It's frustrating. Really frustrating.
You know, unfortunately, I need to make a profit to keep the story going. I either work or write—I can't do both. Unfortunately, my contract request was permanently rejected by some editor, even though I literally met all the contract requirements—or almost all of them, at least. It's like a permanent rejection just because he wanted it that way. Yeah, I get that I might not generate immediate profit for the platform, but couldn't I do so in the medium or long term?
I'm frustrated. I talked to the folks at Webnovel, and now I only have two options to get a contract—repost the current one, of course, though the chances are still pretty slim, or write another Webnovel.
It's really incomprehensible. I know I'm not—and am nowhere near—the elite of what an author should be, but on the other hand, the brain-dead webnovels that get contracted? I'm confident in mine.
They just use AI or write whatever nonsense comes to mind and then throw in a plot twist out of nowhere, not to mention how empty a story with a predetermined ending is. You know the ending; it's always predetermined, of course—that's not the problem. The problem is reading the beginning, middle, and end and seeing that the protagonist has no merit whatsoever in the absurd things they've done.
Man, to tell you the truth, I hate the concept of destiny. It's so disgusting, just like the idea that you're born with some purpose. It makes no sense.
I'm not an atheist, a conspiracy theorist, a religious person, a nihilist, or anything like that. Yes, I like some ideas from each of those, but overall I don't support them because I see it as something like fear or outsourcing one's own actions instead of taking responsibility for one's own life. I'm not going to say I don't do things like that from time to time—I'm far too flawed, and my hypocrisy isn't moral; I don't consider myself morally superior to others. While I'm aware of the flaws in my ideologies and way of thinking, I'm learning to do this less. There's no way to immediately erase past ideologies or habits.
Anyway, in any case, "Irrelevant? Not a chance" is something I did to gain experience as an author—something I really need to write down my more solid ideas about, which I'm always working on planning, because it really is a big undertaking, especially the one I'm most eager to write but have zero practical experience with.
So that's it; I'll either continue this one or put it on hold and start writing another, one with a more immediate pace and progression—not because I'm rushing things, but because that's really how it is. And I have two options here: one with an Eldritch vibe, and the other is more of a metafiction—though, of course, this second one isn't exactly a fourth-wall break, nor does the protagonist have authorial powers or know they're in a narrative.
Maybe it's asking too much, or maybe not, but I'd like to hear the opinions of those of you who follow me. I know you've liked what I'm writing, but I only have two options: get a normal job—something I have no problem with—or write something on a contract. I'd really like to be able to do it without a contract, but unfortunately, that's not an option.