Haru stumbled around trying to keep his balance as he tried to make his way to Nanyo. But with multiple broken bones and a few large gashes and he has lost a good amount of blood it was making it difficult to even move at all. He looked back at the alleyway and the sight before him made him sick, disturbed, but most of all he felt so guilty for what he had done. He never wanted this to happen but they had pushed him into becoming that and it made it all the worse that it was him that did it.
"Haru hopes you all can forgive Haru one day. Haru never meant to be the monster… Haru must hurry. Haru has already lost too much time; Haru needs to find Hakufu fast!" He said and moved on.
Haru though only made it to the edge of the alley way before he collapsed from exhaustion and his wounds were really starting to affect him. His vision was a bit blurry and his breathing was ragged. He felt this strong urge to just sleep where he was. Haru tried to shake it off and continue on but his body had other plans. After trying to get back up with no success, he slumped back on the wall feeling his eyelids getting heavy.
"No, must move on. Haru can't rest… but Haru is so tired… maybe Haru should just… rest Haru's eyes… for a few…" Haru passed out before he could finish his sentence.
Haru opened his eyes and saw he was floating in a void. He looked around but saw no signs of life at all. Haru tried to move but couldn't. He figured it was the pain but he doesn't really know. Actually, he wants to know how he got here. He was laying in the alley the last he remembered, so how did he end up here?
"… Ok… this is weird. How did Haru end up here… wherever here is?" Haru said to no one in particular.
"We are within the core of your mind my child." Said a large voice that sounded both kind but firm.
Haru stiffens in fear at the voice that came out of nowhere. He thought he was alone but he was proven wrong. He looked around, or tried but the pain still made it hard to move, the void to find who or what spoke to him but all he saw was the void.
"Do not fear me for I have come to help you in your time of need." The voice said.
Haru didn't trust the voice for he had heard that many times before and it always ended up with him left for dead in some gutter in the rain. Haru had enough lies told to him for a lifetime or two.
"Please forgive Haru for saying this but Haru has heard that before and it led to bad things to Haru."
"I know and it pains me that so much has happened to someone so young as you. But I speak the truth when I say I am here to help you in more ways than you could ever know Haru." Haru was startled when the voice knew his name.
"How… did you know Haru's name?"
"Well first you said it." The voice pointed out.
"… oh." Haru felt embarrassed.
"But I already knew your name well before you said it and I know many things that you have yet to learn from yourself my child, such as your true self."
"Haru's true self?"
"Yes, for you have recently discovered that you have abilities many don't have."
"By 'abilities' you mean Haru becoming that… thing and doing all those horrible things, then yes Haru has. And it has made Haru's life even worse than it was."
"I know of the actions you've done but be at ease for this is only what your powers are trying to let you see."
"As what? A monster, a killer, a beast!"
"No, they are only trying to let you see that you are far more than what you think you are but denied that for you fear them. I know what you done, you think is wrong but you only did it in self-defense."
"But in the way Haru did?"
"They tried to kill you; it is not your fault." The voice tried to reassure him.
"Then why does Haru feel so horrible inside? Why does Haru feel like such a monster? A mindless beast that only kills? Please tell Haru that?!" Haru said, almost screaming.
"Do not think like that my child; you are not a mindless beast. What you are feeling is a type of Survival's Guilt. You are just receiving your powers now and have yet to be properly trained in using them. Have you harmed an innocent? Have you used your powers for personal gain? Have you felt the need to kill without the dread of your life in the balance? Have you even considered to get all you want through your powers?" It asked.
"Well… no."
"Then you are far from a mindless beast. You just need to be trained and you will be in control of them. But now you must make the first step in becoming the light in a dark past that repeats itself."
"What do you mean?"
"It will be clear soon, now awaken and make your mark in the unknown history my child. May your ancestors watch over you, for I will."
Haru snapped his eyes open and saw he was back in the alleyway. He looked around trying to figure out if it was just some weird dream he had or was it somehow real.
"It must have been a dream, Haru is sure of it… but why does it feel so real to Haru then?" He asked to himself.
Could it be real and what the voice said to him was genuine? Would it help him not only control his abilities but also maybe remove them? Haru would love not to be that thing again and have a normal life, or close to one for a street rat like him. Haru then noticed the sun was setting over the city.
"Oh no! Haru must have been out for hours! Haru needs to find Hakufu… if it's not already too late."
Haru stood up despite the pain his body was feeling. It has lessened quite a bit but still hurts like a bitch when he moves.