Chapter 27
"Normal speech"
thoughts
'mental conversations'
Unknown location-
A visible shaking Arthur Weasley made his way towards his wife cell after getting his arse handed to him by Director Bones. His day went from bad to worse. First, he finds out that Molly assaulted Hermione in the middle of Diagon Alley, then again while inside of Gringotts, that time cost him two months' salary PLUS what little they had in their vaults, thankfully they had already paid the kids tuition for the upcoming year at Hogwarts, or so he thought. If that wasn't enough, she then proceeded to attack Hermione's mother, who come to find out is really Dowager Dagworth and a Pure-Blood. That last incident almost cost him his job. One does not simply assault a member of a Most Ancient and Noble house, which is one of the oldest families in the wizarding world to date, without repercussions.
He nodded at the guards by the door before entering his wife's cell. Molly was getting ready to begin another round of rants when he was forced to pull on his family magic and demanded, "SIT! AND BE SLIENT WOMAN!" For once in her life, Molly Weasley quickly complied with his command with no complaint. "Do you have any idea what you have done? Your actions not only cost us all we had in our vaults and two months of my salary, it also almost cost me my job!"
A red face Molly replied, "But she is just some muggle! I'm telling you Arthur, this is all…"
"That is enough Molly Weasley. How many times must I tell you to stay away from Lord Potter and his betrothed. That it is because of the Potter family that we have the very land the Borrow is built on and they it would be well within their right to take everything we own. After the stunts you pulled, he may just do that." He leaned on the table and went on to say, "For once in your life woman you are going to do exactly as I say. I want you to fix this, and in order for that to happen, this is exactly want you are going to do…"
Longbottom Manor-
Harry came flying out of the Floo after an afternoon of shopping to three adults and three teens laughing hysterically at his expense. Thankfully Emma took pity on the lad and came to his rescue by helping him up off the floor. "One of these days I will be able to travel correctly." He grumbled as he looked around the room and saw that Narcissa and Susan had their heads close together. Knowing what those two were up too he looked Emma in the eyes and said, "Why don't we head up to check on Hermione."
Emma gave him a warm smile as he tucked her arm in his. "I'm sure she is alright, you wouldn't be down here if she wasn't." As they got a little further from the group she asked, "You really do love her, don't you?"
Harry patted her arm and smiled as he replied, "More than life itself." Stopping just outside the guest room he said, "I never knew love. As a matter of fact, whenever someone would touch me, I would flinch. I still do. I never knew what kindness was and all my life I thought I was some kind of a freak whose parents were killed in a car crash due to my father being a lush. All that changed the moment I met your daughter. She was one of my first friends, my first hug. She showed me what kind was and is. She taught me about love, and it is thanks to her that I finally have the one thing I have always wanted. A family that loves me."
Seeing that Harry was bearing his soul to her, Emma pulled him into an infamous Granger hug and held him close for a few minutes while she had a few tears traveling down her cheeks. When she pulled away, she wiped the tears away and said, "I know your lovely wife has already said this to you, but I am going to say it again. Never again will you be alone. EVER. Now, why don't we go and check on your love, my daughter."
Stepping into the room they found Luna sitting in a chair on the side of the bed, Eilidah was perched on the headboard, and a very young Fawkes was sleeping at Hermione's feet. "Hello Emma, Hello Harry." Called Luna as she continued to read the latest edition of The Quibbler. Before he could respond Luna went on to say, "She is still in quite a bit of pain since her potion wore off. I didn't want to give anything to her without speaking to you or her first."
Emma sat on the bed and gently took Hermione's hand within her own, causing a small whimper to come from her. Harry closed his eyes and reached out to their bond, finding it to be slightly fuzzy. "Emma, would you be able to get Narcissa? I could really use her help since I don't trust my magic just yet. I am still feeling a bit drained."
"No need to move darling, I am already here." Narcissa said as she gracefully glided into the room. Seeing Hermione's pale disposition and the sweat forming at her brow she turned to Harry and said, "I take it the pain potion has worn off. It appears the dreamless sleep potion has begun to wear off as well."
Harry nodded, not trusting himself to speak at the moment. He desperately wished he could take away her pain and suffering. He watched as Narcissa went over to the night stand to review the potion vials when he heard a soft voice in the back of his mind say, 'Harry… I don't think I can take much more of this.'
He crawled on the bed and very slowly and as gently as possible took her in his arms while pushing all the love, courage and strength he could muster through their bond. He tried desperately not to cringe when he heard her silent screams, the last thing he needed was to have Emma realize what was really going on. 'I know it hurts love, but hang on for me. Narcissa is going to give you something.'
'This is crazy Harry. We both know that it will only work for so long. Since all of this has started, I have been this pathetic girl who can't seem to take care of herself and is constantly getting is getting hurt. Why is this happening to me Harry? We both know that I have always been very independent, and now I am forced to be this empty shell who depends on others for care.' She softly replied.
'I know the real you love. You will be better soon sweetheart' he said as he softly kissed the top of her head.
Narcissa came over with three vials and said, "Hermione, I am going to try and open your mouth. You'll be getting double strength of dreamless sleep as well as the pain potion. I fear we may have to re-dose you in a few hours. Your body is metabolizing everything at an incredible rate." She looked over to Harry and saw that he was already tilting her head back. They both worked quickly to get the potions into her and watched anxiously as Hermione's painful expression slowly melted to a more relaxed but still troubled state.
Harry slowly laid her back and when he looked up he saw that Emma was wiping her tears away while muttering about "hormones." Susan took the lull in excitement to go over and say, "We should go get you ready for dinner tonight." Emma tried to wave her off and was beginning to protest when Susan said, "We have to dress for dinner. I know you don't want to leave Hermione, but she will be sleeping for a few hours."
Harry saw that Emma still wasn't sold on the idea and said, "Go ahead Emma, I will stay here." He slowly got up from the bed and made his way over to the two. While laying a gentle hand on her arm he said, "Go. I'll watch over your little hummingbird. It will be good for you and help take your mind off everything."
Narcissa took a step forward and said, "Emma darling, I need to tell you the truth about dinner tonight." Taking her within her arms, she stared deeply into those warm brown eyes and went on to say, "We do need to dress for dinner, but dinner won't be here. I was planning on surprising you by taking you out for the evening. I would like to take you out on a date. Please… say yes."
