First, I try embarrassment. Thinking back onto all the times Inv has flirted with me or how good he looks-
Quickly I see my eye turn from a light neon blue to a bright red.
'Ok… that definitely works…'
Next I try to make pink appear. I think about the kiss i had with Inv last cycle. The action alone of it…
Slowly, my eye changes from a bright red to a light pink.
'Alright… affection… I see…'
Seeing how the first 2 main colors work, I start trying to get the other colors I've seen on Inv so far.
Thinking about how Inv's skin turns purple at times. I force myself trying to think about things I don't like. The fear of bad things happening. Like losing Inv, or him disappearing…
Quickly my eye turns a deep shade of purple. Seeing this i quickly push these feelings down. Knowing this will never happen…
…
'Ok… that's purple…'
The next thing i try is sadness, remembering it being a deeper blue then normal.
Trying to think of anything sad, my mind goes back to the information learned about from the system… about my family…
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With the thoughts slowly creeping in… i see my eye turn from a light blue into a dark blue. At a point where it doesn't even look blue anymore but just pitch black.
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Clenching my paw, I let the feeling go. My family may be gone now…
I turn my head to Inv.
…
But I have him now. I'm not completely alone anymore.
Calming down, I test the next color. Yellow.
'Hmmmm… protorot'
Quickly my eye changes to the color brown and yellow? I wasn't expecting the color brown to show up as well. So, does that mean I feel 2 different emotions at the moment?
Trying to think, I do feel annoyed from how protorot works. And also feel disgusted by it as well…
So that explains why the color brown was mixed in.
Pushing the thoughts of protorot down I think of one of the last 2 colors I remember.
This time I try gray. The only time I've seen Inv appear with this color is when he is attacking and killing something…
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I think back to the lizards who tried to kill us this cycle. Only mindlessly searching for food like the lizards they are…
I can even feel myself start to grow angry thinking about it.
'Those fucking lizards… I swear I'll grow strong enough to kill you all myself'
With this genuine thought, I see my eye turn a deep dark grey.
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Trying to calm myself, I look away from the mirror. I didn't think I would get mad so quickly…
…
After a bit, I look back at the mirror. My eye now back to a normal blue.
'Ok, that's basically all the colors. The only thing left is gold… but how do I make that one appear?'
I attempt to make the color gold appear, trying to manipulate my emotions in a positive way that may reenact the color I've seen several times from Inv. But over time i get no results. The only ones being a mix of the colors red, pink and blue.
'Yeah… I still have no idea what it is… but it must mean something special if I can't copy the same feeling' I think as I give up.
Going through all the new changes my eye now has… I honestly think this is pretty cool. I just have to be careful around others trying to figure this out. It would make me an open book to them.
'Well, that is if I even meet anybody else. The only other sentient creature I've met so far is Inv'
With these final thoughts I stop messing around with my eye, coming to terms that I now have to live with this.
Carefully I put the piece of metal back on the ground, not wanting Inv to see his reflection in it when he wakes up.
I still don't know why Inv reacted the way he did when he looked in the mirror, but I don't want it to happen again.
It's kinda weird… knowing how his passives work now… before I thought it was because of whatever weird aura he has that makes creatures have a fight or flight instinct. Which I now know is the 'Universal Hatred' Passive.
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It clearly states in the passive whoever has the passive is completely immune to it… so that means… that wasn't the reason at all why he acted the way he did?
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Walking over the peacefully sleeping Inv, I look down. Feeling a small sense of dread creep up on me…
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'Inv… what exactly did you see in the mirror?'
I wish to ask Inv this, but something tells me this is something I shouldn't ask him. Something I have to wait for, for him to tell me himself…
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'I should go to sleep… now's not the time to worry about that…' i think as i feel myself starting to grow sleepy.
But i do one last thing before I lay down. While I have a moment of peace I need to check on what the new passive I have does. I don't want to make the same mistake I did holding off on it forever.
Accessing my system, I find the passive I gained when Inv's mark was completed, 'Soul Bond'.
Soul Bond (Invert) (Unique) (Soul)
Effects: …
Reading the effects, I find my mouth opening wide, my eyes snapping open growing wide as well.
'H-holy shit! This… this changes everything! This is amazing!' I yell inside my head. Astounded at the effects the passives give both me and Inv!
I also checked Inv's passives and he also got the same passive.
Soul Bond (Joseph) (Unique) (Soul)
Effects: …
With this passive's effects, this gets rid of a huge worry that's been hanging in the back of my mind ever since becoming partners with Inv!
It's still going to be weird when it happens… but this will definitely lessen the impact! Albeit in a really weird and morbid way… but it's better than nothing!
And also, the other effect… this will be interesting…
Feeling much happier than before, I lay down beside Inv. Moving myself against him to the point where our bodies are touching.
This should be fine, right? We were literally kissing last cycle so I think we can comfortably lay together like this…
Getting myself in a comfy position. I rest my head besides Inv's. Placing my head on one of his huge fluffy ears I cleaned. Coincidentally it's the ear that turned pink…
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Enjoying this small moment of peace. I close my eyes, much more happy to go to sleep then I usually would.
"Goodnight Inv…" I mutter out loud, letting myself fall deeper into a sleep.
Until everything fades to black.
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A/N: I genuinely don't know what to put here. I guess apologies for the slow uploads.