Chapter 5
I Miss Him
A Few Years Earlier
Alex's POV
I want him!!!! I want Lucas…
The rut has me chained to the bed, sheets soaked through with my own sweat and spent because my body is desperate and pretending it's his. Every breath burns. My skin is mottled with bruises from my own claws because I keep ripping into my thighs, my arms, anywhere to keep from howling his name into the empty dark. The room stinks of my scent,my pheromones are so dense the air feels thick enough to chew. Anyone who walks in without a mask would hit the floor and beg. I want it to choke me until I black out and dream of him.
Lucas!!.
My cutie!!!
I haven't seen him in years and the thought of him, especially the kiss we shared years ago, makes my cock throb so hard I have to bite the pillow to muffle the snarl. He's an Alpha. I know that. I know he'll never smell like crushed peaches or lily flowers for me the way an omega would. I don't care. I want to force him open anyway. I want to watch those sharp blue cute eyes go wide when he finally realizes he belongs beneath me, my teeth buried in his throat, my knot locking him to me forever even if biology screams it's impossible.
Peter steps in wearing the industrial mask, voice muffled. "Boss, the doctor is here."
I didn't open my eyes. I'm stroking myself slow and vicious, picturing Lucas on his knees in my room. "Tell the doctor to fuck off. I'm not suppressing this one."
"Boss!!!!"
"Out."
He flees.
I come with Lucas's name shredded in my throat, vision whiting out, and still it's not enough. Nothing is ever enough until it's him.
*
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My eyes were closed thinking about Lucas while listening to the feedback from my personal assistant.
"Is that all?"
"We got some amazing pictures from the hotel and if you don't mind." He brought his Ipad closer for me. I opened my eyes and watched each picture on display as he slid them one after the other and I spotted Lucas in one of them.
I grabbed the phone and zoomed out the picture to be sure I wasn't hallucinating…
"Boss, do you prefer this design?"
"Peter, I want you to do something for me, you see this cutie?" He nodded.
"Find out everything about him and send it to me." I ordered him at once. I felt this inner joy, I finally found my cutie after all these years since school time.
"I will do just that, also the shareholders when.." I interrupted him without letting him finish, "Let Zee handle the rest, right now, get me what I asked for about my cutie."
"Yes boss!"
I got all the information about Lucas, his full name Jun Zhang, the last child and only son of Mr Zhang and the only one who took after his father's ability as an Alpha and his mom became a legitimate wife to Mr Zhang. His sister is also cute just like him. I spent all night going through everything about him,looking at his pictures and videos, taking of him unaware.
I watch the hidden camera footage Peter's team pulled from street poles, café security systems, and the dashcam of the car that drives him home. Lucas laughed. Lucas rubbing his temples after a failed deal. Lucas alone in his apartment at 2 a.m., tie loosened, pouring whiskey with shaking hands.
He's suffering and I hate to see my cutie in such a state, it hurts me.
I made a call and bought the company, giving him a hard time the same night. Not for profit. I pour money into it like I'm cauterizing a wound, propping up every contract he's about to lose, anonymously. I watch the relief dawn on his face through another hacked feed and come untouched for the first time in weeks.
Cutie, I'm already saving you. You just don't know it yet.
*
Year after year, I followed him up and I was happy with the increase he got, his company doing so well.
My room was filled with his pictures and when I watch TV, he is the one on the screen. I know he is going to be mine, just a matter of time.
I requested a meeting sending my personal assistant to travel down to China to represent me. Lucas had no idea I was watching the whole thing happening, his smile breathtaking and sometimes I wish he was an omega and not an alpha.
I noticed one of the S-Class Alpha trying to flirt with him, I called Peter immediately "Strip him of everything. Company, assets, reputation. Make sure he never comes close to Lucas again."
"Yes boss." I ended the call.
Lucas is not for all but for myself alone.
Every rut is worse. I stop leaving the bedroom. I stop eating unless Peter threatens to sedate me. I mark the calendar with red X's for every day I don't claim him and the marks look like blood. The doctor developed a new patch to keep me under control.
I don't think I can wait any longer, it's time I come out from the dark and help him closer before someone steals him away from me.
My dad found out about my return and called me, "So you finally changed your mind to return home."
"I am not coming for you dad." I replied briefly.
"Well,I don't care what the reason is but my son is returning home. That matters, a party will be held and I hope you got a lover to attend because it's high time you settle down, just pick an omega already."
"Good bye dad." I ended the call, such a pain in the ass.
The only person who can pull almighty Alex from the US to return to Shanghai is my Lucas.
I miss him and I just can't wait to see him..
*
Present Day At The Restroom
I dangled the suppressant bottle between two fingers. "Looking for these?" My wish finally came true today, Lucas is an omega and he has been hiding it and I will also help him protect his truth.
He lunged. I lifted the bottle higher, stepping in until his back hit the wall and there was nowhere left to go.
Gosh he is fucking cute that I want him so bad, I need to control myself.
I hooked an arm around Lucas's waist and hauled him backward into the farthest stall.I kicked the door shut with my shoe and twisted the lock. The little metal plate flipped to red, OCCUPIED.
Instantly we were crushed together in the stall. His back hit the wall, my chest slammed against his, and the air turned thick with his scent, the one he spends a fortune trying to bury under suppressants. It was pleasant and satisfying for me.
"What the fuck, Alex?Why are you even here? To torment like you did in school? Huh?" he started, voice low and furious.
"Shh." I pressed two fingers over his lips, listening. Two people walked in, laughing about quarterly numbers, unzipping at the urinals like they had all the time in the world. Lucas's pulse hammered against my palm.
His eyes were blazing. "Get off me you jerk!"
I leaned in until my mouth grazed the shell of his ear. "You're leaking, Lucas,right now your omega scent is flooding this restroom, and if those alphas out there catch it, they'll know exactly who you are and I know you hate it but if you want them to know, I have no problem with it because they will see who you belong to. So unless you want the entire board to smell how wet you get for me, stay quiet."
His whole body went rigid, but I felt it, the tiny, involuntary shiver that rolled through him when my alpha aura brushed his. I let it out slowly, deliberately, like smoke curling around his throat. Not enough to force a drop, just enough to remind him who he will now answer to when no one's watching.
He glared harder, but his fists unclenched from my lapels and slid down to grip my belt instead, like he needed something to hold onto.
"I hate you." he mouthed against my fingers.
I smiled, dark and slow, and replaced my fingers with my mouth.
The kiss was brutal but everything to me, it was passionate for me because I finally satisfied my years of craving his tempting lips. He bit my lip hard enough to draw blood, I growled and shoved my thigh between his legs, pinning him tighter. He made the tiniest, broken sound (half moan, half snarl) and rocked against me once before he caught himself.
I pulled my mouth away just long enough to pant against his jaw. "Breathe, cutie. I'm not fucking my omega for the first time against a restroom wall, I respect you cutie."
He laughed, breathless and furious. "I'm not your omega and you better keep this truth to yourself." Damn, my cutie just gave his order which I am willing to keep but he is mine.
I slid my thumb across his bottom lip, smearing the faint trace of my blood there, watching his pupils blow wide.
"I will make you come to me willingly cutie" I whispered.
"Stay away from me!" He pushed me away and stepped out of the stall.
Damn! He is so cute when he is angry and I just can't wait to have him.