"Even if giving away those years and defying the law means you will die now?" the Light Being asked, and unlike before, there was seriousness in his voice that made Cixi realise he was not merely testing her determination with meaningless questions.
Cixi once more did not answer immediately. Until that moment, she had been thinking only about the infants and how unfair it felt to stand there knowing they were going to die when she could possibly prevent it.
But the way he said 'die now' suddenly forced her to think about herself. If she agreed and her remaining years were taken away immediately, then there would be no returning to her body. She would simply be gone.
The thought made her hesitate.
She had not even met her biological parents yet. She had not said goodbye to Lily or Marion either, and then Cassian appeared in her thoughts.
She had not said goodbye to him, too.
