# Null Distance — Chapter 2
## Recalibration
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The walkway moved.
Not structurally. The iron held. It was me — I'd shifted my weight forward without accounting for the distribution and the correction had overcorrected, and for approximately one second I'd had a close, personal relationship with the railing that I hadn't planned on having.
I let go.
Stood still.
Tried again.
The center of gravity was lower than my body kept insisting it should be. Four centimeters, maybe five. Enough that every adjustment I made was calibrated for a reference point that no longer existed. Like reaching for a glass in the dark and finding it six inches left of where you'd left it. Except the glass was my own spine and I couldn't put it back.
Twenty minutes on this walkway. Still fighting it.
The wind off the bay came in sideways and caught my hair — all of it, the full weight of it — sweeping it across my left shoulder and into my face. I pulled it back with one hand. It fell forward again. I gathered it at the back of my neck with both hands, which freed neither hand, solved nothing, and left me standing on a corroded maintenance platform over the Brockton Bay docks holding my own hair like I was losing an argument with it.
I found the hair tie in my jacket pocket and put it up properly.
Better. Marginally.
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Below, the docks moved on their own schedule.
I tracked it without trying — distances, patterns, the grain of how things moved down there. A cargo hauler making its slow way along the eastern vehicle lane. Three workers on the pier moving with the economy of people whose bodies had memorized the job. A fourth man near the far warehouse entrance, stationary — either a supervisor or someone waiting for something that hadn't arrived yet.
The city beyond spread north in rough bands. Industrial margin, then low residential, then the denser commercial middle where the buildings got closer together and the foot traffic thickened. Two days building this map had given me the shape of things without the texture.
The texture was ground-level. I was still up here.
A gust hit the walkway and the whole structure shivered — a deep vibration that moved through the iron and up through my feet and registered somewhere in my lower awareness as: *this was not built for long-term confidence.* The rivets on the near railing had the reddish bloom of rust that had been progressing uninterrupted for some time.
I shifted my weight. Testing.
Forward, slow. Then back. Then forward, slightly less.
The lower center of gravity wasn't wrong. My calibration for it was wrong. Different framing. The body knew what it was doing — it had its own architecture and its own logic — and the faster I stopped treating it like a malfunction the faster it would stop behaving like one.
Probably.
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The thought arrived without announcement.
Not a thought, exactly. More like a direction — a sudden sense that the walkway extended in an axis that had no name, that the water below was also somehow behind me, that two orientations were simultaneously true and equally—
Gone.
The docks. Morning light. The iron railing cold under my hand.
I breathed.
These happened. Less than before, maybe, or maybe I'd just gotten faster at returning from them. The geometry compressed back down to its correct number of dimensions and left nothing behind except a faint residue of wrongness, like a word that stops looking like a word. You stare long enough, the letters rearrange themselves. Then they go back.
I'd started treating them as weather.
You don't stop rain by thinking carefully at the sky.
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I looked out at the city.
To the northwest, the residential blocks sat heavy under flat cloud. Building density, streetlight spacing, one light out long enough that nobody had scheduled a repair. Further north: a bus moving slowly along the main road, a delivery truck double-parked on the second block. Foot traffic with the particular rhythm of a Tuesday morning in a city where most people had somewhere to be and not quite enough time to get there comfortably.
Closer: the docks, the waterfront margin, the narrow street between the warehouse row and the pedestrian path. A woman walking a dog with the focused efficiency of someone fitting it in before work. A group of teenagers moving south with the untargeted energy of people who weren't going anywhere specific and hadn't decided that was a problem yet.
Normal. All of it normal. And I was still up here cataloguing it instead of being inside it.
Observation from elevation built a map. It did not build knowledge. The texture of a place — how it actually operated, where the edges were, what the informal rules were and who enforced them and how hard — that only existed inside the thing, not above it. The map was the frame. The ground was the content.
I checked my weight one more time. Forward, testing. The correction came naturally — the lower center handled rather than fought.
*There.*
I found the ladder.
