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Chapter 23 - Ch 23 (I am not necessarily me)

..And inside this unknown world existing in hell that glows with every logically possible color, Loki falls with Shō on top of him. Then Shō screams in his face and says: "You idiot, you've made us enter this world!" Then Shō says to himself [Oh my god, why is this happening again?]. Then Loki says: "Huh? Where are we now? And what is that city?" Shō looks at Loki and says: "You blunderer, you've brought us inside this world! I told you not to touch the sphere!" Shō calms down and says to himself [It's no use regretting something that has already happened and cannot be changed, so just move forward because you cannot go back]. Then, suddenly, when Loki speaks and says: "I didn't mean to," Shō suddenly disappears from in front of Loki, which surprises him greatly [What the hell is this?]. Loki gets tense and starts moving in that dark city [Is he dead? No, I don't think so. It seems he was transferred to another place. But how can I get out of here now?]. In the darkness of the large city inhabited by humans, Shō suddenly sees a window and two girls looking towards Loki, saying: "Loki, how are you? Come up here." Loki is surprised [How did they know my name?]. Suddenly, Loki flies as the two ladies smile at him, and then Loki ascends above the building directly in front of the girls. Then the girls continue flirting with Loki, who shows no interest in them, only feeling awe and confusion. Then, without any introduction, the girls enter through the window, and one of them says: "Come here, my father wants you." Then Loki says to himself [I feel it's okay to go]. Then Loki heads and enters through the window...

..And at Shō's place, Shō falls into another place near an abyss at the end of which is a huge and beautiful river. On the other side, Shō sees a very beautiful paradise and giant fruits, while on the side where Shō is, there is a beautiful amusement park. Then Shō says to himself [A test again? Like the scattered world or what?]. Then a beautiful young girl appears, seemingly around the same age as Shō, who is no more than a few million years old. Then Shō feels his heart become intensely attached to her. The girl places her head and her yellow hair on his shoulder and says: "Do you love me, Shō?" Shō smiles at her, feeling an immense attraction towards her, and says: "Yes, indeed. Why do you ask?" Suddenly, the girl stands up and says: "Let's play in the amusement park where the fun games are." Suddenly, the girl runs towards a parkour area filled with colorful balls. Then Shō runs after her, his heart yearning with love for the girl, while the girl laughs and he laughs too with joy. And inside Shō [I feel something strange, as if I'm inside a dream. I mean, I am indeed in the dream of one of the sleepers, but as an existence, I feel I cannot perceive everything, as if I'm awake, feeling that I'm asleep and having a conscious dream]. While the girl smiles and catches her breath, Shō looks at her, and every time he looks, he feels love towards her. Then the girl and Shō exit the amusement park. Suddenly, the girl hugs Shō tightly and kisses him on his face, causing tears to fall from Shō's eye without any resistance, tears of intense joy. Then the girl says: "I love you so much. You are my soul and I am your soul, we complete each other. And now, let's return to what we really were, or to what you were." Then the girl runs, and Shō runs after her. Suddenly, the girl falls into the abyss, causing Shō to scream and run after her, ready to throw himself also into the abyss to save her [What am I doing?]. Suddenly, just before Shō falls into the abyss with the huge river at its end, Shō grabs onto a rock and pulls himself up, while feeling indescribable sadness inside him over her departure, even though that relationship lasted only three minutes. Then Shō says to himself [I understand the game now. This world is trying to make me become attached to something to a terrifying degree so that I forget myself, and when it dies, I kill myself along with it]..

..And at Loki's place, who entered the girls' house, Loki finds an old man with a white beard, completely blind. Then the man says: "Hah, who has come, my children?" Then one of the girls says: "It's Loki, father, my fiancé!" Then her sister says: "He's Loki, my fiancé too!" Loki is surprised and says: "Me? I don't even know you!" Suddenly, the two girls grab Loki's hand and make him sit next to their father. Then the girls go into the kitchen. While the girls are preparing food from the kitchen, the old man says: "My boy Loki, you will eat with us today." Then Loki says to himself [I feel a heaviness in my body. I want to get out and look for Shō. What is this world, by the creator?]. Then the girls place the food, and suddenly Loki is shocked to see that the food consists of the names: "Lilith," "his mother Lyra," and "Paradise." Then, suddenly, the heaviness lifts from Loki's body, and he quickly gets up, while the old man says: "Where are you going? You haven't even finished your food!" Suddenly, Loki opens the house door, exits, and closes it. Then Loki says to himself [I don't understand. Where is Shō? I have to find him]. Suddenly, the door behind Loki disappears, and Loki finds himself inside a school, specifically on the first floor, where the school is destroyed and stairs are scattered. Then a person wearing a suit, like a principal, comes and says: "Go to class now, Loki. The lesson is about to start." Then a large number of students appear behind Loki, and as a result of this huge crowd, Loki is dragged with them into the classroom. Loki says inside himself [Am I in a dream? I don't understand. I feel like I'm seeing myself from a third-person perspective!]..

