Though she had her funk from Blair and Gabe, she didn't let it affect her game. At the downtown bar later that night, she tired to get laid. Tired was the main word to use in this case as she was failing to talk to anyone, her mind seemed to be fulled with her being a bad person. Blair and Gabes words in her head.
Blair.
Fucking Blair.
She started this. She made her feel like this, she needed to get laid to forget this but she knew she wouldn't. Groaning softly to herself as she downed her whiskey, then placed the glass down as she ran her hands through her hair.
"Hey." A soft voice said, she knew that voice. When Addy lifted her head and turned, there stood Zoe. A smile on her lips and pink cheeks. Addy smiled back.
"Hi. What are you doing here?" Zoe sat down next to her.
"Came back from work, we closed late. I actually called you to ask about my next date but you didn't answer, figured you'd be here." She said as she took her purple scarf off her neck and placed it down on the bar.
Addy didn't know why but she stared at the soft skin of the younger girls neck, how she wanted to feel how warm it would be under her lips as she bit her skin-
"Sorry, I have just been… in my head today… didn't even tell Gabe I was coming out." She admitted as she ordered them drinks.
Zoe stared at the older woman from the side, sighing softly as she then took her drink from the barmen. Sipping it slowly through the straw then placing it down.
"Anything I can help with?" she asked
"I mean, you could give me head-" Zoe smacked her arm softly with a laugh, Addy smiled to her.
"Perve. I mean, do you want to talk about it."
Oh
"Oh… um… well I can ask you what I asked Gabe," Zoe nodded as she wanted her to continue, "Do you think I'm a good person? I know we don't have the best history and we don't… know one another but… Gabe and Blair both said I'm not."
"When did Blair say this?"
"She came to my place the other day and asked about getting you another date outside of New York, not a bad idea… I may have pushed it by flirting with her a tad and she called me a pervert then when she left she said I must find someone good unlike me for you. Gabe said I am nice and can work well and do my job, care about him but I only do things for others when I know I will get something back… he said I am not terrible but I'm not great either… it shouldn't bother me this much but I guess I'm hurt… which I know I'm not allowed to feel-
"You are. You're human, Addy. You can feel hurt when your friends tell you things like that… Blair is just… Blair. She doesn't think before she speaks and it gets her in trouble a lot… she says bad things to me as well." Zoe placed her hand on Addisons shoulder for comfort.
"…do you think they are right?" She said in a whisper.
Truth be told, Zoe didn't have a soild opinion on Addy. She didn't think she was bad or good, she didn't think anything of her other than the fact she was pretty and had a husky voice that made her tighten her thighs. She didn't think she was bad, at all. Even if she does bad things, she thinks she is a good person.
She shook her head.
"I think you're a very good person that has had very bad things happen to them." Addy frowned then smiled.
"Did you just fucking quote Harry Potter to me?" She lauged as Zoe blushed. Smacking her.
"Shut up! I am but it is true! You are a good person, you just didn't have a good life and you are this way because of that but that doesn't mean you're a bad person. You have a good heart." She said honestly which made Addy watch her with a soft gaze she never thought the older woman had.
"…You don't think I want things from people for my own benefit?"
"Is that what you are doing with me and others?"
"No- well for sex from others but I don't know them, I know you and I only want to you to be my friend." She said, blushing as she realized she just admitted to the younger girl she wanted her to be her friend. Zoe smiled widely.
"What was that?"
"Shut up."
Now Zoe laughed at her as she felt her cheeks hurt from smiling and laughing. Addy didn't stay pouting long as she joined her in the laughter, watching her eyes and nose crinkle when she giggled, making her look a lot cuter than she should be.
Addy shook her head then cleared her throat after they stopped laughing. Looking down at her drink as she forced herself to not think about how she wanted Zoe to laugh again.
"So… did Gabe get you a date? I asked him to." Zoe nodded, taking her pone out to show her the message.
"We are doing the same plan as we have. I just need to tell him as well how it goes… she's from Jersey and is older. I just hope she's nice."
"How much older?"
"Older."
"Is she older than me?" Zoe nodded, Addy frowned. Why they hell would Gabe do that to her.
"If you need me to save you, call me."
"I will."
March 29
Zoe sat in the overly fancy restaurant, it was as Friday night and she pulled her dress down again. This was Blairs. She hated this dress more than anything and she hated the idea it gave.
She is meeting an older woman. A few years older than Addy. Who is a college professor. She sounded sweet over the phone but knowing she was a teacher or professor made her nervous. She doesn't know much about her and she knew that the older woman knew she used to teach, this could go many ways.
Then she walked in, her hair long and down her shoulders as she walked in confidently. The eyes went to her as she walked to the younger girl.
Am I a fish in her shark tank right now? Zoe thought as she wondered if this older woman was into younger girls and attention, because she got a lot of it as she sat down at the table.
She flashed a smile, her lips coated red. Her face soft but sharp. Her demeanour told you she meant business. She actually reminded Zoe of Addy.
She prayed they didn't know each other.
"Hello darling. I am sorry for keeping you." She said in a deep and seductive tone, that made Zoe really think of Addy. This was weird but she shook it off.
"No, it's okay. I haven't ever been to this type of restaurant, very fancy." She admitted as the older woman smiled again, leaning forward. Zoe made sure to keep her eyes on her face rather than her boobs that spilled out her dress. She felt herself clench her thighs together at the mere thoughts of what this woman could probably do to her.
"I understand, I wanted to make a goof first impression. Maybe this place was too much."
"It's fine, really. I am happy to see you in person… you are a lot different in person… you even remind me of my friend."
