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Chapter 34 - Chapter Thirty-Four:THE CONVERSATION

Lily came home from school one day with questions.

Not the usual ones—homework, dinner, can I have a snack. Different questions. Heavy questions.

"Mama, can I talk to you?"

I looked up from my laptop. She was nine now, tall for her age, serious in a way that reminded me of myself.

"Of course, baby. What's up?"

She climbed onto the couch beside me, tucked her feet under her. "We learned about families today. Different kinds of families."

"Okay."

"Some kids have two moms. Some have two dads. Some have just one parent." She paused. "Some are adopted."

I waited.

"Tommy in my class is adopted. He said he doesn't know his birth parents. He said it makes him sad sometimes."

"That must be hard for him."

"Yeah." She was quiet for a moment. "Mama, am I adopted?"

The question landed like a stone.

"No, baby. You're not adopted. You grew in my belly. I carried you for nine months and then you came out and we took you home."

"Oh." She processed this. "But Marcus is adopted, right?"

"Yes. Marcus is adopted."

"And Hope?"

"Hope grew in my belly too. Like you."

She nodded slowly. "So Marcus is different."

My heart clenched.

"He's not different, Lily. He's your brother. The same as Hope is your sister. The only difference is how he came to our family."

"But he didn't grow in your belly."

"No. He grew in someone else's belly. And then, when he was eight months old, he came to live with us forever."

"Does he miss her? The other mom?"

"I don't know, baby. Sometimes maybe. It's complicated."

Lily was quiet for a long time. Then: "Can I ask him?"

"That's a question for Marcus. If he wants to talk about it, he will. If he doesn't, you have to respect that."

"Okay." She nodded seriously. "I'll be gentle."

"I know you will."

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That night, I found Marcus in his room.

He was seven now, building something complicated with Legos, tongue sticking out in concentration.

"Hey, buddy."

"Hey, Mama."

"Can I sit with you for a minute?"

"Sure."

I sat on the floor beside him, watched him work. "Lily asked me some questions today. About adoption."

He didn't look up. "Okay."

"She wanted to know if you miss your birth mom."

His hands stopped moving.

"You don't have to answer. I just wanted you to know she might ask. And you can tell her anything—or nothing. It's your story."

He was quiet for a long moment. Then: "I don't remember her."

"Okay."

"She was sad. The social worker said. She couldn't take care of me." He picked up another Lego. "I don't miss her. I don't know her."

"That's okay."

"But I think about her sometimes."

"What do you think?"

He shrugged. "If she's okay. If she's happy." He looked at me. "Do you think she's happy?"

"I hope so. I hope she found peace."

He nodded. Went back to his Legos.

I sat with him for a while, not talking, just being there. After a few minutes, he leaned against me.

"I'm glad you're my mama."

I kissed his head. "I'm glad you're my son."

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The conversation between Lily and Marcus happened two days later.

I wasn't there—didn't want to be. But Lily found me afterward, eyes wide.

"We talked."

"How did it go?"

"Good, I think." She climbed onto my lap—still small enough to fit, though not for much longer. "He said he doesn't remember his birth mom. He said he thinks about her sometimes but he's glad he's here."

"That's what he told me too."

"I told him I'm glad he's here too." She leaned against me. "Mama?"

"Yes, baby?"

"Does it matter? How someone comes to a family?"

"No. It really doesn't."

"Good." She nodded. "Because Marcus is my brother. However he got here."

I held her tight. "Yes, he is."

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I told Declan that night.

He listened quietly, his face unreadable. When I finished, he was quiet for a long moment.

"They're going to be okay," he finally said.

"They are."

"All of them. Lily. Marcus. Hope." He pulled me close. "Because they have us. Because we'll always be here."

"Always."

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The next weekend, Marcus asked to visit the adoption agency.

Not for anything specific. Just to see it. To understand.

Declan took him. I stayed home with the girls, trying not to worry.

They were gone for two hours. When they came back, Marcus was quiet but calm.

"How was it?" I asked.

"Good." He climbed onto the couch. "Daddy showed me the room where they first brought me. The place where he held me for the first time."

Declan's eyes were wet.

"Did it help?"

Marcus nodded. "I came from somewhere. I started somewhere. But this is home."

I pulled him into a hug. "Yes, baby. This is home."

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