The iron was cold and the first rung flexed slightly when I put my weight on it, and the whole descent had the quality of something I was doing on structural faith rather than engineering certainty, but it held — rung by rung — until my feet found the concrete apron and the ladder was behind me and the city was ahead.
I started walking.
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The concrete apron between the warehouses was private in the functional sense — no foot traffic, no sightlines from the street. I stopped in it and took stock.
Right jacket pocket. Hair tie. Already deployed.
Left jacket pocket. Nothing.
Front left. Nothing.
Front right.
I pulled out the money and counted it in my palm. A five, two singles, a third single folded into quarters and apparently sat that way long enough to retain strong opinions about its shape. The coins I counted twice because somewhere around thirty-five cents I lost track and had to start over.
Eleven dollars and forty cents.
*Seed funding,* some optimistic part of my brain suggested.
The rest of my brain declined to engage with this framing.
Eleven forty was the amount you found in a jacket you hadn't worn since last winter. It was not, by any reasonable metric, a resource base for a person attempting to establish functional existence in a mid-sized American city. It was closer to a rounding error on a resource base.
It was, however, what I had. So.
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The five had come first.
Twelve hours after arrival. Still learning what my legs were doing. Moving north along the waterfront fence line in the early morning, trying to look like someone with a destination rather than someone who had woken up in an alley with no memory of acquiring the alley.
The fence was chain-link, eight feet, industrial. I was looking at it the way I'd been looking at everything — with the particular quality of attention that had arrived with the body, a spatial awareness so fine-grained it turned the world into a continuous stream of small irregularities requiring constant passive processing. Distances. Angles. Deviations from expected geometry.
The bill was caught at knee height, folded once against the wire, held by the wind.
I'd taken it, because the alternative was leaving it there, and whoever had lost it had clearly made their peace with the loss.
A five-dollar bill. The universe, apparently, charging an arrival fee.
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The coins had come more slowly and with less dignity.
The Six Eyes — the name the template memory used for whatever my perception was doing, and I'd defaulted to it for want of better vocabulary — didn't distinguish between important spatial information and unimportant spatial information. Everything that deviated from expected geometry got flagged. What this meant practically was forty-eight hours of continuous low-level notification about every crack in the pavement, every irregularity in the gutter line, every small disruption in the visual field of a city with a truly remarkable number of small disruptions.
Most of it was debris. Some of it was coins.
A quarter in a pavement crack near the commercial margin. Two dimes against a drain channel — I'd crouched and worked them out with one finger while a man walking past gave me the look reserved for people doing inexplicable things in public. I'd let him wonder. Three pennies under a bench, oxidized against the concrete, identified before I'd gotten close enough to confirm visually. A nickel in a gap between drainage mat sections outside a loading bay.
More quarters. Several pennies I hadn't bothered with — the cost-benefit analysis hadn't favored me, which had felt like a meaningful distinction at the time and now, looking at eleven forty in my palm, seemed marginally delusional.
The three bills under the bench had been the best single find. Not dropped recently — the top one had started to mildew at the corner. I'd taken them without ceremony. Whatever moral framework applied to money abandoned under a bench in the rain, I was comfortable occupying it.
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I put the money back in my pocket.
Back pockets: empty. The stitching on the right one was pulling at the corner seam. I pressed it with my thumb.
It kept pulling.
Fine.
No phone. No ID. No address, no documented history, no way to access any system that required being a person on paper — which was most systems. In the informal economy there were options, but options in the informal economy left patterns, and patterns were—
A sound from the far end of the apron. Something in the warehouse wall settling, a low metallic complaint from the upper structure.
I looked at it. Then back at my situation, which hadn't improved during the interruption.
$11.40. No shelter identified for tonight. Clothes I'd arrived in. A blindfold doing its job but generating social friction I needed to think about more carefully. A hair tie.
The hair tie was, in the strictest accounting, the most reliable thing I owned.
I started walking toward the street end of the apron, where the warehouse row gave way to the grid and the ambient sound of the city shifted and thickened.
$11.40.
