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Chapter 34 - Adjacent To Friendship

The fire had gone down to its last coals.

Blaze had disappeared into her realm at some point after training, the gold chair dissolving with her. Maze had gone up into the branches of the nearest tall tree, still and watchful, the way she always was when she wasn't needed at ground level.

Which left the ground level to two people who weren't asleep.

Aleric lay on his back looking at the pieces of sky visible through the canopy. His body still ached from training, but it was a different ache than the morning's — quieter, more settled, the specific ache of something that had been used correctly rather than something that had simply been overworked.

He turned his head.

Lain was sitting against a tree a few feet away, manual closed on his lap, not reading it, just sitting with it the way you sit with something you've already finished but aren't ready to put away yet.

"You're not asleep," Aleric said.

"Neither are you."

"I asked first."

Lain looked at him.

Didn't answer.

Aleric sat up. Winced. Settled into a cross-legged position that put less strain on whatever part of him was currently complaining the loudest.

The silence sat between them.

Not the uncomfortable kind from breakfast.

Something else. The specific quiet of two people alone in a forest at night with no one else awake to perform for.

Aleric looked at the coals.

At the last orange light still sitting in them.

"What does the capital mean to you," he said.

Not with any particular weight behind it. Just — asked, the way he asked most things, because he wanted to know and didn't see a reason not to want to know out loud.

Lain didn't answer immediately.

He looked at the manual in his lap.

At his own hands.

What does it mean, he thought.

It means my father is going to find out where I've been.

It means three years of silence are going to end all at once.

It means every choice I've made since I left is going to be laid out in front of him and he is going to have opinions about every single one of them.

He looked at the fire.

"It means going home," he said. Quietly. "To someone who's going to have a great many things to say about how I've spent my time."

Aleric looked at him.

"Your father."

"Yes."

"Is he going to be angry."

Lain considered this honestly, which was not something he did often when the question involved his father.

"He's going to be furious for approximately the first conversation," he said. "Then he's going to ask very precise questions. Then he's going to be furious again when he hears the answers. Then eventually — considerably later — he's going to be proud, but he won't say that part directly. He'll say something adjacent to it that I'll have to translate."

Aleric nodded slowly, like this made complete sense, which — for a father — it kind of did.

"He's going to hear about the murder charge," Lain said.

"Oh," Aleric said.

"And the cell."

"Oh no."

"And the ten year sentence."

Aleric winced sympathetically. "That's a lot of furious."

"It's a great deal of furious," Lain agreed.

They sat with that for a moment.

The coals shifted, settling lower.

"Are you scared," Aleric said.

Not teasing. Genuinely asking, the way he'd asked about the capital's size, the way he asked most things — because the question existed and he wanted the answer.

Lain looked at the fire for a long moment.

"Of my father," he said. "Slightly."

Aleric nodded.

"That's reasonable," he said. "He sounds like he has a lot of opinions."

"He has an enormous number of opinions."

"Do you love him."

Lain looked at him.

The question landed differently than the others had — simpler on the surface, harder underneath.

"Yes," he said. Quietly. No hesitation once it arrived, even though it took a moment to arrive. "Considerably."

"Then it'll be fine," Aleric said. "Eventually. You said so yourself. Furious, then furious again, then proud. That's not actually a bad ending."

"It's an exhausting middle."

"Middles usually are."

Lain looked at him.

At the brown eyes. At the complete lack of anything performed in the way Aleric was sitting there, having this conversation, at whatever hour of the night this was, in a forest, with someone he'd spent months mostly resenting for reasons that were becoming harder to remember clearly.

"You're very calm about things that aren't yours to be calm about," Lain said.

"I don't have a father to be furious at me," Aleric said. Simply. Not sadly — just a fact, stated the way he stated most things. "So I don't really know what it's like. It just sounds like it works out. Eventually. If you love him."

Something in Lain's chest did something complicated.

He didn't examine it closely.

"I suppose it does," he said.

They sat in the quiet a while longer.

Not talking.

Not needing to.

