I have an issue with pain.
Important ones.
I would say I'm a sensitive person but who isn't?
Either way.
You were right,you shouldn't have to be at the receiving end of any of this hostility cause you weren't the one that caused the original pain that made me this way.
I just hoped that this wouldn't be an issue so soon especially the fact that you presented as a very emotionally intelligent man.
Or in my words,safe.
It's important I'm safe,I'm not ussually so so I am very prickly about anything that jeopardise that.
Realizing you have the power to do that scared and quite frankly still scares me.
I was hoping I was going to have time to fully fall in love before It felt like I was drowning.
To surrender and autonomy I don't even fully own to you.
I do not want to leave you,and even now,as I battle so much anger--I miss you.
But I cannot pretend that everything is already peachy because its a process,a process to relearn that you are safe.