"Oh? Is she the same age as me? Same profession?"
"No, she's in business, a little bit younger than you and she is just the same as you. Walks with the same confidence you have, the way you talk and the way you are looking at me… all her."
"Well, sounds like you watch her a lot to notice these things and if she is like me, she has the same thing on her mind as me." She said as she kept looking at her.
"What's that?"
"Do you really want to get into that before we even have ordered?" Zoe blushed and shook her head as the older woman smiled.
I hope it isn't what I think it is.
On the other side of town, Addy was in her bedroom with a girl she picked up from the bar, not wanting to actually look at her but just fuck someone. She went down on her, she used her fingers, now she was bending her over the bed as she went deep with the strap, gripping her hips hard as the girl whimpers and moans.
Addy grunted as she thrusted inside her, tilting her head as she picked her pace up a bit then flipped the girl around to her back. Hoisting her leg up higher as she went even deeper at the angle.
The other girl cried out in pleasure.
"Fuck! Fuck! Oh fuck!" She could get out as she moaned with her head dipped back then looked up at Addy. Addy was more focused on her tites bouncing with each thrust to meet her eyes, letting on hand move up her body to grip her one breast then let go as she continued.
Watching the strap go in and out of the girls cunt, the noises coming from both her mouth and her wetness was insane. The other girls hands seemed to reach out for her but then her hands splayed on Addys abs.
Her nails dragged down when Addy went harder, making them both moan and groan.
The older woman leaned down to fully cover her as she kissed her so deeply and messy, the other girls hands loosely held her shoulders as she tried to kiss her back while her hips messily tried to meet her thrusts, Addy kept hold of one of her hoisted legs and the other on the side of her head as she kept herself up.
Meanwhile Zoe was actually having a good dinner with the 40-year-old woman. She learnt about her, her name being Christina, divorced, two grown children and a full-time professor at the university she teaches at. She was a well-travelled woman, been around the world a bit and even stayed in South Africa for a time. She hasn't done a lot of dating.
She knew Gabe through a friend of a friend. She also found it strange at the fact he chose her given the age difference.
Once their plates were taken, Christina leaned back with her wine glass and smiled.
"I have to ask, you mentioned you are qualified to teach but haven't in a while. Why not?" Zoe stopped mid sip.
She hated talking about what happened. It wasn't her fault, as everyone had told her. Even the parents. She still blamed herself.
"Um," she started as she placed her glass down, "I would rather… not talk about it. It's just… still very raw… sorry." Christina shook her head and placed her own glass down, putting her hand over Zoes smaller one.
"It's okay. I'm sorry, I don't want to make you uncomfortable."
"No, you didn't. It's just… something happened that lead me to quit. Nothing too… well it was bad but yeah… I just never got over it."
"I understand. Teaching is such a beautiful job, you build relationships and bonds, when something happens where those relations were built, it is hard to come back to it."
"Yeah… yeah… sorry. I don't want to ruin the mood."
"The mood is not ruined, you would need to do a lot more to me for that to happen and I am… very attracted to you, dear. So it is alright." She smiled to her, taking her hand back as they watched each other from across the table.
Zoe wondered if now was the time to break it to her and tell her she hasn't ever had sex and can't dare to go further than this tonight. She would think she is a tease. She seems like one and was told this one most of her dates.
The eye contact didn't die for a moment, which made the younger girls cheeks flush as she cleared her throat. Excusing herself to go to the bathroom to get a breath.
She didn't think to say she wanted to be alone as Christina followed her, not pushing or forcing herself on her. She locked the door and leaned against it as she watched her.
They didn't say anything.
The tension building was something that reminded her of Addy. The same build up to nothing, the same pull. She wondered if she had a thing for older dominate woman.
What she didn't noticed until she felt hands touch her gently behind her, then hold her waist. Looking at her in the mirror for a moment before she was spun around to look up at her. Her lips parted slightly as a breath left them.
Christina moved a hand to her cheek, gently holding it before she leaned down to kiss the younger girl. Nothing rushed, no heat. Just a soft kiss to her lips. Zoe hasn't ever had this type of kiss.
There was a heat but not burn. She didn't know what that meant but she knew she wasn't thinking of Christina.
She thought about Addison. Wondering if they had to kiss, would it be this soft. Would she be this careful and gentle.
No.
She wouldn't even touch her.
When the older woman pulled back, she looked down at Zoe. A soft smile on her lips.
"I'm sorry. I just wanted to give you a kiss before the night ended."
"That's okay."
"…I also don't think we should see each other again."
What
"What?" Zoe asked a bit shocked. The older woman still held her close to her.
"You are the same age as my daughter and my students. Besides… I can see you have someone else on your mind when we talk, even now, that kiss was meant for someone else. I'm not upset, I understand. My ex wife and I are wanting to try again, the pull we have is what you have with the person on your mind." She said to her gently. Zoe looked up at her and didn't stop staring.
"She'd never see me like that."
"Why not?"
"…I'm a virgin."
"So?"
"She doesn't want to ruin me." Zoe said softly.
"Yet you think about her more than you should." How did she know. Zoe nodded and smiled softly.
"I'm sorry-
"No. I had a wonderful evening, I needed to get out and meet a sweet girl like you but I know we can both agree this won't work."
At least the date ended on good terms, understanding and no fights or disagreements. She actually enjoyed her date even if it wont led anywhere. This was what she needed, but she knew she had to get over the stupid little crush on Addy.
If she can see it, then who else and will this ruin her chances at getting the one that is meant for her.
Since she has to know and agree, Addison Marlow is not the one for her.
Even as badly as she wanted it to be her.