The specific quiet that had texture now, that had weight — the kind Aleric had learned to recognize from walking beside Blaze, except this was different. Newer. Something that hadn't existed between them an hour ago and existed now.

Not friendship.

Not yet.

Something adjacent to it. The place you stood right before you crossed over, where you could still turn back if you wanted to but neither of them particularly wanted to.

"I'm going to say something and you're not allowed to make it strange," Aleric said eventually.

Lain looked at him warily. "That's an ominous opening."

"You're not as unbearable as I thought you were in the beginning."

Lain blinked.

"That's —" He considered several responses, discarded all of them. "Thank you. I suppose."

"You're welcome."

"You were fairly unbearable too," Lain added, after a moment. "The talking. Constantly. About broth."

"The broth talk was always warranted."

"It was not always warranted."

"It was warranted more often than you'd admit."

Lain almost smiled.

Didn't quite let it land.

But almost.

Above them, in the branches, Maze had been listening the entire time, the way she listened to everything, filing it without comment.

She didn't move.

Didn't need to say anything to Blaze about it.

Blaze already knew.

Blaze always already knew.

Eventually Aleric lay back down, arms behind his head, looking at the pieces of sky through the leaves.

"Two more days," he said.

"About that."

"You'll be fine," Aleric said. "With your father."

"You don't know that."

"No," Aleric agreed easily. "But it sounded true when I said it, so I'm going to keep believing it."

Lain looked at him.

At the specific unbothered faith of someone who decided things were going to be fine and then simply proceeded as though they would be — not out of naivety, Lain was beginning to understand, but out of something more deliberate than that. A choice, repeated daily.

"Goodnight, Lain," Aleric said, already half asleep.

Lain sat with the manual in his lap a moment longer.

"Goodnight," he said.

Quietly.

To someone who was already asleep and wouldn't hear it, which made it, somehow, easier to say.

Morning came grey and soft through the canopy, the kind of light that hadn't decided yet what the day was going to be.

Aleric woke before the others, which was new, and sat up carefully — testing the ache, finding it smaller than yesterday's — and reached for his notebook.

He wrote by the light of the dying coals.

Aleric's Record of Bizarre and Noteworthy Events

Volume One

Entry Six

We took a forest route instead of a village. I don't know why. Nobody explained it and I've decided that's fine, that's usually how it goes.

Lain talked about the capital for a very long time yesterday. He knows an enormous amount about it. Districts, guard rotations, who moves where and when. I wrote almost all of it down. Some of it felt important in a way I can't fully explain yet, the way things feel important right before you understand why.

Training: fifteen seconds. The pieces are close to connecting. I can feel the shape of the connection even when I lose it. That's new. That's good, I think.

Lain and I talked last night. Properly talked. About his father. About being scared, a little. About broth, a little less. I'm not going to write down everything that was said because some of it wasn't really mine to write down — it was his, and he gave it to me carefully, the way you give someone something breakable, and I don't think that's the kind of thing you put in a book someone might read someday.

But I will say this: I think we're friends now. Or very close to it. Close enough that the difference doesn't matter much anymore.

That's the actual news of the day, if I'm honest. Everything else is details.

He looked at the page.

At the last line.

Dipped his brush again, the way he always did when a thought arrived that felt too small and strange to leave out.

Also — completely unrelated — I've decided that if something absurd is going to happen to us, it should happen to Lain again, since he handled the body-falling thing with such dignity last time. For example: imagine if his father showed up right now, in this forest, before we even reach the capital. That would be extremely funny and also I would like to see Lain's face when it happened.

Anyway. Probably nothing. Just a thought.

We should reach the capital in two days.

He closed the notebook.

Looked at Lain still asleep against the tree, the manual fallen half-open beside him.

Looked at the forest — quiet, grey, patient, giving nothing away.

Maze went still in the branches above.

Not alarmed stillness. The other kind — the kind that meant she'd heard something before anyone else could.

Hoofbeats.

Several.

Coming fast, and not bothering to be quiet about it.

Lain woke to the sound already close.

He was on his feet before he was fully conscious of standing, manual falling from his lap, hand going to his side out of pure reflex before his mind caught up and told him there was nothing there to reach for.

