'Alarm'
'Alarm'
The loud noise of alarm sound woke me up,
I stopped the alarm and looked at my phone,
It was 7 am in the morning,
My eyes were hazy,
It was painful to look at the screen in such high brightness as all the room light were turned off and all the curtains were closed,
The room was pitch black,
I love dark theme and use phone in minimum brightness possible,
So,
I was feeling small pain in head and eyes when looking at that glowing red and blue lights from the phone,
But, I couldn't stop myself from looking at phone,
Even if it was painful and also because,
I was too lazy to stand up and open the curtains,
So, I did as everyone does and started using social media,
At first, I opened YouTube and checked if the channels I have subscribed have uploaded any new videos or any new content,
And in the flow of moment, I opened YouTube shorts,
I don't why but time flows very fast when you are watching YouTube,
And Time flied like that last month of the year,
I found a very funny yt shorts but when I opened the comments, most were bots' comments and not the way I expected,
Beep,
Beep,
I also got tons of notifications from my old friends from school days,
We are very far away but still keep on sharing Instagram reels,
'(Lost_From_Rizz): Shared you 10 reels and more'
'(My_Life_My_Rules): Mentioned you in the post by…'
There were many notifications,
And after seeing so much notifications.
Who will not open Instagram?
I opened and reacted to all the reels,
My friends had sent,
I was reacting to his reels like I was grading a math paper,
The reels he had sent were very funny and I felt like I was losing onto something,
Like I was getting a strange feeling as If I didn't send better or more funny, more racist, more World War 3 reels,
I will feel dominated and lose all the aura,
The best word to describe this feeling would be FOMO,
The fear of missing out,
Yes, I felt like I will miss something that even I don't know,
So, I kept on scrolling reels until I found more better, more worthy of my position I had built among my friends,
I had to send better, funnier and more racism filled reels or else I will lose all my aura,
Even though this all what I am doing is not worth shit and,
I know our friendship won't change even if I send no reels,
Nothing will happen,
But I really can't seem to change myself,
Everyday I wake up at different time but my routine is same,
I wake up and use my smartphone for hours after waking up and then wash my face,
I want to change,
I always sleep thinking that tomorrow,
I will change,
I will not repeat this routine,
But I can't do it,