*At the rate I'm finding it, I could afford a bus ticket somewhere in approximately three weeks.*
Then: *don't spend it on a bus ticket.*
The street grid opened up ahead. I walked into it.
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The first thing the street told you was that it had been built for more people than were currently using it.
Wide sidewalks. Road lanes broad enough for freight that mostly didn't come anymore. The buildings were solid — brick-faced, three stories, built in an era that expected them to still be standing in a hundred years, which they were, just repurposed. Ground-floor retail turned over enough times to reach its current stable state: businesses that didn't need foot traffic, only proximity to people who needed specific services and didn't have better options.
Check-cashing on the corner. Three people in line at nine in the morning. The rate card was laminated so many times the original ink had blurred.
I didn't go in. I kept moving.
The pawn shop was two doors down, larger than it needed to be, security camera angled to cover the sidewalk as well as the door. Dense window display — instruments, tools, jewelry, electronics in various states of modernity. A hand-lettered sign in the corner of the glass: *WE BUY GOLD. WE BUY TOOLS. WE BUY MOST THINGS.*
Filed it.
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The laundromat was mid-block, running at capacity despite the hour. Four people waiting with the patient emptiness of laundromat waiting. Two dryers out of order, tape yellowed. One remaining dryer making a sound that suggested it was considering joining them.
I was three paces past the door when I felt it.
Not heard. Felt — the particular quality of attention registering as a shift in the social geometry of the street. Most attention was ambient. This was different. Held.
I didn't turn around.
I placed it after a moment: one of the people inside, watching me through the window with the focused quality of someone briefly distracted from waiting by something that didn't fit.
I was already half a block away.
Filed it.
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The graffiti started seriously at the intersection.
East-facing wall of the corner building: stylized marks, maintained — territorial notation that got refreshed rather than left to weather. Not art. Infrastructure. *This block is accounted for. This block is known.*
At the lower edge, overlapping: something rougher. Less interested in legibility than presence. A different logic filling in the margins the way water found the low points of a floor.
Beneath both, under two coats of grey paint: something older. A third language, pre-existing, not gone — just buried.
I kept walking.
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The woman on the rowhouse steps was late forties, coffee in hand, watching the street with the comfortable posture of someone who'd been watching this particular block for years.
The attention arrived — hair, face, blindfold, pause — and then she shifted her weight on the step. A small postural adjustment, like resettling something knocked slightly out of place.
I was past her before I could identify the sound she made to the person inside. Not words. The shape of a sentence with the content left out — the register of *something I want you to know I noticed.*
That was four.
I counted without deciding to. The laundromat woman. A man outside the corner store who'd straightened as I passed, the movement going in the wrong direction to be coincidence. A teenage girl who'd stopped mid-word and resumed a beat later. Now this.
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I stopped at the next intersection on the pretext of reading the cross street sign, which I didn't need to read.
The blindfold was doing what it was supposed to do. The problem was that what it was supposed to do — filter the input, make the street manageable — was not what the street was reading it as doing. A blindfolded person navigating normally hit a category problem. The explanation sorted into two files: medical condition, or something else.
The movement pattern contradicted the first file.
Which left the second.
The second file, in this city, had a specific texture. Not *unusual person* — unusual people were ambient in cities. Something more precise. The kind that made a woman shift her weight on her steps and speak to the person inside in a tone that didn't need words.
A police siren ran somewhere in the middle distance — two pulses, stopped — and a car idling at the curb pulled out without signaling.
I crossed the street.
The sunglasses at the pharmacy rack had been twelve dollars. Two sixty more than I had available for non-food expenditure. I couldn't change the math by calculating it more carefully.
But I could move faster.
I walked north, let the distance accumulate behind me, counted three more people who found me worth looking at, and did not look back at any of them.
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The alterations shop had been closed since at least yesterday. *CLOSED — BACK AT 11* in the door, handwriting suggesting 11 was a suggestion rather than a commitment. The window was old, slightly warped — the kind of glass that made straight lines argue with themselves.
It didn't distort enough to explain what I was looking at.
