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Chapter 11 - Healing My Inner Child

Heavenly-Autumn watched the men spear fish in the lake—stab, splash, yank—and then, as if that wasn't already a lot for her city-bred soul, they laid the catch out and started gutting them with the casual cheer of people peeling fruit.

The lake glittered, the fish flopped like tiny acrobats auditioning for a tragic play, and she stood there trying to smile supportively while her insides filed a formal complaint.

When someone proudly placed a still-cool fish in her hands like it was a bouquet, her brain went blank, her knees sent a resignation letter, and she fainted on the spot.

The village women, all warm hands and louder laughter, showed her a few simple first-aid tricks "just in case"—how to rinse a scrape with clean water, wrap it snug with cloth, and tie it off with a neat little tug—while she watched intently, nodding along like she totally had it, even as her face kept giving her away.

The little children taught Heavenly-Autumn to read and write, dragging her into it like it was a game they'd invented and she was the newest, most fascinating player. They lined up smooth boards and scraps of paper, dipped little brushes with dramatic seriousness, and chanted each stroke like a spell—down, hook, sweep!—until the shapes finally started behaving. When she managed the characters in her own name without wobbling them into something tragic, the whole group erupted: kids whooped, aunties clapped, someone actually banged a pot like it was a festival drum, and the "teacher" (a gap-toothed five-year-old with serious authority) declared it "very good, very strong."Then they made her write the names of animals—fish, goat, chicken—shouting suggestions over one another as if the letters might run away, and every time she got one right, the applause swelled louder and brighter, like the village itself was cheering her on. It was a new kind of happiness—warm, silly, and surprisingly powerful—and she felt it bloom in her chest like sunlight.

The women—young, older, some with toddlers on their hips and some with hands free to wave her closer—swept Heavenly-Autumn into the cooking area like she'd been expected all along. They chatted over one another, laughing as they worked, while out in the fields the men moved in a steady rhythm—hoes thudding, stalks rustling, a shout here and there that carried across the open air. Someone nudged Heavenly-Autumn with an elbow that was more invitation than push and said, bright-eyed, "You want to try? We can still put it in tonight's dinner." And just like that, she was handed a woven basket and pointed toward a patch of stubborn vegetables like it was the most natural thing in the world.

Come on and make it easy on me.

Heavenly-Autumn watched the others first—quick hands, sure tugs—and thought, Okay. I can do this. She planted her feet, grabbed the leafy tops of a carrot, and pulled. The ground fought back like it had an attitude. She grunted, leaned her whole body into it, and gave one heroic yank—rrrip!—only to tumble backward onto her backside with the prize held high. For half a triumphant heartbeat she felt like a champion… until she looked down and realized the carrot was tiny. Pathetic, really. Smaller than her pinky finger, like the earth had handed her a joke and waited for her to get it. 

What in the world!

The village erupted. Not mean laughter—warm, delighted laughter, the kind that wraps around you like a blanket. One auntie clapped her hands and wheezed, "Ah! A baby carrot!" A child giggled so hard he nearly fell over, and another woman wiped her eyes, still laughing, and popped the little carrot into the basket like it was precious. Heavenly-Autumn's cheeks burned, but she couldn't help it—she laughed too, the sound surprising her with how easy it was. "It's… it's doing its best," she said, holding it up with mock seriousness, and that only made them laugh harder.

They didn't leave her flustered for long. Someone crouched beside her and showed her how to loosen the soil first—fingers digging, a gentle twist—then guided her hands for the next pull. "Slow, slow," they coached, as if she were learning a dance. This time she managed a respectable carrot, and the cheers came again, loud enough to make her feel ten feet tall. It wasn't about the vegetable. It was the way they made room for her, the way they treated her mistakes like entertainment and her small victories like festivals. Back home, even her parents' kindness had always felt careful and distant, wrapped in worry about her illness. Here, affection came boldly—through teasing, through shared work, through the simple, steady assumption that she belonged.