Aleric sat up, notebook sliding off his knee. "What—"

"Riders," Lain said. Flat. Already listening past him, toward the trees. "Several. Approaching directly."

Aleric looked around the campsite. At the dead fire. At the empty space where a gold chair usually sat.

"Where's sis," he said.

Maze dropped from the branch without a sound, landing beside them both, already scanning the treeline.

"She has something important to handle," Maze said. Flat. Even. The tone of someone relaying an instruction rather than an opinion. "She'll meet us at the capital."

Aleric blinked. "That's — now? She's leaving now?"

"She already left," Maze said. "This morning. Before either of you woke."

Lain looked at her sharply. "And you're only telling us this because—"

"Because riders are approaching and you needed to know she wasn't going to intervene," Maze said. "I am to stay with you both. That's all you need."

The hoofbeats were close now. Close enough to hear the specific weight of armored horses, the jingle of tack, the particular cadence of riders who weren't slowing down for anything.

The forest ahead of them broke open.

Six horses. Five in formation, armored, tabards in colors Lain hadn't seen outside of memory in over three years. And at the front, on a horse that clearly hadn't been ridden gently to get here, a man dismounting before the animal had fully stopped.

Broad. Imposing. Dark hair streaked grey at the temples, cropped close in the specific way of someone who had spent a lifetime training and had never quite let it go even after his weapons became words instead of blades. Brown eyes — nothing like Lain's — set in a hard, weathered face that carried unmistakable pieces of his son's bone structure without a single piece of his composure.

Lain went very still.

No.

The man crossed the distance between them in a handful of strides.

For one absurd second Aleric thought he might embrace whoever this stranger was aiming himself at.

He did not embrace anyone.

"Three years," the man said. Quiet. Which was somehow worse than shouting.

Lain's stomach dropped through the floor of the world.

"Father—" he started.

Aleric's head turned. "Oh," he said, quietly, mostly to himself. "The Grand Duke."

"Three years," Kaedrin said again, louder now, the quiet burning off, "and the first word I get of you is from a magistrate's report calling you a murder suspect in some ink-trading backwater I'd never even heard of."

"Father—"

"Ten years," Kaedrin said, voice climbing. "A ten-year sentence. My son. My only son, sitting in a stone cell over a case that took one afternoon to solve once anyone bothered to actually look at the evidence — do you have any conception of what it would have meant, Lain, if that sentence had held? Do you understand what I would have had to explain to the Emperor?"

"It didn't hold," Lain said, steady, or trying to be. "The case was resolved. I was cleared. Formally. On record."

"After you'd already vanished from every report, every correspondence, every place my people knew to look for three years, and then resurfaced in a cell." His jaw was tight enough to ache just looking at it. "Where have you been. What have you been doing. Who—" his brown eyes moved, cataloguing, landing on Aleric with the sharp assessing look of a man who had spent his life reading rooms for threats — "who is this."

"This is—" Lain started.

"Aleric," Aleric said, standing, because it seemed rude not to introduce himself to a furious Grand Duke. He offered a small, entirely unbothered bow. "I cook."

Kaedrin stared at him.

"He cooks," he repeated, to Lain, with the specific incredulity of a man discovering his son's mysterious three-year disappearance had, at some point, involved a fourteen-year-old and a stated culinary role.

"It's a long story," Lain said.

"I have," Kaedrin said, "considerable time."

His eyes moved past both of them.

To Maze, standing quietly at the edge of the clearing, watching the escort's hands rather than the Duke's face.

"And her," he said. "The report mentioned a girl. Where is the woman. The veiled one."

"Not here," Maze said. Simply.

"Where."

"Handling something," Maze said. "She'll be at the capital."

Kaedrin looked at her for a long moment.

At the sixteen-year-old girl standing perfectly still in the middle of a forest, entirely unbothered by six armed men, giving him nothing further.

Something in his expression shifted — not softened, but recalculated.

"You," he said slowly, "are not what you appear to be."

Maze said nothing.

Kaedrin looked back at his son.

"Start talking," he said. "All of it. Now."

