Hey guys got sick and am trying to recover from it for the past three weeks but I think there is a little progress now then before..... Sorry I haven't dropped new chapters but I will be dropping some new ones this weekend, but I will see to it that it will be done before then.
Love you my lovies ❤️❤️😘....
Note am going to get busy for the moment cause you are reading a working class bitch book right now but don't worry I would work on the book and the chapters.
And don't worry this book won't be ending anytime soon but it will end thou but just know that things are going to get real good see you in our next chapter.
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"What??...." Luke asked a little taken aback.
The tension in the air was getting thick enough that it felt hot against Luke's skin making it unbearable.
"What did you do to me..... Lukey.... I can't find sleep, I can't think straight, or focus on anything else why cause your face pops up in my thoughts, I get angry if someone hurts or come close to you or even talk badly of you. And if you're not there I panick just like...." Nathaniel paused not daring to say a word after that.... Cause completing these words meant crossing a line he didn't want to cross and his body and heart hasn't fully understand this yet but now in front of the face that made him had an organism..... A wet dream out from nowhere made it all feel right but the truth is feeling doesn't cut it alone.....
"First question? I wanna ask is what you doing here this early and second question? Is how did you get in my room???...." Luke asked with is big eyes staring back at Nathaniel like a confused puppy.
And this sight just melts Nathaniel's heart 'how is he so adorable looking like this, this kid is illegal to everyone....' he thought.
"The truth is I couldn't sleep that is why am asking what did you do to me.... And I passed through your window after claiming the tree outside...." Nathaniel answers taking a sit closer to Luke and the other didn't pull away why maybe that's what he wanted, the other close to him making him feel safe.
"Ok but you could have used the door, now for the real question?..... You were talking but couldn't finish it....." He said staring back at Nathaniel with intensity in his eyes.... That look could undone Nathaniel at that moment. He moved closer to the boy he was talking to bringing there faces closer "finish the words you were about to say Nate..... I wanna hear it" Luke finished his request.
"Lukey....." Was the only word that came out more like a moan or like a prayer Luke couldn't quite name it but it did something to him, it affected him far more than anyone could and it scares him greatly.
"Nate... I want to hear you complete your words" he pressed on.
"If you're not there I panick just like..... Just like the day you left the classroom something in me had to come find you and when you went home without me saying you were sick I was not myself..... I feel this pull but it feels right and that scares me ok..... There you have it" he said these words turning his face away from Luke.
"Is that why you are asking if I did something to you.... Huh????" Luke asked
"Yes....." Nathaniel said sounding tired like he wasn't sure of himself anymore.
"You know what..... " Luke says out of nowhere after a long time of silence
"What..????" Nathaniel asked
"You have the same effect on me you idiot.... " Luke said, he was now the one to look away from Nathaniel's gaze.
"You affect me even in you absence, I now want your comfort each time I fall into an episode, that how much you.... Nathaniel affect me. So I should be the one asking what you have done with me...."
Nathaniel stared at Luke for what felt like minutes and he looked surprised and shocked.... He too affect this boy in ways that feels unholy but quite good. He shallowed deeply and hardly.
"Lukey....." Nathaniel just said his name like it was the favourite subject he found fascinating.
"What.... It is Nate. I know this is weird and am weird and all but it is true.....I hope" he couldn't continue his words cause something or someone crashed against his lips and they were the softest thing he had ever felt.
They shared there very first kiss..... And it was inside the very room it all started. The very first place were they shared their memories with each other, the very first place they came to know each other from when they were kids.
Nathaniel kissed Luke with the emotions and words he couldn't say out loud he cupped Luke's face with one hand as if trying to memorise his face with his hands then dropped it to Luke's waist that feels smooth even with the fabric he put on and how his waist fits perfectly into his hand.
Luke on the other hand dragged Nathaniel closer to him by the hoodie he wore.... Then he moved his hands around Nathaniel's shoulder as if telling Nathaniel that he would never let go of him.
Just at the heat of it all Luke suddenly got himself out of the dream cloud. He opened his eyes and it widened with shock wondering if this was real or a dream to him but it definitely wasn't a dream cause he feels lightheaded from the kiss that's a sign to know it was all real but how did they got here. In that panick he pushes away from the kiss, from the person he had always wanted, he pushed himself from everything he had ever wanted right up to this moment.