Inside, the fire crackled and a pot simmered, filling the air with the rich, comforting smell of broth and herbs. They handed her a wooden knife—blunt but serviceable—and taught her how to cut without fear: hold steady, slice with the grain, keep your fingers tucked."Like this," a woman said, guiding her wrist, and Heavenly-Autumn nodded with fierce concentration as if she were mastering a martial art. Then a commotion outside—boots on dirt, excited voices—and through the window she saw the men hauling in a boar, proud and grinning. The animal was carried with practiced strength, and soon it was being cleaned and portioned with the same practical calm as the fish had been, the meat set aside to deepen tonight's stew.

Heavenly-Autumn, wide-eyed, asked the question that had been prickling at her ever since she arrived: "How did you take it down?" The answer came easily, like it was the most ordinary thing. "Swords, spears," someone said, shrugging. "Or arrows." That lit something in her—curiosity sparking bright and sharp. Swords. Arrows. Real strength, real skill, not just surviving but doing. Her interest perked up so quickly it made her sit straighter, as if her body had heard the word fight and decided to wake up.

Later, when the work was done and the room glowed with firelight, she sat among them—shoulders close, laughter bouncing off the walls, bowls passed from hand to hand. The villagers she'd grown to love smiled at her like she was theirs, and she felt that love meet her halfway, steady and sincere. Something small and aching inside her—an inner child who'd spent too many days in doctor's offices, too many nights feeling forgotten, too many moments watching friends drift away—finally loosened its grip. Warmth filled the empty places. Leaving home, she'd never imagined she could find a family shaped from shared chores, gentle teasing, and soup stirred over a crackling fire… but here it was, and it felt like being healed with laughter.

Laughter spilled across the yard—bright, shameless, the kind that made even the wind feel lighter. Heavenly-Autumn turned her head and caught sight of a small group of women gathered near the fence, shoulders pressed together as they teased one another. One of them held a bow as casually as a cooking spoon, and another had a bundle of arrows tucked behind her back in a wooden sheath, like it was a secret gift waiting to be revealed.

Heavenly-Autumn's eyes followed the curve of the bow, the fletching of the arrows, the easy confidence in their hands. Without meaning to, she leaned forward—just a little—like curiosity had a string tied around her chest and was gently tugging.

The elder lady noticed immediately. She clicked her tongue in amusement, tapped her cane once on the ground, and then reached out to nudge Heavenly-Autumn's shoulder with it—soft, more affectionate than scolding. Her eyes crinkled as she said, "Are ye interested in learning, silly child?"

Heavenly-Autumn startled, then pressed both hands to her own chest as if to hold her excitement in place before it escaped. "Grandma…" she began, and her voice warmed with gratitude. "You and the villagers here have given and taught me so much already." She ducked her head, cheeks pink, peeking up through her lashes like a guilty kitten. "I don't have any talent. I do not want anyone to waste their time on me."

The elder lady made a noise like she'd bitten into something sour. "You silly girl!" she snapped, but her mouth betrayed her—half a smile tugging at the corner. She took a deep breath, then pointed the cane at Heavenly-Autumn like it was the final word in an argument. "If you want something, then ask for it."

Heavenly-Autumn's fingers fidgeted together, twisting and untwisting, her heart thumping like it was trying to join the conversation. She glanced at the laughing women again—at the bow, at the arrows—then swallowed and stepped forward as if she were approaching a stage.

"W-well, Grandma!" she blurted, the words tumbling out too fast. "Please teach me—teach me how to shoot bows and arrows." She lifted her hands in a small, pleading gesture, then added in a rush, "Properly. Not like… like I'm throwing a stick at my problems."

The women nearby burst into fresh laughter, not unkind—delighted, approving, like they'd been waiting for her to say it. Someone nudged another with an elbow as if to say, See? She's one of us now.

The elder lady huffed again, thoroughly pleased with herself, and nodded as if the decision had been made days ago. "It's called archery, my dear," she said, drawing the word out like it was something delicious and important. Then she tipped her chin toward the group. "And if your arms tremble, we will laugh at ye. If ye miss the target, we will laugh at ye. If ye hit it…" Her eyes gleamed. "We will shout so loud the birds will complain."

Heavenly-Autumn blinked—then her smile broke wide and bright, like sunrise spilling over the lake. Relief and excitement rushed through her at once, leaving her a little breathless. "I can not wait to learn archery," she said, and the happiness in her voice made it sound like a promise she was making to herself, too.

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