The capital rose the way capitals always rose — gradually, then all at once, spires and rooftops catching light long before the walls did.

Blaze was already inside it.

She had not walked through the gates. She had not walked at all. One moment she had been standing beside a dying fire in a forest three days' journey away, and the next she was simply here — in a room on the top floor of the finest inn the capital's noble quarter had to offer, in a chair that hadn't existed a moment before she sat in it, looking exactly as unbothered as she always looked no matter which side of a great distance she happened to occupy.

The inn's owner had not questioned the sudden appearance of a veiled guest in his best suite. He had simply found himself, somewhere in the last hour, absolutely certain that the room had always been reserved, that the payment had already been received, and that any further thought on the matter would be a waste of his time.

He was not wrong to feel that way. He had simply arrived at the feeling by a route he wasn't aware of.

The room was tasteful in the specific way expensive rooms tried to be tasteful and mostly succeeded — silk, dark wood, a window that looked out over three districts and, if you knew where to look, the very edge of the palace itself, pale in the morning haze.

Blaze was not looking at the window.

She was looking at her mirror.

It floated at eye level beside her chair, its surface showing not her reflection but a forest clearing three days behind her — Lain standing rigid, jaw tight, listening to a man twice his size and considerably louder deliver three years of accumulated fury in a single uninterrupted stream. Aleric standing slightly to the side with the open, delighted interest of someone watching a play he had no stake in. Maze, still and watchful, giving the Grand Duke exactly as much information as she'd been instructed to and not one word more.

Blaze examined her nails.

He found them faster than projected, she thought. Mildly. The way one might note that a delivery had arrived a day early. Efficient man. Loud, but efficient.

She watched Kaedrin's mouth move, watched the specific vein working at his temple, watched Lain absorb each accusation with the particular rigid stillness of someone who had learned a long time ago that flinching only extended the lecture.

He loves the boy, she thought. Badly. Clumsily. But thoroughly.

She turned the mirror's view slightly, the way one might adjust a lamp, and it obliged — angling closer, catching Aleric's face as he leaned in to whisper something to Lain that made the corner of Lain's mouth twitch despite three years' worth of paternal fury still raining down on him.

Interesting, she thought.

Not unpleasant to watch.

She looked at the window again. At the pale edge of the palace visible through the haze.

Two days, she thought. Perhaps less, at the pace he will now insist on.

She looked back at the mirror. At Maze standing exactly where she'd been told to stand, giving exactly as much as she'd been told to give.

Good girl.

She let the mirror's image hold on the clearing a moment longer — Lain still talking now, hands moving with more animation than she was used to seeing from him, actually explaining himself instead of simply enduring, the Grand Duke's fury visibly recalibrating itself into something that might, eventually, resemble listening.

Then she waved it away.

The mirror dissolved into nothing.

She looked at her nails.

The left one, finally, needed no further attention.

The board, she thought, looking out at the palace one more time, is larger than I estimated.

Fine.

Let's see what it's made of.

Kaedrin had been talking for what felt to Lain like several geological ages.

The fury had run its course sometime around the mention of the abyss — Lain had gotten exactly as far as "there was a shadow, wearing my own face" before his father's expression did something complicated and stopped him with a raised hand.

"Later," Kaedrin had said. "That part. Later. In detail."

He'd moved on to scolding him for the three years of silence instead, which was somehow worse because it came with less shouting and more of the specific quiet disappointment that Lain remembered from being nine years old and failing a footwork drill in front of the entire eastern school.

"You could have sent word," Kaedrin said. "One letter. In three years."

"I didn't want you to stop me."

"I would have stopped you," Kaedrin said. Flatly. Honestly. "Obviously I would have stopped you. You're my son. You disappeared into the world with nothing and no one—"

"I had a purpose."

"You had a — what did the report even call her — a strange veiled woman, apparently, one who several witnesses claim never removes her veil and speaks like she's already decided how every conversation will end." Kaedrin's jaw tightened again. "Forgive me if that doesn't fill me with confidence."

"She's my master," Lain said.

Kaedrin stared at him.

"Your what."

