"I think I couldn't come to pick you up today," he said.
"Yuan, what are you doing?" I asked him.
"What? I am just informing you that I couldn't come to pick you up, what's wrong in that?" he asked me.
"There is nothing wrong in that, Yuan, but the wrong thing is the way you said that 'I think I couldn't' and these words make me feel that…," and I stopped myself before saying it.
"Feel what?" he asked me.
"Nothing, you just do your work and I'll reach there on my own, don't worry about me, I'll go there by myself," I said.
"Ok ok, I know my little silly girl is really capable of everything or anything to do," he said it while smiling. Yes, I can feel that smile of him through the phone also.
"I know you must be laughing at me," I said.
"No, how could I? Even I just didn't dare to laugh at my girlfriend. You know what, she is really short-headed, she gets angry very fast, but you know what, she didn't know one thing."
"What?" I asked him.
"That she looks the cutest angry bird when she gets angry and I just wanna…," he was about to say something but stopped himself in midway.
"Just wanna what?" I asked him.
"Nothing, leave it," he said.
"Noo, tell me what you just wanna do," I asked him again.
"You are not leaving me unless I tell you, isn't it?" he asked.
"Of course, if you know that much and you are that much intelligent then tell me," I said.
"I just don't want to make you blush in the middle of the road," he said.
"You are too much," I said.
"I know, as you are so much much," he said.
"Ok bye, I am going to reach the bus stop now, bye bye," I said.
"Ok bye bye, be safe and take the steps slowly and easily," he said.
"Hm," I replied.
Then I hang up the call as my bus arrived just in time the moment I reached the bus stop, so I get inside it while taking long jumps and fast steps, completely opposite of what he told me to do. Really, if he was seeing me doing like this then he'll definitely not let me walk for a day. Thank god in front of him I have never done such silly things.
Then the bus starts moving on the road. As the bus moves, I started thinking about how I'll need to do everything there. Hmm, I have watched many videos of him attending events, but seeing them from the screen from that much far away and facing it in real life is a completely different thing. But like the variety show, this event will also go smoothly and happily like that one.
We must see the positive things in our life and that positivity brings the light in the darkness that lives inside us. And yes, it's very true, I was never like this. I always saw the negative side, I was really used to be like that, but he made me believe in positivity, that this life has a lot of positivity in it too. Despite having negativity, there is still some positivity that lives in this life and now that light is able to reach me. He brings that light to me and this light will always remain inside me forever and ever, lives like this.
Then the bus stopped and as usual my thoughts, my so-called overthinking thoughts, have been broken. Then I exhales sharply and gets down from the bus as I reached the location which needs to walk for at least twenty-nine steps more to reach the event location. Then I walked over there and after walking almost twenty-nine steps to reach there, I have successfully reached there.
The moment I reached there outside, I saw a lot of guards, the security guards were there, there is tight security. I smiled and said to myself very proudly that of course they need this much security, after all My Yuan Yuan will be going to visit here, his safety matters.
Then I took forward a few steps and while smiling I reached there, but the moment I reached there a few of the guards stopped me and said, "Sorry Miss, you can't enter from here," the security guard said it to me.
Then what could I do? I was going back to enter from somewhere else without even saying anything, but then a voice came saying that, "She is the main lead for whom all this security has been booked for today's event."
And I immediately turned, and finally my eyes found its peace, its comfort, its soothingness, and I inhaled the fresh air calmly now.
The guard looks down and said, "Sorry Mr Xu."
"It's fine, from now onwards you all should be aware for whom you all have been assigned to give security," he said that to them and they just nodded their heads.
This scene is really giving me the feel of a scenario where a king is giving command to his co-palace members for his queen, but that's all very cheesy imagination. Zhao Shiza stop here, I said it to myself.
Then I moved forward to him, but before I reach him he reached me first and hugged me while lifting me up from the floor. My feet are in the air now and I said to him, "Yuan…" but before I was able to complete my sentence he said, "Too tight, is it what you are going to say?" he asked.
I shook my head a little.
Then he slightly tilted his face to see mine and asked, "Then what?"