"Nate, am sorry..... What are we doing" he paused then moved back from Nathaniel even more there by breaking the other boy slowly. "We shouldn't have done that..... Am sorry" he pleaded as he got up rushed to his bathroom. On entering he spoke not sparing Nathaniel a look, " am sorry I took advantage of our friendship, but please you got to live before I come back out. I really don't want to destroy our friendship.... Please live Nate" he said before backing the door shut against Nathaniel who sat still on the bed.
"Luke....." He sounded off for some reason and he needed to get out of there to get some air into his lungs cause the air in there felt heavy and intoxicated against his chest. He got up went to the window looking back at the bathroom door before signed..... Then out the window he was living the room heavy with the weight of what it witness happened.
Luke folded himself against his knees in the bathroom now crying silently but uncontrollably. He had walked away from the very thing he wants and it hurts badly.
Hearing his name from Nathaniel's mouth like the one he said before living hurt his damn soul very much.
He kept on crying that he didn't notice he moved lying on the floor to comfort himself and that's were he slept off cuddled against his knees with tears still on his face.
"He said my name my actual name, he doesn't say my actual name.... Now this just hurts more." He whispered to himself.
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Luke opened his eyes to see an environment he didn't quite understand at first, but last night encounter flushed its way to his remembrance and he hated that it did nothing but to destroy his mood for the day.
He moved on autopilot all through taking a shower and dressing up for going out not to school cause he couldn't face Nathaniel.
He needs to keep his head out of the pain he feels right now. He texted Rita that he was coming over to her house which the girl said it was ok since she didn't go to school cause of something that came up.
**Luke: hey you around, like you home or school.
**Rita: am home couldn't go to school something came up.
**Luke: ok am coming over.
**Rita: sure I too need the company..... Did something happen, your voice sounded down.
**Luke: yeah something did happen but your voice is as low as mine. Something did happen to you too.
**Rita: yeah same here.
**Luke: sorry am coming over to talk it out ok.
**Rita: ok lukey catch you later then.
**Luke: yeah be there in 30 minutes.
**Rita: ok later.
**Luke: alright later.
And that ended the phone chat between the two of them.
After dressing, making sure he looked good he walked out of his room to the staircase then down to the kitchen saw the rest family members, and by the rest of the family members he means his two siblings and his father... eating without bothering to call him down for lunch after all he skipped breakfast this morning but he didn't mind one bit.... But it was strange to see his siblings still at home by now not going to school but he didn't bother to ask them why. One thing he knew was he wasn't part of the family even if he was born into it. How ironic that is right??.
Just as he was taking his sit his mom walked in from the kitchen with his food in hand.
"Oh I was about to call you for lunch since you skipped breakfast earlier and sorry I didn't bother to call you for breakfast cause you felt so down yesterday I wanted to give you your space.... But you're ok now???" She asked.
'no mom am not I kissed my best friend this morning and you expect me to be ok with that huh..... ' he thought that was only a thought he didn't dare say out.
So he replied with a simple "yes mom am all good. Thanks for caring" he then put on his pretend smile to look genuinely ok but it was all an act.
His mom just smiled back at him before replying " it is a mother's job to care for her child" he rubbed his hair lightly.
Then the table became silent for a while, and Luke liked it but you know as usual something or some certain someone will always want to destroy it for him with their complaints.
"Dad.... My makeup products are almost out can you help me refill, and the nails polish too" Tia says as she dropped her fork down on the table.
"Yes sweetie daddy will do that for you"
"Hey dad....." Blake called out.
"Hmmm, yes son what's it???" his father (cause using their father will only piss of Luke cause he knows his father never acknowledged him in anyway) asked.
Blake just smiled and stares down to Luke and the other hated that stare cause he knew what was about to happen and he wasn't in the mood to play along this road side drama.
"Dad our car... Is a little damaged at the back it doesn't match my style, so I was wondering if you could tell Luke to hand over his car to us and take ours you know we need it more than he does" Blake said still staring at Luke with a slight smirk on his face.
