And,
As I always I woke up late in the morning around 9 AM,
I felt very angry and I don't know why but my body moved automatically and opened my laptop,
There was a light voice screaming in my head,
Nooo!!
Don't do it,
But I didn't thought of anything,
I opened my laptop and opened google chrome in incognito mode and searched up my favorite porn site and as usual
I took out my Onahole and started beating my meat,
I was like someone possessed by devil,
My hand gripped the onahole with intense strength,
As If I wanted to run away from the dark reality of the world,
I wanted to reach that climax as fast as possible,
So, I started beating my meat with one hand and other hand maxed out the volume of laptop,
The increase in volume gave me more stimulation,
And,
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I am cummmming!!!!"
Finally, the scream of female artist that was so sexy and pleasurable,
Made me cum,
'Argh'
Grunts,
I let out all the load in my body and was breathing heavily,
And the post nut clarity hits me like someone has thrown a bucket of cold water in my body,
And the emotion that hit me the hardest was anger, guilt and rage,
But it was still not enough and I still wanted to run away from the consequences,
So, I opened another video and started gooning again,
I was running away from the reality and just wanted to live on edge of that pleasure that I get when I beat my meat,
I don't care about others,
I just want to goon and live my life simply here in this apartment,
The rent of the apartment is so cheap and I don't need to cook nor I have to wash my clothes,
What is the point of being a Singer?
What worth is my dream?
Why work so hard?
What am I even working hard for?
Why go through such pains?
When the greatest pleasure is given by sex?
And an information I once watched appeared in my mind,
Sex gives the pleasure second to only drug,
So why pursue dreams?
So why pursue freedom?
Life has no meaning!!!
I don't know whether it was me or mind manipulating myself but One thing becoming clear to me is that I have already shrunken deeper into abyss which goes beyond reality,