"My master," Lain said again, with more certainty than the situation strictly warranted. "I follow her. I serve her. Voluntarily."

"You're a prince," Kaedrin said, in the specific tone of a man who felt this fact should have prevented several of the last three years from happening. "You do not have a master. You have allies. Advisors. Possibly, God forbid, a wife eventually. You do not serve some unnamed veiled stranger who apparently makes constables die of unexplained causes."

"She's not what the reports say."

"Then what is she."

Lain opened his mouth. Closed it. Found, for the first time in the entire conversation, that he didn't actually have a short answer.

Kaedrin looked at him for a long moment.

Then, unexpectedly, the anger folded into something else.

"You survived an abyss," he said. Quietly now. "A shadow wearing your own face. You said that like it was nothing."

"It wasn't nothing."

"No," Kaedrin agreed. "I don't imagine it was."

He stepped forward and pulled his son into a hug that was too tight and lasted a fraction too long for either of their comforts, the specific fierce embrace of a father who had spent three years genuinely afraid he'd lost this exact outcome forever.

"You're an idiot," Kaedrin said into his shoulder. "And I am—" a pause, the words visibly costing him something— "proud of you. For surviving. For all of it. Even the parts that terrify me."

Lain, momentarily unable to speak, said nothing.

Aleric had drifted over to Maze during the hug, giving father and son the loose, unbothered privacy of someone who understood exactly when not to watch too closely.

"So," he said. "We're going to the capital now?"

"Yes," Maze said.

"With them?"

"Presumably."

"How are you getting there?"

"I'll fly," Maze said. Simply.

Aleric considered this. "Can I fly too?"

Maze looked at him.

"No," she said.

"Why not?"

"Do you want to?"

Aleric hesitated. Looked briefly, involuntarily, at the height of the nearest tree, and went slightly pale.

"I'm afraid of heights," he admitted.

"Then no," Maze said, entirely unbothered, as if this settled the matter completely, which — as far as she was concerned — it did.

Kaedrin finally released his son, cleared his throat with the specific gruffness of a man recovering his composure after an unplanned display of emotion, and turned to find Aleric standing nearby.

He studied him for a moment.

Small. Brown-eyed. Completely unbothered by six armored soldiers, a furious Grand Duke, and the general chaos of the last twenty minutes.

"What a cute kid," Kaedrin said, mostly to himself.

Something shifted behind his eyes — brief, unplaceable, gone before it could be examined.

Why do I feel like I already know him, he thought.

He didn't chase the thought. It didn't seem worth chasing.

"You," he said instead, to Aleric. "You'll ride with me. Can't have the boy who feeds my son walking three days to the capital."

Aleric brightened immediately. "Really?"

"Really." Kaedrin gestured toward his horse. "Up."

Aleric scrambled up eagerly, delighted, already thinking about what he'd write in the diary that evening.

Lain watched this happen with an expression that took a full two seconds to identify as jealousy, and another full second after that to be thoroughly annoyed at himself for feeling it.

My own father, he thought, just met him twenty minutes ago.

He said nothing.

He mounted his own horse with considerably more dignity than the situation strictly required.

They departed.

Six horses moving at a controlled, purposeful pace through the thinning trees, the forest giving way slowly to open road, the capital somewhere ahead beyond the haze.

Above them, a shape peeled away from the treeline — not a girl anymore, not sixteen, not anything close to human. Wings caught the morning light in a flare of gold and ember-orange before settling into a steady, effortless glide alongside the riders, keeping pace without apparent effort, without apparent age, without apparent anything except the quiet, ancient patience of something that had been doing exactly this — watching over the people it was told to watch over — for seven hundred years.

Kaedrin glanced up once, saw the shape crossing the sun, and did not ask.

He had decided, somewhere in the last hour, that there were things about this particular morning he simply wasn't going to ask about.

Aleric, riding in front of him, twisted around to look up too, grinning.

"That's Maze," he said happily.

"I gathered," Kaedrin said.

The road stretched ahead of them, and the capital waited at the end of it,

and somewhere inside its walls a woman in a luxury suite was already watching all of it unfold, exactly as she'd known it would.

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