"Ok... Luke you heard your brother hand over the keys of the car to your brother, they need it more than you do and besides there old one fits your interest more than the stylised one you have"
"My dear husband, cut the crap will you and live Luke alone.... And as for you two stop picking on your brother like that...." Luke's mom rushes in to defend him.
"Oh dear wife, I wasn't talking to you. He knows am right"
"I said drop it will....."
"Mom....." Luke cut his mom off with a look that says I got this one.
"Sorry but am not giving up my birthday gift to people who doesn't deserve it.... So my dear father I will humbly decline your request and my dear brother try again next time" he said as he got up to kiss his mom's cheeks saying
"Am going out mom be back later...."
"Alright sweetheart but please be careful"
"I will mom, am old enough now to be by myself am not a kid anymore..... See you later and thanks for the meal" he walks to the door.
But stopped dead on his track when he heard these words from the man that birthed him.
"Already acting tough..... This is why I will never acknowledge you cause you choose to do the opposite of what I want" the man said.
This just made Luke to laugh before turning to look at his so called father....
"Even I stop chasing your acknowledgement old man, give it to some beggar on the street I don't need it anymore. And besides I choose what I am not what you want me to be. So dad I stop looking for your approval a long time ago, now you are dead to me" he said then begin walking towards the door.
"Am not yet done talking with you, you son of a bitch....."
"But am done talking to you old fart..... Am living " and with that he left the house but he heard his mom shouting at the old man inside not that it bothered him.
But he heard it the words and it broke him more than he realised.
"He will never be part of my family..... You shower him and spoil him that he talks back at me"
"He was never the problem you were, you hated him for being a scholar not a basketballer which isn't his dream and you know what am sick and tired of your nonsense, he is more part of this family than any of you.... You guys are his family for fuck sake..."
"He's not part of my family..... You think I don't know you slept with Maxwell Miller.. "
"Take that back, he was a business partner and he invested in our business my business I took you in to build.... I never slept with him even when he was interested in me I told him I was married to you. You know what am done trying to fix this family, am tried of trying to fix you"
"So now you choose the side of that low born, your parents choose him over the rest of their grandchildren "
"I and my parents choose what matters, that boy is neither a low born and seeing him makes my heart and my parents heart happy you know why cause he will archive great things in the future "
"Even if he's a faggot....." And there was a sound slap to the face which cause silence in the house.....
"Don't you ever called him that, even if he doesn't like the opposite gender and do what huh.... "
When he heard those words he felt warmed of the first time someone did love him even if he wasn't what the society or his family wanted.
He walked miles replaying the words of his so called father and brother over and over again and he found out that he will never be part of their lives and it hurts him deeply.
He finally stood at the door of Rita's house after the security man opened the gate for him. He texted Rita to inform her of his arrival and the girl opened the door.
The once brave girl looks tired, unkept, smell of Alcohol, her hair a mess, her eyes were red from crying and it just broke him even more that tears fell down his own face.
The two went in and they hugged each other crying in each others arms. The weight of what they carried cutting deep into them as they sat by the couch.
"I kissed Nathaniel..... But I pulled away scared" Luke said as I continue crying.
"I got dumped by my girlfriend... And I look like shit" Rita said back and it made the two laugh a little.
"We are two broken people ain't we....???" Luke asked
"That we are...." Rita replied.
They sat their in silence enjoying the comfort of each others company.
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Author's Note:
Guys they finally kissed!!!.... my babies kissed. Finally I was wondering when that would happen but now am not but am sad thou concerning the way it ended by Luke being scared and all. And I understand because it has happened to me and I still hate my self for it that is why Luke is crying because he hates himself for letting go of what he wanted.
This chapter hurts me deeply that it will do to you all cause most of the words used were told to me by my dad too, I am using my life as an attachment to this book most of you will not be able to understand while some will cause they have experience it themselves.
Now back to the book it also made me sad cause of the chaos happening to Luke's family, it is falling apart and I don't know if this is were they cut up things. And there is Rita our most proud and popular lesbian queen being dumped by her girlfriend and it breaks my heart 💔💔 to see my favourite characters break apart like this and how will Nathaniel handle this I pity him so let's see how the other chapter will be but hey you know what forget about it later....