People have humiliated me so many times,
Now,
There words feel nothing to me,
But,
Why is it that today?
I am so enraged and angry?
How dare they humiliated me?
I respected these people the most,
I think that is why,
There words cuts deeper then knives,
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
I don't want to think about those things,
Shit,
Fuck,
…
What are you doing nowadays?
What?
You have not Joined any universities yet?
Your friend is already in Ritupur institute of Engineering,
The top college for engineering in the country,
So, what are you preparing for?
Hahaha,
Nothing,
Ohhhh,
So, what are you doing nowadays?
Yes,
Tell us,
What?
Still thinking about those stupid things?
You will become a singer?
What futures does that?
How much will you earn?
Someone pats me and spoke
Well,
If you get famous don't forget us,
Hahahahahaha,
Why is everyone laughing?
Yeah of course I won't forget you,
I thought 'How can I forget you people?'
Their smiles cuts deeper then blades,
Are they still same people I respected?
Are they the people I admired?
No,
I want to cry but I can't
If I cry here,
I will be humiliated more,
I will show to them,
My day will also come,
When I will laugh and they will do nothing and glare at me like a humiliated prostitute?
Yes,
A prostitute,
Because nobody cares about the prostitute who is being raped,
Because whore will remain a whore whether fucked once or twice,
But only the whore knows the difference between giving service and getting raped,
But to them,
It is all the same,
So,
All I can do is glare,
But I am not like my sister,
Who has great talent,
I am like Utsāhālasya,
Even though,
I don't want to be like him,
But what does my wanting has with what I am?
What you want to know who he was?
He was the person,
Who had greatest ambition a human ever could think about but he was also embodiment of Sloth,
So, in essence,
He used to live in delusion,
He always used to sleep soundly thinking of great dreams like,
Eating a sun like mango in the day and gifting the moon to his lover as hairpin in the night,
He even proclaimed that,
One day,
He will get so powerful that he will destroy entire known universe with his single punch,
His most famous quote is "What type of ambition a man must have? To fly away today and reach the end of universe on another day,"
But until death,
He achieved nothing,
Yes nothing,
He was the true zero of the story,
Every character in the 'Saga of the Ages' improved themselves but he just kept living in delusion,
He got more delusional and delusional,
He was same like me,
I also have great ambition but what I have done to complete that ambition?
What I have done since entering that new flat?
Can I name one thing that led me towards my goal?
And the answer is big fat NO!!!
I don't want to end up like him,
He died a dog's death and all he sang was the poems of regret,
He died with tears all over face,
His snot falling from his nose,
He died in a worst way a man can die mentally,
There are many deaths in 'Saga of Ages' that can cause a debate among fans on who died in most physically painful way in the story but the answer for most painful mental death will be same,
He was most annoying character I have seen in the story,
I always cheered for him,
I wanted him to improve,
I wanted him to show up Infront of his peers changing himself,
And humiliating them back,
But it never happened,
So, I kept hating him,
But now I can say that the character I loved the most in the story is him.