Emma gripped Narcissa's forearms and stared back into those grey eyes, conflicting feelings running rampart. On the one hand, she didn't want to leave her daughter's side, and if she was being honest with herself, she wasn't sure if she was ready to start dating again so soon after the death of her beloved husband. But as she gazed deeply into those stormy grey eyes, she started to focus on what she was feeling at that very moment. The woman before her not only saved her life and that of her unborn child, but has truly been her rock. Words seemed to fail her when she tried to express her heart. The first time she laid eyes on Narcissa, she was too distraught to even recognize her. However, once she did, it was as if a spark that was once extinguished to embers, slowly began to smoke and glow until a tiny flame had established. There were few words to describe her feelings at that point. Quite simply, she was drawn to her and vice versus. Emma knew that Daniel approved and cared about her happiness. At one point, she bared her soul to Narcissa. In that moment, they both admitted that they were falling in love with one another all over again. That was another thing that amazed her. They managed to pick up almost exactly where they left off all those years ago.
For the first time since her school years, Narcissa started to feel very subconscious about the whole situation. She cupped the side of Emma's face in a very intimate manor and said, "Emma, I don't want to force you. I'll just leave you here then." She said while desperately trying to keep the hurt out of her voice.
She went to turn to leave when Emma stopped her by gripping her arm tightly. Narcissa still kept her back to Emma, unable to look at her at the moment when Emma said, "Wait Cissa, I would love to go out to dinner with you. I know that my little humming bird is safe here." Emma gently pulled Narcissa to face her and said, "What time are our reservations?"
Narcissa rewarded Emma with a warm smile that showed in her eyes as she replied, "Dinner is at seven."
Emma felt her heart skip a beat at the pure joy that was shown on Narcissa's face. "Any chance of letting me know where this evening is going to take us?"
Narcissa gave a flirty chuckle and simple said, "You'll see. Why don't you go with Susan and start getting ready? I am going to run a few diagnostic spells on Hermione. How about we meet back here in about an hour and a half?" Emma gave Narcissa's hand a quick squeeze before leaving with an animated Susan who was speaking a mile a minute.
"What did you really want to talk about Narcissa?" asked Luna as she returned to her seat.
Narcissa forgot for a moment that Luna was still with them, but didn't bother jumping. She looked over and saw Harry was seated at the end of the bed holding his head in his hands. She went over and put a hand on his shoulder and said, "She will get better, you just have to stay faithful. We all know that everything we are currently doing isn't working. I do have a suggestion, but I want your word that you will let me finish what I have to say before you try to argue with me."
Feeling completely lost at this point Harry looked up and replied, "You think we should put her in a magically induced coma not only so that the pain will be controlled, but it will also give her body a chance to rest and heal properly."
Narcissa crouched in front of him and said, "Yes, I do. I stand by what I said earlier. Hermione is metabolizing the potions at an alarming rate. What I didn't say earlier is that the potions we gave her will be burned off sooner than we anticipated despite doubling the dose."
"Do you have a theory as to why this is happening?" Harry quietly asked while gazing at Hermione's sleeping form.
Narcissa nodded as she replied, "I do. I believe the changes you two are going through so rapidly plays a very large part, your bodies haven't finished maturing yet and your magical cores are still unstable…possible volatile. That is also why you knew not to trust yourself to do any magic. The other factor is how grievously injured she has been. Her body never fully recovered. My hopes are that by doing this, it will truly give her body a chance to rest, something she desperately needs. When the potions start to wear off, her body starts to tense, causing the muscle to spasms to become worse, and thus preventing her body from relaxing and allowing her body to repair itself."
"And what are the complications of taking such actions?" Harry asked in almost a hollow voice.
"We do not know when she would wake. If we continue with the current course of treatment, they will most likely wear off within the next few hours, at which point we will have to attempt to give her more. It will be just as painful as before, but will eventually get better." Narcissa said as she watched him closely.
Harry sighed deeply as he thought of Narcissa's proposals. Running his finger over his lips as he digested everything he just heard when Luna's voice brought him back to reality when she said, "Things have a funny way of working out. All you need to do is think about such matters. Lose yourself in your thoughts… The answer will come to you."
Harry dropped his shoulders at the prospect of being defeated. He looked up to Narcissa and saw that she was generally concerned not just about Hermione, but about him as well. "I will think about everything. For now, I believe you have a date to get ready for. I don't want you to worry about a thing, simply enjoy the moment. You both deserve to be happy. If your theory is right, Hermione will be asleep for a few more hours. I can always send for either Poppy or Andromeda if need be."
Narcissa smiled as stood and wrapped Harry is a hug, ignoring the fact that he instantly stiffened at the contact and said, "It will be ok."
Harry waited for Narcissa to pull away and said, "I will send word if anything changes. Eilidah will be going with you, while Bess and Dobby will be waiting for your call. Enjoy yourselves, you both deserve it."
Narcissa gave him one more hug before leaving with Luna, who suddenly decided to try and embarrass Draco and Neville. Just as the unlikely duo reached the door Luna called back, "Just ignore the nargles. They tend to fill your head so that you can't find your center."
Harry decided to sit at the bottom of the bed with his legs folded beneath him. Making sure he was comfortable, he closed his eyes and focused on his breathing, slowly feeling all his worries melt away. Once he reached his center, he found that he was standing next to a large oak that was in the middle of a large courtyard. Stepping from behind the tree, he saw his mother and father were waiting for him. He took a few hesitant steps forward and saw that him mother was smiling at him while motioning him to move towards the benches and chairs that were set up just inside the shade of the large ancient tree.
His father was the first to pull him into a hug while patting his back, like men usually do to prove that they really are men. Next, his mother pulled him in for a loving embrace, one reserved for a mother to give her son, no matter their age. "Hello sweetheart. How are you holding up?" She gently asked
Harry pulled back and fell in a heap on the bench with his head buried in his hands. Lily slowly sat beside him while James pulled one of the chairs so that he could sit in front of him. "This is all too much Mum. I can handle being injured myself or anyone else for that matter. But not Hermione. I know that so much has changed in a short amount of time and she has been under so much stress lately. She isn't use to all this like I am. The Hermione I know and love seems to be buried deep within her and I don't know how to help. She isn't normally the emotional wreck, she is the level headed one who calls me crazy, stubborn and think headed. She is my rock and I feel so helpless."
