If I die, who in this world would shed a single tear for me? Perhaps Shang Xinlei would, only to realize she doesn't even know what I look like.
But Yan Qing has no reason to complain; this is the path he chose, and he proudly and gladly embraces this solitude.
He also knows that these people like his alternate persona, which has nothing to do with his main self. Behind the chivalry of Rabbit Heroine, the loyalty of Mouse Monk, and the arrogance of Jiang Shi, there is just a timid soul. It's like how the heroine in a gal game likes only the hero's gentleness, kindness, and bravery, which has nothing to do with the player.
So when Pharmacist's Wish comes close, he behaves like a cat or dog reacting to a threat, baring teeth and claws. He doesn't feel he connects with Pharmacist's Wish, and what he fears even more is... that they would become friends because of Rabbit Heroine.
