After throwing those things away, Yun Ying sat numbly at the bow of the boat, tears in her eyes. She wasn't thinking about anything, nor could she recall anything—her mind had gone blank. The only thought in her head was, 'I've done something terrible. I'm a bad person. Father and Senior Brother are both going to scold me. If Senior Brother finds out about this, he'll probably never speak to me again for the rest of his life.'
'How strange. Why didn't I think about this consequence before I came? Back then, all I could think about was not letting Senior Brother give those things to Juhua.'
Now that she had thrown the items away, how was she going to explain it to her senior brother when she returned?
'Senior Brother has gone to Donglin State, and who knows when he'll be back. I have a long time to think about how to tell him about this.'
Yun Ying stared blankly at the river as dusk fell, her heart gradually calming. 'Since it's done, I'll have to face it eventually.'
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