James' face fell while moving to sit beside his son as Lily slide her arm around his shoulders. Lily looked over to James to see if he wanted to take the lead on this but then thought better since she was the one who used common sense. "Oh my darling son, take a deep breath for me." She waited for a moment while rubbing circles into his back. Seeing that he started to calm down she said, "That's better. Now, let's take a look at the reason you have seeked us out. We know you have a few questions, why don't we start with those."
"Was Narcissa's theory right?" Harry quietly asked.
"Yes, she was spot on." James replied, ignoring the pointed look Lily was giving him.
Seeing that James wasn't going to elaborate Lily said, "The fact that Hermione's body wasn't fully healed from the first injury has something to do with it. Your bodies have been changing drastically and under an incredible amount of stress because of it. I fear that without proper rest, a full recovery will be… difficult."
Harry just shook his head. He knew deep down what needed to be done, he just didn't want to admit it. "The only way for that to happen is to place her into a coma isn't it? It's the only way her body is going to get the rest it needs."
"It would appear so Prongslett. Call for a healer to help. We know that this is incredible difficult for you and that you both have a lot resting on your shoulders." James said in a calm voice.
Harry shook his head and said in a tone of conviction, "I never wanted any of this."
"I know son." Replied James. "But most of the time greatness is thrust upon on us. We know that you never wanted this, both of you for that matter. But for that very reason you two are perfect for it. We know that a lot is being asked of you, but we believe in you, and will help any way we can."
"If I do this, how long will it last? Are there any dangers that we need to worry about?" Harry asked as he straightened himself.
James shook his head as he replied, "We don't son, that will depend on her."
"But Hermione is a strong and fierce witch. She has a strong conviction, as well as incredible will power and is just as stubborn as I am." Lily said with a warm smile. She cocked her head to the side and with a small smirk on her face said, "I promise you that all of this is happening for a reason, but you will have to trust us. There is a lot that can go wrong, but that is not guaranteed. Besides, she has a very good reason to come back. If you are truly worried, then talk it over with some of the adults around you. I'm sure they will have an opinion on this matter."
Harry stood and turned to give his father a hug before turning to his mother and doing the same. "Thank you. I have a lot to think about. I wish you both were their when I get back."
James put a hand on his shoulder and gave it a little squeeze and said, "We are always here for you Prongslett. No matter what you choose, it will be the right answer. Once that is settled, move into Potter Manor or one of your other estates. I know you worry over the whiskered wanker, so you could always go to one of the Founder's estates."
Harry nodded as his father spoke. Realizing that this was really the best option he said, "I'll talk it over with the others." He felt his heart lift as his parents gave him one last hug and a proud smile seconds before he was brought back to his own reality.
As everything began to focus, he found himself being gently shaken by Narcissa who was also calling his name. "Welcome back. Did you find the answers you were looking for?"
Harry closed his eyes and reached out for the chain that tied him to Hermione. It was fuzzy at best, and when he tried to each out a little further, he felt it fill suddenly with pain and despair. Without opening his eye's he replied, "I did. I need to think about everything." Opening his eyes, he saw Narcissa standing before him looking every inch of royalty in a beautiful midnight purple gown with a matching elegant set of robes over it. Harry was slow to stand due to sitting cross legged for almost two hours. "You are the epitome of beauty. Emma is a very lucky woman."
Narcissa playfully slapped his shoulder and said, "Save it for you wife. You are every inch of James's son. Thankfully you got Lily's logic. Now then, do you want to tell me what you have decided?"
Both looked to the door to make sure they were alone. "I don't want you to worry about a thing except having a wonderful evening with my mother in law."
Emma walked in at that very moment wearing a stunning V-neck red gown that was incredibly simple but complimented her beauty effortlessly as it just covered the tops of her shoulders. "Worry about what?" She asked.
"Just about you two having a wondering and memorial evening. I don't want you two to worry about us, and just that I want you to enjoy yourselves." Harry smoothly lied with a warm smile on his face. He did not want to worry Emma any more than she already was.
Emma stepped forward and gave him the typical Granger bone crushing hug before saying, "I know you are up to something. Just promise me you will send for us should anything changes." Not giving Harry a chance to reply, she turned to Narcissa and asked, "Any chance on telling me where we are going this evening?"
Narcissa smiled back as she chuckled, "You'll see. However, we really do need to be going if we are to make it to our reservation on time."
Narcissa held her arm out for Emma to take so that she could escort her down stairs to begin their evening. Harry followed close behind to see them off and was greeted by Neville at the bottom of the stairs who said, "Hey Harry, I was just coming to tell you that supper is about to be served."
"Could you wait for just a moment? I want to bid these two beautiful witches good evening." Harry said as he watched Emma blush, much to his delight just like Hermione does when she gets a compliment from him, and Narcissa chuckling to herself while shaking her head at his antics.
"You really do need to stop listening to my cousin and stop channeling your father's spirit." She said as she pulled Emma closer to the door. A few steps before the door, an exhausted Amelia came walking in.
Looking up for mere seconds before running into the two she said, "Ah, just the people I have been looking for." Amelia took a few steps to take a closer look at the two and added, "Am I disrupting any plans?"
Emma beamed as she said, "Cissa is taking me out for an evening on the town. She just hasn't let me know where."
Amelia smiled back as she replied, "I won't keep you long then. I wanted to let you know that we have captured Lucius Malfoy. He is in a cell only a few of us know about. Not even the Minister or Chief Warlock are privy to that information."
Narcissa felt Emma's hand tighten on her arm instantly when she heard the news. She pulled Emma in to face her and while gently cupping the sides of her face she said, "Now we have an even better reason to celebrate." Unable to speak Emma just gave her a small smile and nodded. Turning her head slightly she went on to say, "Don't wait up."
Harry took a step towards Narcissa and added, "I expect you to behave yourself Lady Black, and to care for my mother in laws feelings. I will also hold you responsible for her safety… and virtue."
Seeing that Harry not only had a half smirk on his face, but also gave them a little wink with a little twinkle in his eye. Narcissa gave him a mock bow and said, "You have nothing to fear your Royal Highness, your mother in laws virtue is perfectly safe with me." Harry just shook his head as he watched the two walk out the front door.
Turning back, he followed Neville into the dining room with Amelia by his side. "Think you'll be able to catch up on sleep this evening?" He softly asked.
"One can certainly hope, but when your God Father is involved, one never knows what is going to happen." Replied Amelia.
Harry chuckled as the trio walked into the dining room they heard, "Auntie!" Susan came in hot as if she was on a firebolt. "Do you have to head back to the office after supper?"