I stopped.
Tall. That part I'd known in the abstract, the way you knew a fact without having seen it demonstrated. But knowing your height and seeing the full visual effect of it — posture, proportion, the specific way a jacket fell across certain shoulders — were different categories of knowing.
Pale. Sharp-featured. White hair gathered at the back of the neck, which had seemed purely functional when I'd done it and now read as deliberate.
The blindfold was black cloth, wrapped smooth. It should have been the most immediately striking thing in the composition.
It was not the most immediately striking thing in the composition.
I looked at the full picture for probably four seconds longer than was normal behavior — which was already the kind of thing people noticed — and filed it.
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Half a block later, the man came out of the corner store.
Late fifties, work jacket, small paper bag. He pushed the door open, stepped out, and stopped — I was directly in his path and he hadn't registered me until stopping was the only reasonable option.
Hair, face, blindfold. Pause at the blindfold.
"You blind?"
Flat. Not unkind. The question of someone who'd decided the most efficient response to a confusing situation was to address the confusing part directly.
I considered the accurate answer, which was complicated, and the functional answer, which needed to be fast.
"Light sensitivity," I said.
He looked at me for a moment — the expression of someone whose question had technically been answered and who was nonetheless aware that something remained unresolved.
"Huh." He stepped around me and kept walking.
*Light sensitivity.* Workable in isolation. The problem was internal consistency — it implied avoiding direct exposure, and it was a flat grey morning in early autumn with the sun not currently an operative factor in anyone's day. The story held for a single interaction. It would not hold for pattern recognition.
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The full picture, as the reflection had provided it: tall, pale, white-haired, moving through a declining post-industrial neighborhood with the confident spatial awareness of someone who could see perfectly well, face half-obscured by a blindfold that explained nothing and raised one very specific question.
In a different context this would read as an eccentricity.
In this context — in this city, where *person with unusual capabilities and deliberate visual presentation* was not theoretical, not rare, and had its own institutional response infrastructure — it read as something more specific.
A glass broke somewhere behind me. A woman outside the laundromat, a broken bottle at her feet, already waving off concern from someone in the doorway. Nothing. I turned back.
*Cape, unaffiliated, unknown classification* — that was the file. That was where the pattern-matching landed for anyone who thought about it long enough, and Brockton Bay was a city with reasons to think about things. The woman on the steps. The laundromat watcher. The quiet exchange of someone who'd noticed something they wanted noted.
The blindfold was the part that crossed from *unusual person* into *person whose unusual quality requires explanation.* Not the hair. Not the height. The blindfold.
Sunglasses.
The thought arrived with the clean simplicity of an obvious solution presenting itself approximately two hours after it would have been useful.
Sunglasses changed the read entirely. Not *concealing something* — just *preference, sensitivity, personal aesthetic.* The overall composition shifted from *deliberately obscured* to *somewhat odd,* and somewhat odd was a category cities absorbed without incident every day.
The pharmacy rack had said twelve dollars. I had nine sixty-five, pending coffee I hadn't bought yet.
Convenience stores sometimes had the three-dollar kind. Acetate frames, lenses slightly off-center. Function over form. Form was not the variable I was optimizing for.
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Two teenagers passed from the other direction.
Sharp exhale of a suppressed laugh. Subsequent shushing.
It was directed at me.
Fine.
I crossed with the light, thinking about three-dollar sunglasses and the arithmetic problem of needing something before having the money to get it, and whether the city had anything to say about that.
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The diner occupied a corner unit four blocks into the commercial district and looked like it had been making the same decisions about itself for thirty years. Formica counter. Six booths along the window wall. A chalkboard menu with a spelling error in BREAKFAST SPECIALS that had been there long enough to become part of the decor. Coffee that had been on the burner since significantly before I'd arrived in this city, possibly before I'd arrived in this body.
I went in.
Corner booth. Sightlines to the entrance and the street window. The television mounted above the register, angled toward the room at the elevation of something installed to fill silence rather than to be watched. I sat down and waited.