Then I said, "Too high."
He immediately looked at the ground now where he saw that my feet are in the air, he laughs a little.
"Why are you laughing? Put me down," I said.
He laughs again and said, "I like my silly girl to be always in the air, the air of my love for her. I want that you'll always fly in that air and now I am really not going to put you down," he said it.
Ooo my Mr heart please be stable, I know what this Yuan Yuan is doing to you but you need to be stable. No doubt he is doing every bit that my Mr heart might lose its stability but you need to be strong.
Then he puts me down on the floor and after getting down from him I really feel very short, literally very. I haven't ever felt that in my whole life, even when I know that I am not a tall girl, but today his this way made me feel that.
Then avoiding the moment I start moving fast, really fast, faster than anything to get inside the event hall and I heard it, I heard his laughing behind me. I know he is laughing at me but it doesn't make me mad at him, it only makes me feel that I am glad, literally glad that I am able to become the reason of his laughter. This is the most precious gift that I have ever received in my whole life, the reason of your laughter.
Then the moment I entered the event hall my eyes get so wide, but not more than this event hall. This is really so big that I couldn't even imagine it ever in my whole life. And there I spotted that banner, that banner of us, of our show with the pictures that we have clicked with each other in our mock shoots.
And when my eyes go down to that banner, there is written that "Lost in your Love will be airing soon only on China TV on twenty sixth March onwards."
I smiled, literally smiled while watching that poster of us because everything just feels like a dream, which is a scary one for sure because it always feels that when I'll open my eyes this dream will get shattered. This fear lives in my Mr heart rent free, but amidst this fear there is something that is bounding me and pulling me towards here and it's always him.
The things that I have always seen only on Weibo about the actors' events for their shows, now I am able to see it with my own eyes and will be going to experience it and it's really not different from what I always saw on Weibo, but the difference is the anxiety, the nervousness that I carry inside me, but they didn't, which gonna make or break this day for me.
But as Yuan said, we should always think of the positive side, not the negative one. Ok, I'll try, I'll gonna try my best to be normal.
Mr heart, are you listening me? Please be normal, I know it's all very new for you and for me too, but don't jump out of anxiety, you need to be stable throughout the event. I hope you'll gonna support me in this.
Then after praying to my Mr heart, I moved forward and some of the staff members here came to me and said, "Miss Zhao, please come and get ready for the event, the event is gonna be held within one hour."
"Within one hour?" I repeated that. "Could you please tell me that how many people are going to be there in the event, I mean the approx one?" I asked them.
They said, "The whole event hall is packed, only the stage where the actors stand will be empty, other than that nothing, and if you are asking for approx figure then it must be around two lakh or more than that."
"Two lakh?" I repeated it as my eyes go wide after hearing that digit from them.
"Yes, it's Xu Yuan's upcoming drama series event, you know it's a really big one for the whole China. After all Mr Xu Yuan is the biggest star of this c-drama industry, the people are crazy for him, so the event hall is really gonna be fully packed, and as we all know after doing many periodic dramas he is going to be seen in a modern drama series with you that his fans are really eagerly waiting for that for so long, so this event will be going to be crazy for sure," they said it.
"It seems like you are also Xu Yuan's fan, isn't it?" I asked them.
They smiled and said, "You got it right."
"Of course I will, cause only a fan can sense the other fan's feelings," I murmured to myself.
Then they said, "Miss Zhao, you can go and get ready otherwise the event will start late, the room is on the right side, we have to go, we need to do a few more preparations here," and after saying that they left.
I tilted my head slightly and saw the right side where the room is located from where I need to go now, but the moment I am taking steps forward to reach that room, my Mr heart's beating went faster than before.
To make it calm, I placed my hand on it and closed my eyes while still moving to reach the room and while reciting My Yuan's theory, while imagining him in my thoughts and keep on saying everything is going to be fine, he is here with me, calm down Shiza, just calm down.
I kept on reciting these sentences, then I reached the room and opened my eyes and exhales sharply before turning to open that knob of the door.
And then I opened it and what I saw, I couldn't be able to believe it as I saw...