I don't sleep well.
The bed is too soft, the room too quiet, and every time I close my eyes I see Feifei's face. The way she looked at me before she walked away, the door closing with that final, soft click.
I've been messaging her since I got here.
*Feifei, I'm so sorry.*
*Please let me explain.*
*I truly didn't know who he was when it happened.*
*Please talk to me.*
Nothing.
No response. Not even a "read" notification.
I called her earlier, before lunch. The phone rang once, then went straight to voicemail.
She's blocked me.
My sister, who used to defend me to our parents, who brought me soup when I was sick, who actually loved me despite everything…
She's blocked me.
I finally fall asleep sometime after midnight, exhausted and hollow.
***
My phone wakes me.
Not the alarm. Something else.
Buzzing. Constant, relentless buzzing.
I crack my eyes open, early morning light filters through the curtains, too early for breakfast.
The buzzing continues.
