*Notice* Ello Mateys, I hope you liked the Chapter 1.1! Just a little Reminder Chapter 1.3 will be A LOT! Well then anywayss I hope yall enjoy this Chapter!
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Fortunatly, they didn't notice me. I got Up and decided to get a muffin. It wasn't an ordinary muffin. I choose a blueberry muffin with cranberry filling.
My favourite sweet, that was the besti've ever are.
»"How did you make that muffin like that again?"
"So first mix 300g of flour with 125g of sugar and baking powder-spda duo, plus this one pinch of salt, so the bbase is up and then I grab the next bowl for the two eggs and the yoghurt, which I whisk together with the 125g of melted butter and the vanilla to a creamy mass, while I already wonder if all this still Makes sense in my head, but whatever, I now simply tip the liquid to the flour, stir very briefly, as if I were in a hurty, because I know that otherwise the dough will be tough and then they come, the 150g of blueberries and the 100g of cranberries, which I only fold in a very slowly so that this wild marbling remains and everything does not sink into a faint uniform violet, before I portion the dough into the moulds and push the whole load into the oven at 180 degrees, and then squat impariently in front of the disc for twenty minutes, while the smell of wild berries clouds my sensed and i seriuosly have to control myself to inhale the things directly from the tray after boiling hot.
I continued to mutter of blueberry-cranberries muffins, which I did not pay attention to the Line continuing. It wasn't until I was tapped on my shoulder that I realised I was still in line. When I was about to turn around to apologise, I stopped in the of the turn because the person who tapped me, the true well-known Zogar, stood in front of me with a friendly smile on his face.
My cheeks turned red... No... Not just the cheeks, but the whole face!
I don't know if It's out of shame, own feelings like love or something else, but I was really embarressed to have him back in my perspective. I accidentally stared at his group and now this. I'm at the end!
»"Hey Matey, so I don't think I know much about you, but could you go on, so because of the line and the other people behind me?"«
Wait...what?! Did Zogar Just talked to me?!
I merely nodded and moved on, for I well knew that If i were to Open my massive beak now, two scenarios could play out.
The first one: Nothing would come out but stuttering. Or number two: Only philosophical statements from Famous philosophers I admired. So i remained silent until he spoke again.
»"So i think you're really cool and all, because of your hair color. If You want, you could eat with our group"«
My breath hitched. I was fascinated and a bit embarressed he called me "unique" or rather, used the word "cool" and because I know with one hundred percent certainty that he had to endure my mumbling about blueberry-cranberry Muffins.
I decided to just answer, but then I flinched, because all that came out was a squeky:»"N-no, It's okay, maybe next time..."«.
My cheeks turned red. I tried to think of something else to say to save the situation.
But then i heard his soft voice.
His heart-melting smile.
»"Sure, See you next time!"«
Then Zogar went to the counter and grabbed a box of pineapple chunks before heading back to join his group.
Wait... did I Just blow my only chance at a friendship?
My very first friendship that would have been part of my Training or education?!
No... this... this... can't be real!...No! Shit! Shit! I hate myself so much! Why? Just why?! What if Said yes instead of no? Shit! I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself, I hate myself!
After a while, I calmed down again. Still, I found it hard not to hate myself. Why did i say no? Because I'm afraid and a coward? But why do my cheeks always turn red and why do I stutter so much when i'm near him?
Shit, I don't know... I don't even stutter around Keshka or Netha, the two Most beautiful and popular Girls at our place. Every boy raves about those two and are making bets on who is the prettier one.
Except for me.
I'm the only boy who doesn't do that. But with that one...
With Zogar, It's something completly different... Shit! Why am I only thinking about him! Wait... I haven't... fallen for Zogar, have I?! That's not possible! two boys? A couple? No! still i'm five years old, so... so it's just a Phase! Yeah... just a phase.
But what if this isn't just a phase I'm going through, but is forever? No! Shit! That can't be true! What would others think of my if they only knew that I... in Zogar... No!
That's out of the question!
I...I will simply not open my mouth or just decline if someone brings up this topic...
Yeah! Exactly like that!
I sighed and looked at the blueberry muffin with cranberry filling. I've lost my appetite...
Oh well... i'll just go for a little walk to get some fresh air.