Thirty seconds later: a local news segment. *WBBX, BROCKTON BAY'S CHANNEL 7* in the lower corner, and below it, the date.
I read the date.
Sat with it.
*PRT DIRECTOR REAFFIRMS CAPE REGISTRATION PROGRAM — STATEMENT IN FULL AT NOON.*
The footage cut to street-level. A figure in a blue and white costume moving across a rooftop against flat grey sky. The anchor's voice continued over it. *FILE FOOTAGE — WARDS UNIT, NO INCIDENTS.*
File footage. Not breaking news. Not unusual enough to require a different tone.
The math closed.
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"You want something or are you just here for the TV?"
I looked up.
The waitress was early twenties, dark hair pulled back with the efficiency of someone who'd long since stopped caring what the pullback looked like. Coffee pot, expression of someone who'd formed a preliminary opinion and was waiting to see if I'd confirm it.
"Coffee. Please."
She turned the mug over and poured without looking at it. Good pour.
"That it?"
"For now."
She took the whole picture at once and left without comment.
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I drank the coffee slowly and watched the news.
The cape segment ran four minutes. Interview outside the PRT building, spokesperson reading prepared language about community coordination and registration compliance. The anchor moved to a city council segment without pause — same register for cape infrastructure as for drainage budgets. Both important. Neither remarkable.
The waitress came back when the mug was two-thirds empty.
"More?"
"Please."
She poured. Didn't leave.
"The blindfold." Not a question. Identifying a topic rather than opening a debate.
"Light sensitivity," I said.
"Uh huh." Then: "We get a lot of capes in here."
I looked at her.
"Not saying you are." The quality of someone who was saying exactly that. "Just saying we get them. So I don't really—" a small gesture meaning *care, either way.* "Not my business."
"It's not a cape thing," I said.
"Okay."
She refilled the mug and still didn't leave.
"Thing is," she said, "you're going to get people asking. The blindfold—" a pause. "It reads a certain way. Especially around here."
"I know," I said.
"Okay." She set the coffee pot on the table. "Elena."
"Aoi."
She repeated it back without asking how to spell it. "You new to the city?"
"Recently."
"Thought so." No satisfaction in it. "You've got the look."
"What look."
"Like you're memorizing everything. Most people zone out. You don't."
I didn't have a good answer for that, so I didn't give one.
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She came back a third time during a human interest segment about a school fundraiser, a small cardboard box flattened at one corner in her other hand.
She set it on the table.
"Someone left these three weeks ago. Nobody came back." A pause. "Given the light sensitivity thing."
Drugstore sunglasses — oversized frames, one lens with a shallow scratch across the lower peripheral edge. The kind that came three to a pack and were marketed entirely on being inexpensive.
"How much," I said.
She gave me the look of someone who had watched me miss the point. "They were left here."
"Right," I said.
"So." She tapped the box once and walked away.
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I picked them up.
The scratch sat below the functional line of sight. The frames were large enough to cover what needed covering. They were, by any objective standard, ugly — the kind of glasses that knew they were a backup plan and had made their peace with it.
I put them on.
The diner went slightly amber on the left side. The street through the window looked the same as before, just quieter somehow, the way things looked quieter when they stopped feeling like problems.
Elena was two booths down, taking an order from a man who hadn't looked up from his phone.
I thought about the word *cape* in that particular tone — not hostile, not impressed, just noting a category. The way you'd say *plumber* or *tourist.* The city had been doing this long enough that even the waitresses had a protocol for it.
Useful to know.
I drank the rest of the coffee and watched the street through the scratched left lens of a pair of sunglasses someone had left in a diner booth three weeks ago, and thought about the fact that this was the first thing I'd acquired in this city that hadn't come from a crack in the pavement.
The bar was low.
It was still progress.
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# Null Distance — Chapter 2, Scene 6
## Baseline Strategy
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I ordered a third coffee and did the math.
$9.65 minus $1.75 left $7.90. The sunglasses had been free, which meant the arithmetic I'd been running all morning had resolved itself sideways rather than through any planning on my part. $7.90 could cover one real meal and one that was optimistic about the definition of the word, or two meals that were honest with themselves about what they were.