Amelia gave her niece a squeeze before saying, "No, I'm here for the rest of the evening." She was completely focused on the hug with her niece while she said, "We captured Lucius Malfoy this after noon." Amelia never saw Sirius come up to stand next to her, who after hearing the incredible news pulled Amelia away Susan and in for a steamy kiss that left her weak in the knees. One moment she was standing with her niece, and the next she found herself being dipped backwards and held close by a strong pair of arms. Feeling herself being pulled back to her feet, she opened eyes and to find Sirius Black gazing deeply back.
Augusta broke up the moment by saying, "We wouldn't want the food to go to waste, now would we? We can celebrate the wonderful news later." She quickly brought the room to order and everyone took their seats. Once everyone tucked into their meals she turned to Harry asked, "How is Hermione doing?"
Everyone watched as Harry's body fell slightly. "Not well. Her body is metabolizing the potions too quickly and she can't recover properly. I was planning on speaking to you all later. I have sent for Healer Tonks to join us in a little."
"Why have you asked for my cousin pup?" Sirius asked between bites. Seeing the hurt look in his God Son's eyes he put his fork down and asked, "What has happened Harry?"
"We need to place Hermione into a magically induced coma. If we don't, she won't heal properly and it could affect her for the rest of her life." He said while trying to keep the tears from spilling over.
"Why put her in a coma Potter? What would be the possible side effects? What are the risks?" Asked a concerned Draco. Since taking the time to get to know the two, he realized that he had more in common with them than he originally thought and has become quite fond of their friendship. He always started to view Hermione as the sister she never had. He saw that Susan moved her chair closer to Harry's and placed a hand on his to offer her support.
"If I do this, there is a chance she won't wake from it. If I don't, she will most likely be on some type of potion for the rest of her life. The truth of the matter is, she wasn't fully recovered from the first injury. Right now, her body can't rest properly."
By this point in their conversation, they had finished dinner and started to head to the parlor for drink and to finish their conversation. Harry waited for everyone to be settled before saying, "The other thing I wanted to speak to you about was our current accommodations. I know we are welcome here Augusta, but we really do need to find another place to stay. I was thinking that we could stay at one of the Founder's estates. No one knows that we are the only living heirs. We can't use Ravenclaw Keep or Slytherin Manor. That leaves us Gryffindor or Hufflepuff. Or we could have the goblins update and triple check the wards so that we could use Potter Manor."
Everyone thought about the situation carefully when a Longbottom elf appeared and said, "There be a Healer Tonks here Mistress."
"Thank you Tinsy. You may show her in." Replied Augusta. She got up from her chair and walked over to Harry and asked, "Are you sure about this?" Harry just gave her a nod and he tried to keep his emotions under control.
They didn't have to wait long for Andromeda Tonks to briskly walk into the parlor. Straight and to the point as always she said, "Tell me what happened to Hermione on our way up to her room." She looked around and asked, "Where is my sister and Emma? Shouldn't they be here for this?"
Harry calmly walked to her side and said, "They are on a date and I don't want to disturb them. Emma has been under so much pressure lately, and I wanted her to have an enjoyable evening." He started to lead the healer towards the stairs and went on to say, "I'm sure you already know this but I believe they are soul mates."
Andy openly laughed at this and said, "Took you long enough." Harry just shook his head at this. Just a few steps from the door, Harry stumbled as he felt a wave of intense pain came through the bond. Andy caught him and asked, "Hermione?"
"The potions are wearing off again and her pain has spiked. She is silently screaming right now." Harry rushed through the door while saying to Hermione, 'It's alright love. We are going to take the pain away."
'Hurry Harry. I can't take this any longer. Kill me if you must, this is unbearable.' She cried, her voice filled with anguish.
'We are going to put you in a Coma love. I need you to promise me that you will continue to fight. I need you to promise that you will come back to me.' Harry replied while trying to keep his own despair out of his voice.
'I promise.' She softly replied.
Harry took Andy in and gave her a nod for her to start. Andy quickly set to work, all the while keeping a close eye not only on Hermione, but Harry as well. Ten minutes later, Andy fell back into her chair, finally finished. The moment Hermione slipped into the coma, Harry visibly relaxed. "You do realize that you will have to deal with not one but two very pissed off witches when they come back." She said.
"I am well aware of that already. Tell me, what would have really happened if Emma knew what Hermione was going through. You remember what happened when Hermione was injured and when she had that breakdown." Harry said as he sat in the chair next to his wife's side of the bed.
Suddenly a stern voice came from the door and said, "Why don't you tell me exactly what my daughter was going through."
a/n: Before any of you attempt to be rude and rip into me, I know what it is like to be in so much pain that you wish you were dead. In either the next chapter or the one after it we find out the exact reason why all of this keeps happening to Hermione. I promise you there is a reason for it. All I ask is for you all to be patient. This is the last chapter I have typed up and it may be a while before I post the next one.
Chapter 28
"Normal speech"
thoughts
'mental conversations'
Diagon Alley-
It was a beautiful summer evening, even the rain was holding off, as Narcissa apparated Emma to an empty alley that was next to a mysterious restaurant. Narcissa waited for Emma's stomach to settle before she pulled her to face her and said, "You outfit seems to be missing something my dear." She took out the jewelry box and stared deeply into Emma's eyes as she handed the box over. Emma took it and gingerly began to open it, and gasped. Seeing that Emma was about to protest, Narcissa quickly went on to say, "A beautiful woman deserves jewels to match. I know you have lost so much and thought I could help start your new collections."
"This is too much Cissa. I don't even know what to say." Emma softly replied while tracing the bracelet lightly with her finger.
Narcissa took the box back and helped put the bracelet on first and then while putting the necklace on said, "You may simply say thank you." She stepped back and added, "Those can't even hold a candle to your beauty."
Emma closed the distance between the two and let Narcissa cup the side of her face. She closed her eyes for a moment as she felt the warmth travel through her right to her heart, causing it to skip a beat and her breath to hitch. When she opened her eyes, she saw Narcissa gazing back, eyes filled with… Love. Emma gave her the exact same look as she leaned in and softly kissed Narcissa. It was as if time itself stood still when Emma gave Narcissa the sweetest kiss Narcissa had ever experienced. Feeling time slowly falling back into place, they both pulled back and smiled at each other. Narcissa tucked a stray hair behind Emma's ear and said, "We should get inside before we lose our reservations."
