~ NYSSA
I regretted my choice to send Rowan away the minute the door slammed shut behind him.
I longed to call out to him, the words on the tip of my tongue, but the sentence would not form. Instead, I watched him disappear, the guilt and loneliness slamming into me fiercely.
It took a long moment before I was able to rise to my feet. I pulled the curtains open, sighing when the sun's bright rays filled the room. When dark, the room reminded me too much of the basement and the little overhead light that illuminated the dark space.
I stared out the dinwoa t the soldiers movie around in the couryard, the maids that busied themselves around, whispering to themselves. A few of them pointed upwards towards my room. A bitter feeling blossomed in my chest, filling my mouth with the taste of ash.
I wasn't sure how much of the situation they knew or how bad the rumors were and although a part of me was curious, the greater part of me just wanted to forget.
