Flashback Daegu
"Oppa…" I said, tears filling my eyes.
He pulled his hand back slightly.
"Why did you have to find out?" he said.
"Uh?!" I looked at him, confused.
"I said, why did you find out I was cheating?" he said, holding my arm.
"…What?" I muttered.
I have watched K-dramas all my life.
I've seen heartbreak scenes…
The boy begs, apologizes, comforts his girlfriend even if she pushes him away.
But why is mine different?
Why am I not treated like them?
Does he not love me?
Was everything fake?
"Oppa… are you kidding?" I asked.
"Kidding?" he laughed.
"Ji-hye, you were just something to pass time… you were just helping me not feel bored. The only girl I love is the one you saw me with."
Another hit.
I was just someone to play with?
"Are you denying the four years we spent together?" I asked.
He nodded.
"Go meet her and tell her it was a prank… say you're just a friend. Unless you want to regret ever saying yes when I asked you out."
I already regret everything.
I regret knowing you.
I regret seeing you.
I regret accepting you.
I regret being your girlfriend.
I even regret breathing the same air as you.
That's why I transferred to Seoul.
I did everything to enter that school.
Even if I get bullied… it's better than staying with you.
I came to start a new life.
Maybe loving you was my biggest mistake.
I wanted to shut my heart completely.
But I couldn't.
I couldn't when Yoongi kissed me…
I couldn't when he protected me…
Why do you always appear at the right time?
I tried to ignore it…
But I couldn't.
Because Ahn In-seop broke one side of my heart…
And now I feel like I'm just a second choice again.
Why does life not want me to have love?
Why am I always rejected?
Why am I always something people want… but can't choose?
Why do I call him my first love…
when Ahn In-seop was the one who gave me my first kiss?
Why did I choose you kiss you… even when you were a stranger?
And why can't you choose me back?
Did someone curse me…
that no one will ever love me?
Seeing you protect me makes me want to keep loving you…
But what if you never accept it?
Am I the one confused… or are you?
"Move."His hoarse voice said
Maybe I'll always be someone you protect…
but never love.