Narcissa tucked Emma's arm around hers and led her out of the alley. A sudden flash blinded the two as they stepped up to the cobblestone street. Narcissa's infamous icy exterior quickly came out full force as she gripped Emma's arm, displaying the very expensive piece of jewelry on her wrist, and guided her towards the entrance of Solem. Thankfully once the doors closed, the press was left outside, leaving them to their special evening. Emma watched as Narcissa took charge of the situation as she went to the matradee and said, "Reservations for Two, Black. And the next time Dowager Dagworth or myself are assaulted while attempting to enjoy an evening at your establishment, you may find a sudden decrease in your revenue. Do I make myself clear?"
The man gulped as he nervously nodded his head. "If you would please follow me… your table is ready."
Narcissa turned slightly and offered her arm to Emma and said, "Shall we?" Emma smiled as she gratefully took the offered arm, ready to spend a wonderful evening with the beautiful and elegant woman in front of her. After what happened in the alley, Emma decided to put all the other issues and worries on the back burner, and simply enjoy living in the moment.
They walked under a beautiful stone archway into a world of its own. In the center of the room was a large water fall, that was gently flowing from a mountain and surrounded by various trees and plants. As they walked towards it, Emma saw little blinking lights. Seeing Emma looking at them, Narcissa leaned over and said, "Those are fairies. It is said to be good luck for a couple when they act like this." Emma smiled up at Narcissa as she gave her arm a squeeze. The closer they got to their seats, the more it looked as if they were walking further into the forest. Before they knew it, they were suddenly on a dirt path that had small lanterns marking the edge of the small trail on both sides as well as lighting the way. Emma marveled at the beauty. Their table was centered under an open gazebo that had a lantern floating in the center of the ceiling and line of fairy lights coming out of the lantern and going to each corner.
Narcissa helped Emma into her chair before moving to sit across from her. Emma's attention was everywhere. She has never seen anything so amazing. She was brought back from her thoughts when Narcisa said, "I hope you are enjoying your surprise. I wanted to make sure this evening was perfect for you. That you had a magical moment to yourself."
Emma gave her a warm smile as she replied, "Thank you. This evening may have just started, but everything has been absolutely amazing. Are there any other surprises I need to look forward too?"
Narcissa gave a light, flirty laugh in reply, but before she could say anything, the waiter came by to take their drink order. "We would like to start with the finest bottle of red wine." The waiter gave a bow of his head before turning to leave. Once he was gone she went on to say, "I was planning on ordering for both of us, but is there anything you see that peaks your interest?"
Emma closely scrutinized the menu and said, "It all looks so amazing."
The waiter returned a few minutes later with their bottle and as he began to pour asked, "Are you ready to order or do you need a few more minutes?"
"I believe we are ready. Emma darling, would you care to start?" Narcissa said. She was truly enjoying treating Emma to all of this.
"Alright dear. I would like to start with the seared curry Orkney scallops, followed by the roasted loin of fallow deer." Emma said as she placed down the menu and looked to Narcissa.
Narcissa smiled at Emma and said, "I would like to start with the roasted veal sweetbread and will follow with the Isle of Gigha halibut and Gillardeau oysters. We would also like all of our dishes to be paired with the appropriate wine."
"Would you care for dessert?" the waiter asked.
"We both will have the raspberry mille-feuille with a glass of Dom Perignon- the 1969 vintage." Narcissa replied, ignoring the gasp that came from the direction where Emma was sitting. The waiter quickly scribbled their order down before bowing and leaving to put in their tickets. They watched the waiter leave, and Narcissa turned back to give Emma her undying attention. "I hope you don't mind me ordering desserts for the both us. It's just that the raspberries pair so well with the champagne and thought it would be a wonderful ending to a spectacular meal."
"This is all too much Cissa dear." Replied Emma who was truly in awe at the moment. Seeing that Narcissa was slightly crestfallen at the thought that she somehow displeased the one who held the key to her heart, Emma quickly added, "This is turning into a spectacular evening, truly unforgettable." Emma reached across the table and took Narcissa's hand in her own and gently caressed her thumb across her knuckles.
Narcissa smiled at the contact and said, "You deserve this and so much more. Tell me, have you been back to France at all? How has the rest of your family been?"
"Daniel and I use to go once a year with Hermione. Every time we did go, I would constantly scan the crowds in hope of catching a glimpse of you." Emma took a sip of her wine before continuing, "My parents passed a few years back within a few months of each other. I'm sure you remember that I didn't really have any other family. What do you do with your time? Even when you were younger, you always have been interest in helping those in need." Seeing the hesitant look in Narcissa's eyes, she said, "Don't give me that look, even back then I knew what was truly in your heart, despite trying to hide your true self from the world around you."
"I could never get a thing past you. Your just like Andy when it comes down to it. I sit on a few boards for some of the local charities. I was never really permitted to do anything of worth and was expected to be a proper Pure Blood wife." Replied Narcissa, who watched as the waiter was coming closer with their meals.
Emma waited for the waiter to leave to ask, "What interests you? Now that the opportunity has presented itself, what would you like to do?"
Emma watched closely as Narcissa began to elegantly tuck into the first course and saw that she was thinking how to answer. Finishing her bite Narcissa said, "You really should try this. It is absolutely divine." Narcissa put a small amount on her fork and reached over to feed it to Emma who instantly closed her eyes the moment it hit her tongue. Narcissa moved slightly forward in her chair, as if she was a moth drawn to the flame. "As for what I want to do with my life, I don't really have an answer. All I know is that as long as I have you by my side, that is all that I need."
The rest of the evening was as spectacular as the beginning. Their conversation flowed pleasantly and with wonderful ease. Their meal was coming to a close and Emma was laughing as the two were reminiscing about one of their few adventures while in France all those years ago. Narcissa took a large sip of champagne, attempting to thrum up the courage to tell Emma her feelings. Deciding it was now or never she said, "Emma darling, I have something to tell you." She saw Emma stiffen and put a warm comforting hand on Emma's to show that she wasn't going anywhere. "I know we both have told each other that we were beginning to fall in love with each other. I need to tell you the truth. I am in love with you, and have been for a very long time." Emma had tears beginning to form in her eyes as she clutched Narcissa's hand with all her strength. "But there is more to it that that darling. I believe we are soul mates…"
Narcissa never got the chance to finish her statement as Emma gasped and clearly looked panicked. "We need to head back to the manor. Something has happened to Hermione." Narcissa motioned for the bill and watched as Emma drained her glass.