..And at Shō's place, who sits while his heart feels sadness and tells him: Let's fall into the abyss now. Then, without any introduction, everything around Shō changes. He finds himself in a place with a beautiful night street, shops selling food, and humans moving about. Then Shō sees a man with white hair wearing white clothes. Then the man says: "Come here, my grandson, come here, my boy." Then Shō goes and stands before him as the man stands in front of a two-story medical clinic. Then the man says: "Come, sit with me in the clinic now. I'll make you enjoy it." Then Shō enters the clinic as a female customer arrives, and the man goes and speaks with her. Then Shō looks at a beautiful girl working with the white-haired man, and she ascends the illuminated stairs wearing tight jeans, which makes Shō feel excited towards her. Then Shō involuntarily follows her up the stairs, as if something is forcing him to do so. While Shō ascends the stairs, scattered and strange words appear on the wall that Shō does not see, as the wall speaks the words on it in a voice that no one, not even Shō, hears, saying: "All of this is just to help you." Then Shō sees the girl sitting upstairs, with no one else around. The girl looks at him and says: "What brings you here, my husband? Are you sick or something?" Then Shō says: "No, nothing. I'm not sick." Then, without Shō being able to do anything, he feels excitement towards her while feeling that something is happening to him. Then the girl speaks and says: "What's wrong, my love?" Suddenly, the girl laughs and looks at his lower part to see something huge and long. Then, without any introduction, as if a time skip occurred, Shō sees himself entering into an intimate relationship with the girl, while his spiritual heart pounds intensely and he feels even greater love towards her than the previous girl. While the girl is in pain and smiling at Shō during the act, with Shō lying on a bed meant for patients to recover, and the girl on top of him, the place is dark with no lights, only a small, very weak lamp illuminating the room so much that the girl's features do not fully appear in Shō's eyes due to the weak light, while a spiritual pistol lies beside him. Then the girl, showing exhaustion, says: "I love you so much, my husband, my most precious possession. There is nothing like you." Then, without any introduction, a sudden sound comes from the girl, her pupils dilate, and she falls and dies on Shō's chest..

..Then Shō is extremely shocked, tears fall from his eyes, and he cries out loudly [Why is all this happening?]. Shō tries to shake the girl, but she doesn't respond. Shō tries more and more. Shō screams and says: "Wake up! What happened to you, my wife?!" Then, as Shō cries, he picks up the pistol and places it against his head. Then, scattered words appear in the darkness on all the walls of the room, saying: "You must die. This is not you, nor is this your place. Kill yourself now. All of this is for your own benefit and so you can return to what you were. You are not Shō, nor is Shō you. You are something completely different. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself." Then Shō hears these numerous whispers as he holds the pistol, and suddenly...

..He pulls the trigger..

..And at Loki's place, who was dragged into the classroom against his will, all the students sit in the school chairs in the classroom with demolished and old windows. A little light comes from the sun, making the classroom slightly illuminated. Then the students talk and laugh while Loki sits, unable to move at all [I feel like I want to sleep. I can't resist anymore. This is a dream. Yes, it's a dream. I no longer know who I really am]. Suddenly, Loki sees a person in the seat next to him who looks exactly like him, a copy identical to the original. Then the students look at them in silence. The teacher comes and says: "Huh? Which one of you is Loki?" Then the real Loki doesn't reply, as if he cannot speak. The copy identical to the original Loki says: "I am, teacher. I am Loki. I don't know who this is." Suddenly, the real Loki says: "No, I am Loki." The students and the teacher look at him and laugh, saying: "Hahaha, he's trying to impersonate Loki!" The real Loki gets angry and says: "No, he's the one trying that. I am Loki!" Then the scene begins to darken as if the screen is turning off, and with the laughter of the students and the teacher, Loki feels heaviness in his spiritual body. Suddenly, the light disappears, and Loki vanishes from the place, finding himself falling into a deep abyss devoid of color, where oblivion resides..

..And at Shō's place, Shō hears the sound of a gunshot in his ear after he fired, only to realize the bullet passed by the side of his head and hit the wall. Then Shō tries to compose himself, throws the pistol away completely, and says to himself [I no longer understand. I no longer care. I don't want anything anymore. I don't want to exist here. At the same time, my instinct forces me to stay and endure. I no longer know who I am... I'm just a human or something like that]. With the girl dead, Shō then stands up from the bed where patients lie, swaying as if drunk from the successive shocks and feeling dizzy, while all his skills and abilities are stopped and he cannot use them [I will not fall into the abyss]. Shō wipes the tears on his face while trying to resist and says: "I feel like I'm not me." Suddenly, he sees himself from a third-person perspective, then returns to himself. "I must endure." As Shō descends the stairs, with the wall's words appearing randomly and cumulatively, saying: "Just kill yourself to return to the origin. Your origin before you were Shō. I am merely the wellspring of your memories. Reverse your past. I want to help you. You are not necessarily you." Shō does not hear these whispers and staggers as he descends; the world was trying to swallow his consciousness. While descending the stairs, Shō suddenly falls from the stairs, and the light completely ceases. Then Shō says: "I feel weak, but I must resist." Then Shō sees a light, but a black light on the wall. Then Shō thinks this is hope; he must hold onto it. Then he raises his face to see what this light is. Suddenly, the hair on Shō's head stands on end as he sees the word "The Empty" on the wall, and beneath it, words saying: "I am always here. You will never escape." Suddenly, the word explodes, and rocks scatter onto Shō's body. Then he too falls into a black abyss, while whispers scream, saying: "Return to your origin. Do not give up. I reverse your past. It doesn't matter if it's good or bad. Return, O Lord of Light and Hope. Do not fall into the darkness." Shō loses consciousness as he is shackled with black chains, falling into the world of oblivion. Strange laughter appears with an indescribable sound and fades away as he loses consciousness..

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