No shelter identified for tonight.
Three problems in order: food was today, money was ongoing, shelter was tonight — technically second, but feeling like first because the other two had partial solutions and this one currently had none.
The diner ran its midmorning operations around me. The couple in the far booth had been replaced by two older men sharing a newspaper the way that meant they'd been doing it for years — sports section, everything else, division apparently non-negotiable. A woman at the counter was on her second cup and her phone and neither was holding her full attention.
Elena came by with the pot.
"Still thinking hard?"
"Finishing a thought."
She refilled without asking. "You eat yet?"
"Coffee counts."
"Doesn't, actually." She set the pot on the table. "We've got eggs. Toast. Oatmeal's fine if you like oatmeal."
"How much is the toast."
She told me. It was possible.
"Toast," I said.
She wrote it down and left.
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The food problem was the simplest — immediate solution, even if unsatisfying. After today the number became a different kind of problem.
The money problem required choosing a method, and choosing meant committing to consequences I hadn't fully mapped. The informal economy was the obvious path. Things a person could do inside it requiring no identification, no history, no documentation of any kind. Some of them were fine. Some left patterns that attracted attention. I needed to think more carefully about which was which.
A plate appeared in front of me.
Toast, as ordered. Elena set it down with butter and jam without being asked, and two scrambled eggs I had not ordered.
I looked at her.
"That's the toast." She pointed at it. "The eggs are separate."
"I didn't—"
"We had extra. Don't make it a thing."
She walked away before I could respond, which seemed intentional.
I ate the eggs.
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Shelter was the problem I kept returning to.
Two nights solved through spatial awareness and vacancy rates — the city had empty buildings and I had a precise understanding of which structural elements constituted adequate barriers against weather and observation. Functional. Not a long-term solution, for practical reasons and for a harder-to-articulate one involving the difference between surviving a situation and operating inside one.
The room on Dalton Street.
The thought arrived connected to nothing, which meant it had been sitting in a background process waiting to be noticed. Elena had mentioned a corkboard.
I looked toward the register.
Layered papers — cards, flyers, handwritten notes going back several years, older ones visible only at the edges. A rental listing near the top on an index card: *Room, Dalton St, $40/wk, utilities included, quiet building, call—* and a number.
$40 a week.
I didn't have $40. I had $7.90 minus toast and eggs minus the third coffee. But $40 a week existed within the range of solvable rather than theoretical, which was different from the range I'd been operating in.
Elena came by to clear the plate.
"The corkboard," I said.
"Yeah?"
"The room on Dalton Street. How long has that been up?"
"Week, maybe. Week and a half." She stacked the plate on her arm. "Guy's fine. Doesn't ask a lot of questions. Some people from the neighborhood have stayed there." A pause. "If the questions thing matters."
It mattered.
"Thank you," I said.
She shrugged and moved to the next table.
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I finished the coffee and looked at the street.
The morning had gotten further into itself. Foot traffic thickened to the density of a city block when people were moving with somewhere to be. A delivery truck double-parked across the street was getting a horn from the car behind it — unhurried, more informational than angry.
I put the money on the table — two dollars exact, then a quarter, because Elena had given me eggs I hadn't paid for and the arithmetic felt wrong without it.
The sunglasses went on before I stood up. Slightly crooked frames. Amber cast on the left side.
Workable.
I pulled my jacket straight, tested my weight distribution — better today than yesterday, the body's geometry becoming something I worked with rather than against — and walked to the door.
The bell announced my exit.
Dalton Street was four blocks north and one east. Forty dollars a week was a problem with a shape now, which was different from a problem without one. You could work around a shape. Find the edges. Apply pressure at the right points.
I turned north and thought about edges.
The city moved around me, indifferent and continuous, doing what it had been doing long before I arrived and would keep doing regardless of whether I figured out how to exist inside it.
I was going to figure out how to exist inside it.
The toast had helped.