Narcissa quickly paid and went to help a shaking Emma up from her chair. Throwing caution to the wind, Narcissa pulled Emma in for a kiss that was meant to not only distract her, but also to convey that she wasn't going anywhere. When she pulled back, she cupped both sides of Emma's face and said, "Take a deep breath for me darling. I need you to keep it together for just a little longer. The reporters may still be outside waiting for us. Can you do that for me?" Emma squared her shoulders and gave a small nod. Narcissa gave her a warm smile and said, "I am terrible sorry our evening is ending on this note. But I am not sorry for what we spoke of and meant every word. I love you Emma, I have never stopped." Seeing that Emma was not fully in the moment, she moved to escort her out of their secluded table.
Emma pulled on Narcissa's arm to stop her from moving and essentially begged her to turn around. When Narcissa complied, Emma said, "I know there is more for us to talk about, but I need to tell you something." Emma paused to ensure she held Narcissa's full attention. While gazing deeply into those stormy eyes she said, "I love you too." They both leaned in and sealed their declarations with a kiss and felt a magical shock run straight to their cores.
Longbottom Manor-
Eilidh flashed a grateful Emma and an amused Narcissa to the front entrance way. Emma playfully slapped at Narcissa's arm at the chuckle and said, "You may be use to apparition, but it will take some time for me, not to mention the fact that I have another tiny human sucking away at my life force."
Hearing voices coming from the hall, Neville and Draco decided to take a look, but when they got there, the hallway was empty. Draco turned to Neville and said, "I could have sworn I just heard my mother." They both shrugged their shoulders and turned to head back into the library.
As Emma reached the room Hermione was staying in, she heard Harry say, "I am well aware of that already. Tell me, what would have really happened if Emma knew what Hermione was really going through."
Emma pushed the door open and in a voice made of steel said, "Why don't you tell me exactly what my daughter was going through."
Chapter 29
"Normal speech"
thoughts
'mental conversations'
Guest bedroom at Longbottom Manor-
Harry just stared at Emma opened mouth for a moment before gulping. He tried to look to Andy, then Narcissa for help and saw he was on his own as a very angry Emma swiftly crossed the room. Harry went to give her his chair but thought otherwise with the glare Emma was giving him. "I can explain…"
Emma cut him off and said, "You bloody will! Was that the real reason you wanted me out of the way?" She angrily turned to Narcissa and added, "Were you in on this? Was any of that real?"
Narcissa quickly crossed the room and grabbed Emma's arms while she replied in a firm tone, "Emma, I need you to stop and listen. Harry is going to explain what is happening." Pulling a distraught Emma into a tight embrace, she continued, "As for earlier, it was all real. I meant every word of it. Now, If I let you go, will you let Harry explain what has happened?"
Narcissa went to pull back, but Emma didn't move. Narcissa held her close as Harry said, "Her body was metabolizing the potions too quickly and she was in an incredible amount of pain. She couldn't say anything aloud for any of you to hear. But I heard her…" He was desperately trying to keep his own tears from spilling over as he felt his heart breaking all over again. By this point, Susan was standing next to Harry with a hand on his shoulder, and Augusta, Sirius, Amelia, Draco, Neville and Luna were watching closely. He looked to Emma with pleading eyes and went on to say, "I had Andy put her in a Coma. We didn't have any other choice. Please, I need you to understand, there was no other way. She…"
Emma went over and wrapped Harry in her arms as the tears finally were flowing freely. "What else are you trying to stay Harry. I need to know. I am trying to understand what happened to my daughter." Emma was trying to keep her voice steady. She couldn't wrap her head around what was happening. Harry held on tightly as he wept. Everything finally came tumbling down. Never one to really share what was going on, Harry was finally beyond his breaking point and what drove it home was Hermione begging for him to make the pain stop. Emma looked up to see if anyone would come over to help her.
Sirius may be thick at times, but he got the message loud and clear. He gave Amelia's hand a quick squeeze before going to his Godson's side. Crouching at the side of the chair he said, "Can you tell us what else is going on pup?" He knew there was something else Harry was holding onto. Harry just continued to shake his head no. "Do you want everyone to leave? You know you can tell me anything pup, and you know that I won't tell a soul if you do not want me too."
Emma went to protest but was cut off when Susan said, "Stop it. Can't you see that this is making everything worse? Everyone take a step back, give him some room." Susan looked directly at Emma and added, "Please." Narcissa came forward to pull Emma back, recognizing not only the tone the young witch used, but also the look in her eyes. Emma tried to fight her on this, but saw that she just shook her head no. Once every one was far enough way, Susan cast a quick privacy charm so that no one could hear them. It was Susan's turn to crouch in front of Harry and ask, "What else did Mione say? I know that you aren't telling us everything." She cupped the sides of his face so that Harry had to look at her. "Harry, it's just me. I made sure no one can hear us, alright?"
Harry relaxed slightly. When he looked into Susan's eyes, she saw that he was utterly crushed. "You're all right, there is more to it. What I didn't say is that she begged me to make the pain stop, and if I couldn't then….. to just end her misery. That she couldn't stand the pain any longer." Susan fell back stunned. This was not the Hermione Gran… Potter she knew. Staring off into space she heard Harry say, "How can I tell her pregnant mother who already lost a husband that? The same woman who was brutally beaten and raped. The very woman who is my mother in law?"
Susan took a moment to gather her own thoughts on this latest development. "You know she isn't going to drop this. Do you want me to do it? I know this is a lot for you Harry, but we're in this together. You don't have to go this alone, you have us… we're family after all."
"I'll tell her. It has to be me." Harry said as he went to stand from his chair and squared his shoulders. Helping Susan off the floor, he brought her in for a hug. "Thank you, for all of this. It's like you've said, we're family. I'll happily call you sister any day." Susan gave him a beaming smile just before she dropped the charm. Harry looked over and saw Narcissa was holding Emma close. Harry took a step to the side and as he motioned for Emma to take a seat he said, "I think you should take a seat." Emma looked to Narcissa who gave her a reassuring nod, to let her know that she wasn't going anywhere. "Narcissa, could I ask you to stay by her side for this. I know you want the truth and you deserve it. All I ask is that you bear with me, I beg you. Can you do that for me?"
Narcissa pulled a chair up and after placing it next to the other one transfigured it into a love seat big enough for the two of them. Once Emma was settled, she put one arm around her shoulders and held Emma's hands with the other. Determined to be the rock Emma needed she said, "We can do that Harry. Take all the time you need."
