"I don't know..." Carla says hesitantly.
"Just tell me... I won't get mad" I look at her with soft eyes.
"I don't know!" She says louder.
"My mind keeps drifting to you then..." She pauses.
"Yui, am I right?" I say, already knowing what she's gonna say.
The blue lights of the aquarium illuminates our faces.
"Just stick with Yui, you saw me right? I just kissed someone." I look down at the ground, too ashamed to look at Carla.
"No! I told you I'm not even sure what these feelings are! I can't just rush things then regret it later on! Did you even like that kiss? You looked scared! You looked like you didn't even want it. Why did you even kiss and talk to her in the first place!" Carla cups my face and forces me to look at her, just like how she did in the infirmary.
I stay silent, knowing what she's saying is true, but I can't just outright accept her, she doesn't know about how much trouble Sayaka would cause.
I softly push her off, "I'm sorry... I just..."
"Why are you sorry?! You didn't do anything wrong!" Carla interrupts me.
"I love you, but I don't want to be with you... this is my way of expressing my love for you." I say looking at the tank full of fish.
"Look at me!" Carla shouts.
I keep looking at the fish, just seeing how free they seem to be.
Carla forces me to look at her once more and leans in closer.
"If you really do love me, then kiss me, right here, right now." Carla looks at me, a tear rolls down her cheek.
"Carla..." I lean in closer, our lips brushing against each other, but then I stop last second.
"I can't!" I exclaim. I'm terrified about what could happen to her if she doesn't end up with Yui, sure I didn't even finish the damn series, but Yui saves her so many times that even if she isn't the main heroine, she still needs Yui.
Yui is charming, kind, sweet, but just thinks badly about others who aren't his friends, he is meant to change that bad trait of his because of Carla, he also needs Carla. It was already obvious who ends up with who. Plus, I'm just someone she knew for only a week, she knew Yui for most of her life.
"You really... don't love me do you?" Carla says, tears falling freely from her eyes.
Her words feel like a punch to the gut, "I do! Believe me!"
"How can I believe you, if you can't even show me that you love me?" Carla says as more tears pour out.
"I'm trying! I'm giving you the smoothest path to the person you love!" I say trying to convince her.
"I SAID I'M NOT EVEN SURE IF I LIKE YUI, WHY DO YOU KEEP ON DOING THIS, YOU SAY ALL YOU'RE DOING IS FOR ME, BUT WHEN I ASK YOU TO DO SOMETHING FOR ME, YOU DON'T DO IT?! YOU BIRD-BRAINED IDIOT! " Carla says, her face visibly contorted with rage. Then suddenly, she hugs me.
"Seriously... if you really want me to be happy, then why can't you be selfish? You don't have to be selfless to make others happy, sometimes people would like to see you happy as well. If you can't even think for yourself... can you really say you love me?" Carla says softly, burying her face on my shoulder.
"I'm sorry... I don't deserve to be selfish." I say, caressing her head softly.
She bawls out her eyes while clinging on to my shirt.