My mom used to tell me not to have a complicated lifestyle so my life would be easy for me. I grew up to love complicated things and a complicated lifestyle. What I chose seems to have start turning back on me soo early, but I knew I could always quit. Also, I always told myself that I was a strong lady, I won't let little things like this break me so easily. I was sure to get my self all fixed up.
Sir Brooks was the one who walked him out today, I was just left behind in amazement and shock. It didn't take me long to get out of my shock though. I walked upstairs and headed to m room, even Ruth didn't know that Uncle Jaime came by. This was spectacular for no reason.
The sun was spectacular today, it shone on my face like I was a rose flower. The sound of people voices out side on the lonely streets was been heard all the way from my room, the birds contributed in the morning spree, this seemed like I was back home in Cape Town. It was past eight, I didn't feel like leaving bed at all, I just wanted to be alone and feel all that the morning had to offer that time. I hesitated for a while then stood up and remained in a sitting position on my bed. I then stood up finally and made for my brush, I stopped and headed for the window, I looked down to the streets, there was the roadside shops, a canteen lady too, they were all looking joyous as long as I saw.
I then returned to my brushing process, I showered and dressed on new clothes. I vibes to music alone in my room, I didn't wanted to leave my little world at that moment, I just wanted me alone.
I wasn't thinking about what happened yesterday anymore, I was trying to be free off thoughts today. I was now dozing off when the I heard the candy man in the street, it jumped me off my doze, I now had to go out, I was hungry. I went to the kitchen to get something for my self to eat, I heard Sir Brooks's voice but I didn't flinch. He was heading for work I supposed, I didn't wanted to talk to anyone that morning.
Just then Ruth walked in the kitchen, she greeted me and I said hi back. I made my stuff and headed back for my room, I locked the door quietly behind me. I ate like I was being forced to. I was done with my food and wanted to sleep again, then I heard a knock in my door, Ruth then spoke up, "Hi Tilder can I come in??", I hesitated for a second then I replied, "of course!! Come in".
She walked in and shut the door. She sat on the bed with me, I knew she was going to talk about yesterday again. I spoke first, "Sir Brooks told you that Uncle Jaime came by yesterday right??", I said, "yes he did...." She replied halfway, she now continued, "he said he came for his explosives and he left immediately, I really dunno why he didn't tell me he was coming".
She seemed surprised too, cause I was yesterday but not anymore, maybe he didn't have time to talk to me, maybe he didn't just wanted to talk to me, maybe.
There was silence in the room for sometime, Ruth was now lying on her back on the bed, the sun was now at the peak Of leaving my room. I broke the silence, "as along as he's gone, non if really gives a fuck 'bout him right??"
Ruth looked at me in my eyes and spoke with her lips almost closed, as if she talked with he mouth closed. "I know you've been have sex with him all these while, he told me everything, he said he was scared you won't be able to hold it alone and want to spill it out to the wrong ears".
I was stunned now. It was just like everyone now had bags full of surprises, and it was given to me every single day. The person who told me to act like an adult is the one who's now acting like a teenager. I wished the floor could open right now so I could fall in and it swallowed me up, I hid this from Ruth almost like it was a CIA secret.
How was I going to explain this to her now, I thought. As if she doesn't as reading my thoughts, she continued talking, "he said he was going to get married and didn't want troubles coming after him to break up his marriage, I understand that he's done a lot to you but you need to let him and the past go, okay??" I didn't reply immediately, I was still processing my thoughts slowly. I now was ready to talk, "Yes I understand. But I'm sorry for not telling you long time ago, soo sorry ", I replied shakily. She just hugged me and smiled continuously. This gave me little strength to continue sitting.
Now I understood that I've been fooling my self but I wasn't going to allow it to weigh me down. I planned on how I was going to attain my new lifestyle. At least I now knew who told lies and who didn't.