Susan put a hand on his shoulder to let him, her brother in all but blood, know that she wasn't going anywhere. Harry took a few deep breaths, and without even thinking, he tried to reach out for Hermione, but found nothing in the wake. Even though this threw him off kilter, he managed to gather his wits and thoughts enough before saying, "I'm going to start at the beginning. I called Andy to come…"
Within the world between-
Hermione felt herself floating and was surrounded completely by darkness. She tried looking around, but found nothing. Part of her was relieved, finally the pain was gone. She had never felt anything so intense. It zapped all her strength, energy, and resolve. The other part of her was terrified. What was all this doing to Harry? She knew he was close to his breaking point. He was the type of person who tucked all his emotions deep down until everything eventually over flowed and he either exploded or broke down… or both. The last thing she remembered was Harry telling her that she had to fight to come back to him, but that memory was fuzzy at best. She tried to reach out to their bond, but found nothing. It was as if it was blocked.
After what seemed like hours, Hermione finally saw a flicker of light, as if a door had opened and closed. Before she realized it, she was half way there. When she got a few steps away, the door opened one final time and revealed a silhouette of a man who called out, "Hello princess. Would you care to have a spot of tea with your old man?" Daniel Granger barely had enough time to get his arms up so that he could catch his daughter. He just held her close as he felt her shoulders shake as she was sobbing into his chest. He skillfully maneuvered her through the door and onto the sofa.
Making sure she was comfortable, Daniel turned and prepared their cups. He handed Hermione hers, just how she liked it, and settled on the sofa next to her. He could see the wheels turning and decided to break the ice by asking, "How are you holding up poppet? How is your mum?"
Hermione gingerly took a sip of the scolding hot tea before saying, "Mum is doing the best that she can. Narcissa Black has been her rock, and saved not only her life, but also the baby's. Then again, you already know all of this. Did you ever hear mum mention knowing her?"
Daniel frowned slightly and replied, "Don't think I don't know what you're doing poppet. I won't let you avoid that first question. As for your mum, she did tell me about someone named Cissa and their time together in France. We never kept secrets, both of us knew that secrets can rip a marriage apart."
Hermione sifted in her seat, knowing that her father would never let that fly. She held her cup with both hands and replied, "I don't know how I'm holding up. One minute I was sitting in the back-yard reading and the next thing I know, I'm married to the boy I fell in love with the moment I laid eyes on him. Then, we're going through these crazy changes, and with that comes all the emotions that made me sound as if I was a spoiled little brat. Then I stupidly jumped in front of a curse that not only caused a tremendous amount of pain, but fed off my magic. The topper would have to be my battle with a bigot, which leads me to where we are now. How can I be of any help if I keep getting injured?"
Daniel saw the tears begin to form in his daughter's eyes and knew it was due to frustration. Hermione has always been independent, and she was in no way use to always being on the shite end of the stick. "I know it doesn't seem like it now, but it will get better."
Hermione slammed her cup on the table as she shot up and started to pace back and forth. "When? When will this get better? Why is this happening to me? Did the fates decided that they needed a laugh?" She turned to face her father to say, "We both know that what is happening to me is not normal. When have you ever know me to be this pathetic and defenseless? Even when I was bullied while at primary, I wasn't this bad." Hermione flung her hands in the air as she fell back onto the sofa.
Daniel put a hand on Hermione's and said, "The fates are putting you through this for a reason, but they aren't laughing at you. Things that happen in our past in order to help shape our future." He waited a moment for that small tid bit to sink in before continuing, "Perhaps they are trying to test your resolve and prepare you for what is to come. It could be that they want you to learn from all of this. Since you know what being helpless is like, you will be able to look back on all of this and use the experience and to help those who can't help themselves. Be their advocates, and help give them a voice. Because of all of this, you will be able to relate to them on a level that others cannot. You can comfort them and truly understand what they aren't saying, relate to them on another level. It all comes down to you being able to help others when no one else can, just like Harry can use his experience to helps those who are in similar situations."
Hermione had tears freely running down her cheeks when she asked, "Why? Why did you have to die? I need you more now than ever."
Daniel's heart was breaking as he wrapped his daughter in his arms and held her close. "It was my time poppet. What happened to me helped bring you to your Harry. It also brought your mum back to Narcissa."
"How can you be ok with this? With leaving us behind?" asked Hermione.
"I may not be there physically, but I am always watching. If I had to relive it all over again, I wouldn't change a thing and I'll tell you why. It brought you and your mum love. Yes, I know your mother loved me and if I was still alive, we would have been happily married and in love. Now then, enough of this rubbish, tell me all about your Harry." Daniel said as he was wiping away Hermione's tears. "The only down side to all of this is that I never got the chance to make him sweat." And so, Hermione 's sniffles slowly tapered off as she began to tell her father all about the love of her life.
Hours passed as the two spoke of everything and nothing. Daniel was happy that he got the chance to spend time with his daughter. Just as Hermione was ecstatic to be with her father again. Eventually Hermione fell asleep and actually rested for the first time in what seemed like ages. Daniel was sitting across from her when Lily and James appeared near the door. He sighed heavily and asked, "Is it time all ready?"
Lily walked towards him and replied, "It's now or never. The choice is ultimately up to her." Lily saw Daniel struggling with this and went over to place a soft hand on his shoulder in a silent gesture of comfort. "This is always the hardest part. She still has a whole life ahead of her. You may not be there in person, but you will always be able to watch over her. A part of her will always keep you in her heart. Between her and Emma, your son will grow up knowing that his father was a wonderful man. But that can only happen if she goes back."
"How do you handle all of this? How can you keep saying good bye?" he asked.
"I sacrificed myself so that my son could live. He knows that he can always come to us for help. Because of how special these two are, Fate has given us a boon. When they escape into their minds, they have that chance to speak with us." Lily gently replied. "Do you want me to wake her? I know this is a heart breaking situation and wished you didn't have to go through this… either of you."
Daniel slowly stood and shook his head as he said, "I should be the one to do it." He reluctantly walked over to his sleeping daughter and watched her for just a moment longer before gently shaking Hermione to wake her. "It's time to get up princess."
"Mmm… Five more minutes daddy."
Daniel felt his heart swell when he heard that. "Come on poppet, time to get up. You wouldn't want to be late now would you? We wouldn't want to keep your Harry waiting."
Hermione tried to burrow further into the pillow as she mumbled, "Harry? Is he ok?"
