left me i ran to the door where my keif is sleeping. the sight infront of me broke me oxygen pipes clutched to his mouth eyes fluttered shut as his hands were not even moving his heart beats were ringing in electrocardiogram.
I clutch his bed frame to remain my balance but my knees betray me as they crash to the ground. my hands slowly held his hands tighter.
"Keifer please come back please you are everything to me i beg you please.. D... Don't l... Leave me t... Too"
I searched for expressions in his face but his face remained cold emotionless not even a subtle movement...I couldn't take it anymore
I got out from the door I saw everyone looking at me and I could hear someone calling my name but Everything turned into a blur My ears kept betraying me "kuya I want to go somewhere please"
Kuya angelo opened his mouth to object but seeing my condition he can't help but nod I took the car keys drove off to my home which no one knows about and the tears they falls to the ground my face turned pale the voice of my stepdads rang in my head
"You are the bad luck"
"A fucking piece of shit"
"A whore"
"You carry bad luck with you"
My heart pains with my mind i can't help but groan "Arghhhhh" it came out like a scream My breathing becomes labored, my heart rate increases, my mind becomes hazed as if there is a thick fog setting in. I feel like the world around me is closing in around me, as if I'm trapped in a tiny box that is shrinking and crushing me. I want to scream to release the pressure that is building in my body but no matter how much I do it doesn't get better I got up tearing everything apart the papers lying, the pillows, the flowervase everything my mind and hand was a storm tears blurred my vision. I tried to focus on my madness then I finally calm myself down but the sobs kept increasing.i collapsed to the floor. I wrapped my arms around my knees and buried my face into hands curling in the corner like a tortoise in shell. after sometimes I looked at myself in mirror I was a mess red eyes,hair disheveled, face red, tears streaks in corner of my eyes, snots, various tiny cuts in my arms it hurt but my heart hurts more. I washed my face with water fixed myself and wear a oversized hoodie and reach in hospital.
He was there lying lifeless like the world around him doesn't exist anymore. I held his hands planting a kiss to his knuckles.I slept while holding his hands
2nd day
2nd day was not better either. I kept whispering his name and barely eat anything but I refused to leave him. leo was always beside me his words were too mature to be honest and Kuya Angelo, Aries and percy was more worried kuya angelo sat beside me
"Jay I will by some lechon isn't it tasty? "
"Kuya please I will eat later I want to sleep a bit"
Aries snapped as he heard me.
"When jay? You barely eat anything you only drink some water and nothing more its already 4:00pm"
"I... I will eat"
"You aren't handsome enough baby sista i will get you snorlax if you eat"
I don't know but I don't want anything.I just want to see him smile am I being too dramatic?
"I... I will eat kuya"
C-in's pov
She barely eats anything.....
"Is she really our jay?"
I whispered into the air.
"She is looking like a weird creature"
Rory chimes in and got smacked by Grandpa dabid he said
"She usually weights about 60 now she looks like 30"
Yuri whispered into the darkness as his fist clenched.
"She is refusing to eat food!?"
Calix was next
"And snorlax!!!???"
"I miss them I miss Jayfer "
everyone's colour fades as they stares into the icu door. 🥲
Jay jay's pov
(3rd day)
its been two days since he woke up,since he smiled at me since he teases me relentlessly. I miss him. I want you keif❤️🥹
You idiot you ulupong do you know how much I wanted to cry, to hold you, to hug you?🥺
You dumbest being on earth I will give you hundred kiss if you wake up just get up why are you just sleeping everytime aren't you tired?🙃
"Please keif comeback "
"Hubby your queen is waiting for you get up"
"Aren't you eating we have adobo, lechon here"
"Don't you want a kiss"
these two days I always chants hoping some miracle would happen but he just lie there lifelessly fluttering eyes closed.
Aren't you enjoying you ulupong?my head feels really heavy today like a truck crashed into my head and really cold I could barely stands up but my hands curled around his when c-in stood beside me in his gummy smile his eyes were mischievous
"Jay i got you some kinder balls and guess what its limited edition "
I really wanted to smile but my smile just emerged like a grimace.
"Leave him jay, I got you a surprise "
Reo chimed in while holding something behind him. It was a snorlax, a cute little snorlax it was fluffier than every snorlax I had this time i manage to force a smile even though my heart clenches.
"Waaa it is not fair jay "
batang kumag(c-in) said while pouting.
"I am sorry c i will make it up for you"
"It was because you are not handsome enough to make her smile short legs"
"Jay your uncircumcised brother has gone nuts he is bullying me"
As they bicker I just exhaled into the air making them more sad.
"Keifer can't you hear your gf she looks like a meercat"(an animal)
Edrix suddenly said to lighten up the situation suddenly drew smacked his head and said
"You idiot it is wife"
They search for expressions in my face but it remained emotionless as i whispered while caressing my keif's hair,
"I am indeed your wife please come back for once"🥹❤️
Calix saddened while he disclosed what is curling around his heart.
"Please comeback Keifer everyone is waiting for you"
josh muttered under his breath
"We want our president"
the atmosphere turned heavier as no one spoke
It was evening when kuya angelo barged in
"Jay i got you lechon eat something "
"Kuya i will eat a bit later"
"bit later bit later do you even how you look now?"
He finally snapped Aries tried holding him back.
"You look like a ghost, You think Keifer like this?
I can't even reply but I am scared what if something happen to him?leo was right beside me he tugged at my sleeves.
"I drank water"
"Water yeah in morning, its been two days since you eat,You are going to eat and that's final "
I couldn't hold myself back as i tears streamed in my face.my heart is bleeding like hell 😭I wanted to be with him but everytime god tests me like it is his enjoyment I want him I want him till my last day since my eyes closes forever.
"Why? Why??? He don't want to see me he... He don't look at me, he don't speak to me, he don't tease me, I am a bad luck everyone who is close to me is disappearing from my life. it is me. It is me everytime I love him What if what if I am not beside him when he wakes up?What if something happen to him?What if-"
I stopped mid sentence when suddenly.....
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Thankyou
Even i cried while writing this chapter huhuhu my jayfer heart but i will make it upto you guys 😭 just wait....I promise next chapter will heal you cuties
spoiler:"Jay having fever"
"Keifer getting up or not? "
"Section e being a chaos?"
"Jay's Heart clenches as she found something "
A scratch:"I was just sitting then suddenly i saw a message which makes my heart stop. I found myself near her"
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