ᕙ༼Jay Jay's༽ᕗPOV
Keifer was driving very fast.I was now really starting to get scared.I was feeling like iam walking on eggshells.
And all this that was happening to me, my trauma, childhood bad memory, whatever Kuya had told me, I was not scared of all this, now I was scared of Kiefer's silence.
I felt a sharp cramp in my stomach, my eyes closed from the pain and a painful gasp escaped from my mouth.
Keifer is angry with me, I'm scared.
My happiness begins and ends with him. There is no 'me' without 'us'.
To lose him is to lose the very reason I breathe.
My heartbeat follows the rhythm of his mood—if he's upset, my whole body shuts down.
I don't just love him I survive because of him. When he's cold to me, I feel the life draining out.
His anger is a storm that steals the breath right out of me.I am a mirror of his emotions, if he is dark, I am empty.To lose his favor is to lose the ability to exist.
Damn you cramps.
"Keifer, please drive slowly, my stomach really hurts". I was feeling suffocated by the speed of his car.
I can't even able to breathe with this much pain.
I want keifer.
ᕙ༼Keifer's༽ᕗPOV
The green color in my eyes vanished for a while when I heard the painful sigh of my Jay Jay.
But the jealousy and anger in my mind was telling me that she might be acting so I should listen to her.
I did not reduce the speed of my car and after 13 minutes I stopped the car in front of my house and came out of the car.
The air of my home touched my skin and the air that always felt soothing on my skin was stinging me today.
As always, I opened the door for Jay Jay.
But she did not come out, she just remained sitting inside and after I standing there for 10 minutes, Jay Jay came out of the car.
She got out of the car, grabbed my hand, and looking straight into my eyes, asked, "Kiefer, please talk to me. What have I done that you're so angry with me?"
I pinned her to the car, put my left hand behind her neck, and held and pressed her jaw with one hand. And said, "Jasper Jean,How dare you let him touch you?"
My voice didn't seem like mine to me.it was like a hollow, guttural sound that didn't belong in a human throat.
My voice came out as a low, rhythmic snarl, the kind of sound a wolf makes before it lunges.
I saw fear in her eyes, fear in the sack, from me?? After looking into her eyes I don't know why it seemed to me as if she was asking me to protect her.'from me'.
My eyes softened, the green gas in my eyes completely vanished.
I looked at her and felt a sickeningly beautiful debt she had torn down her own world just to build a small, safe one for me.
Seeing her there, I realized she hadn't just loved me; she had sacrificed every version of her future just so I could have a present.
And here iam breaking her completely.
I moved my hands away from her and she staggered away three steps from me.
She was just three steps away from me, and I felt as if someone had smeared my body with honey and thrown me to the honeybees.
"I-iam sorry jay I really don't–"before I continue she collapsing on floor but befor se hit the floor I pick her up in my arms .
I picked her up in my arms and laid her down in my room.
I know Jay is in this condition because of me.
I am the one who should keep Jay Jay safe from the world, but I am counting myself among those who are hurting Jay Jay.
I just kept looking at Jay Jay, his pale face and delicate body.
Instead of keeping her safe, I'm causing her more pain.
I sat there for 2 hours on the floor near the bed, looking at Jay Jay's face without touching her.
Then I called someone from my phone, "Hello, psychiatrist??".
I looked at Jay she seemed to be coming to my sense.
I grab her hand and kiss her nukkle s and forehead.
"Jay ,iam sorry love".I said but she opened her eyes and try to jerk my hand but I held it more tightly"jay ,love please listen to me ,my life".
She looked at me and rolled her eyes.
"Baby, please forgive me. I really shouldn't have done all that." I said and kissed her eyes. "You can punish me however you want, but please, darling, don't ignore me".
She let out a deep breath because I wasn't ready to let go of her hand.
"Fine"
"Thank you,love you my love".I said, kissed her forehead and sat on the bed. She took the pillow and sat on the bed.
I briefly touched my head to her head and my nose to her.and luckily she let me do this.
"Keifer, you deserved punishment, right?"she said still eyes closed and still our head and nose jointed.
"Yeah ,I deserve it give me punishment whatever you want".
And without hesitation she said, "You will not touch me for two whole weeks, you will not even hold my hand."
What😰😰
What the FUCKKKKKK 😰😰
I turned away from Jay and sat on my knees in front of the bed and Jay was now facing me. I said, "Please take my life but don't stop me from touching you, Jay, I will die. my love, it is not that easy for me,if you want just kill me".
I said because it's really impossible and hard for me.
"3 weeks"she said
"WHAT??"I screamed really screamed.
"4 weeks".
"Iam sorry,iam sorry jay ,please have some mercy on me".I showed my most hard innocent puppy eyes to her."I will definitely not stop you from eating your ice cream".
"3 weeks"
"I'll get you a panda or a snorlex".
"2 weeks".
She said while crossing her arms to her chest.
"We'll eat your favorite food at the hotel for a whole week, and I'll give you a massage every night before bed for two weeks."
She smiled and immediately delete it from her beutiful lips.
"I week".
"I will even write your school notes."
I thought she would forgive me this time, but "1 week".
Still.
"Please Jay".
"If you don't want me to extend the day any further, then bring me my chocolates." She said and I handed her favourite chocolate.
"I'm sorry my woman".
I said she rolled her eyes.
"Jay?? You really won't let me touch you for a week.??"
"Yes"she answered while eating that chocolate.that chocolate has her all consentration.
Iam not jealous of that chocolate🙄
Really 😶 🙄
"So...can I kiss you for while????".I asked.
"No"
"Please "
"Fine🙄"she said.
And I made her sit on my lap, took her hand, she is my Kaluya[fello-wife]-(chocolate) and placed her on the table.
I placed her legs around my waist and.And her arms crossed to her chest with cute grumpy face.she was not placing her hands around my neck, so I placed her hands on my neck myself.
I don't want to force Jay, not right now, not when I've treated her badly. I just want to feel her close to me for a while, not forcefully .because it's been 4 days, I actually didn't kiss her.
"Love, if you don't want me to kiss you, I won't force you".but she suddenly kiss me on my lips giving me permission.
Then I felt that my baby was really comfortable with me, so I placed my hand on her back waist and took one hand inside her top and started caressing her stomach area and near her ribs.
I put my tongue in her mouth and started sucking her tongue,and her lower and uper lips.
We kissed for a while and after maybe 8 minutes Jay Jay started hitting my shoulder.
I got so carried away by this feeling that I ignored it.And I started kissing her more roughly than before. I was literally eating her up.
"Ke-keifer.....s-sto...p".she said in between kiss because iam not giving her chance to even breath.
I quickly stopped. As soon as I stopped, I pulled Jay Jay's head and nose towards me and press again mine.
She start taking deep breaths against my lips.
And this is provoking me to kiss her more.
"I-idiot..."
She say while deep breathing.
"Profenity jay".I said also try hard to catching breath.
"It's....just"deep breath"for a week keifer".
"For me ,This week feels like it's been going on for centuries."I said and she get up from my lap and went to bathroom.
For a while damn week.
How will this time pass?