Lily took this moment to step forward and said, "He is in a bad place without you right now."
Hermione slowly sat up and rubbed the sleep from her eyes. "Do I have to go back now?"
Daniel sat on the sofa and wrapped Hermione up is his arms. "Yes poppet. Do you remember what you promised Harry?"
She chewed on her lower lip as she tried to think of the answer. Everything was very fuzzy and Hermione was finding it difficult to concentrate. Something was tickling at the back of her mind. "He made me promise."
"What did he make you promise poppet?" asked Daniel
Suddenly it was as if the light finally turned on. Hermione shot to her feet and replied, "To fight. He made me promise to come back to him."
"Then go to him princess. Once you are through that door, run. Promise me that you won't stop." Daniel said as he tried to not get emotional. "Now, give your dad one last hug."
"I love you Daddy." Hermione said as she gave her father a bone crushing hug.
"I love you to princess. Now go to him, and tell your mum I love her."
Back at Longbottom Manor (jump back in time)-
The tension was so thick, you could cut it with a knife. By the time Harry finished speaking, he was shaking uncontrollable and Emma had silent tears streaming down. As she sat there she wondered how it got so bad. Emma continued to stare at her daughter's lifeless body while Narcissa held her close. "How dare you keep this from me." Emma softly said before attempting to jump to her feet, only to be stopped by Narcissa who pulled her into her lap as Draco briskly walked to their side. Emma was still trying to stand as she yelled, "She is my daughter you bastard! I had a right to know!" Emma turned herself and was crying on Narcissa's shoulder.
Sirius stepped forward to defend his Godson, but stopped as Harry's hand shot up to top him as Amelia pulled him back. "I know that she is your daughter, but what you seem to be forgetting is that she is also my wife, thus making her my responsibility. And before you try to blame anyone else, I and I alone am responsible. I made a decision in the moment and that is something I will have to live with." Harry went and crouched in front of Emma and said, "I told you before and I will say it again. Hermione is and will always be my world."
Harry went to stand when Emma's hand shot out and gripped his arm tightly. She turned to slowly face him. Once she had eye contact, Emma slapped him… hard across the face before pulling him into a bear hug only to begin sobbing again. After several minutes, Emma's sobs finally began to lessen and in between the sniffles said, "Don't you ever leave me out of the loop again."
Harry sighed as he replied, "I'm sorry for all of this. But you must know that I really wanted you to have a wonderful evening with Narcissa. With all that has been happening, I just thought you deserved a relaxing evening, one without worries." Harry helped Emma stand and took a good look at her. "Your exhausted, why don't you go rest. I do have one question. How did you know that something was happening to Hermione?"
Emma was in Narcissa's arms once more and replied, "Mother's intuition. I can't really explain it, it was a feeling I had."
Harry fell back on the loveseat as Augusta started to usher Neville, Draco, and Luna out of the room and towards their beds for the evening, leaving Sirius, Amelia, and Susan to speak with Harry. Since Harry was sitting in the middle, Susan took one side while Amelia took the other as Sirius pulled over a chair from across the room. "Did she really say that pup?" Sirius asked. "It just seems so unlike the Mione we all know."
Harry turned his gaze to Hermione and replied, "She was in so much pain and it was the only thing I could do. You couldn't feel what I felt or hear her silent screams."
Amelia attempted to comfort him by putting an arm around his shoulders and said, "You did what you had to do Harry. Do we know how long before she wakes?"
Harry just shook his head at the question. He wiped the lone tear that was streaking down his cheek as he replied, "That depends on her. I made her promise to come back to me, that she would fight. All we can do is wait."
"Then we will wait Harry." Susan said as she put a hand on his. She looked to her Aunt and added, "I'll stay with him. You should go and get some sleep Auntie, you look as if you have been trampled by a Hippogriff." She gave Sirius a pointed glare and added, "And she better sleep Black, I can't have my Auntie falling over. How would it look if the Head of the DMLE fell asleep in her eggs? We can't have that now can we?"
Sirius thumped a hand over his heart in an attempt to be wounded by Susan's words as Amelia gave a small chuckle at their antics. Amelia stood and first kissed the top of Harry's head and then Susan's before slapping Sirius upside the head. "Try to get some rest you two. We can discuss everything else later."
Narcissa and Emma's quarters-
Narcissa and Emma walked back to their room in complete silence. Emma was shocked by what she heard, and Narcissa was clearly worried about Emma's health after such a shock. Once safely tucked in their room, Narcissa saw Emma deposited on to the sofa near the fire before going over and pouring two drams. She handed one to Emma who took it, but continued to just stare into the fire. After several tense minutes Emma quietly asked, "Why couldn't you come to me with your theory? Have I done anything to warrant that you couldn't speak with me?"
"I didn't want to worry you. It was just that, a theory. I never knew that he would do any of this without speaking to you." Narcissa replied as she threw back the dram. She put the empty glass down and turned to face Emma, and took the untouched glass to put on the table. Gently cupping Emma's face, Narcissa said, "You really should get some rest darling."
"Cissa, as we were leaving the restaurant, I felt this jolt run straight through to my core. Did you feel the same thing? Was it because you said we are soul mates?" Emma asked as she made herself comfortable in Narcissa's arms while her feet were tucked under her.
"I felt it too sweetheart. It wasn't just because of that. When we declared our love for each other, we sealed it with a kiss. It was out magic reaching out to each other." Narcissa said as she felt Emma's head slip slightly as she started to fall asleep from the sound of Narcissa's soothing voice. Narcissa leaned in and gave Emma a loving kiss before saying, "Let's get you into bed darling. We can worry about everything else tomorrow."
a/n 2- What I need to say is that I am drawing from my own experience when it comes to being in so much pain… it tends to put you in a very bad place mentally and it tends to make you take a long hard look at your life and what you would be leaving behind. Someone posted a reply about how life isn't easy and to just get over it. I know that better than anyone after watching my brother die when I was only 21, then going through recovery as a Cocaine addict- I have been sober for almost 10 years, all the while being told that you will suffer from a chronic pain disorder for the rest of your life that will progressively get worse and does affect your memory all before I was 22 years old- I am now 32 and happily married to my beautiful wife.
What I am trying to say is that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Whenever you feel that you are alone, please remember you are not. Someone is always in your corner, and if you truly feel the opposite, then please reach out. My mail box is always open and I would never judge you. I don't think it would make a lot of sense for a 32 year old lesbian to judge someone right ;)