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She was on her bed, as always, her eyes open, but today she was filled with complete vigor and determination. She rose quickly from her bed and prepared herself, she stood before the mirror. Her eyes sparkled with the clear light of passion and hope..
Inaya: "Alright, I have made up my mind, If I want to leave this world, I must first understand It more deeply. I still know very little about this fake reality."
And with that she set off on her journey, one where she would have to begin everything from scratch. Firstly, she examined the area around her, going house by house, inspecting the tiniest little details. What had seemed easy at first proved far from it. No one realizes how lonely a person can feel until they are truly alone. The courage within her begins to break when the truth hits. She really was alone.
She observed those houses. The silence, the solitude. No one else was present, yet it all felt as though the homes had just been abandoned. She noticed every pattern, every design, somehow these designs were connected to each other.
Inaya: "In this world, everything seems to connect with everything in some way. These patterns on the walls... they are strange. The more you look at them, the more they give you an odd feeling. These patterns feel familiar, as if I have seen them before. In fact, everything looks strangely familiar.
There is not much detailing in these houses. But I don't know why, i know this all is hence, only a dream, yet I still feel the presence of someone's body. As If this world exists within a human body, and sometimes I can even hear the beating of its heart.
Sometimes I feel that l am not alone here. There is someone else... Someone who is alive in this place and is calling me for help, pulling me toward them. Do I have two hearts? Two minds? I know that I am inside myself.... but if I am inside myself, then who is the one inside me?" If I am truly inside myself, then I must be within myself.... meaning I have to find myself within myself. I have to discover my own identity.
Can I do this? If I want to get out of all this, then this is something I have to do. But where should I begin?
Gradually, my path is opening... or maybe someone else is opening it for me. First, I have to examine those things.
With that thought, she drew her knife and made a cut on her tongue, yet felt no pain.
Inaya: "These little things cannot harm me. I must understand this. Alright... first, I need to end this illusion that keeps reminding me over and over that all of this is real."
As she was thinking this, Sunlight streamed through her window and fell on a small section of the floor. On that exact spot, the same pattern she had seen in those houses appeared.
She quickly grabbed a piece of paper and began to draw the pattern. As she completed it and studied it carefully, her eyes widened in surprise.
It was not just a pattern... there was something more behind it. She analyzed the design, and eventually, letters began to unpuzzle, forming the word
"ππ¬πππ©π"
She thought in surprise "This... this is it. But why? what could it mean?"
The word "escape"
Brought a single thought to her mind. A door. A door is what allows us to escape.
Immediately, she looked around herself.
she looks at the door that was in the room. She slowly makes her way towards it and puts her hand on the door.
inaya: ''Okay so, i know this is an illusion and none of it is real. But my body doesn't accept that, i need to cool myself down and make it believe its not real.'' with that, she closed her eyes and ran towards the door and easily makes her way through it. she slowly opens her eyes ''oh...i did it?''
"Okay so, I'm in and this room is quite empty"
she said as she noticed something
"But what's that written on the walls?" saying that, one part of the room lightens up and she follows it. Uncovering a black crystal in which she saw...herself? "Wait that's me but, why am i stuck in a crystal, i can hear the heartbeat through it..."
Inaya: "What is happening now why am i inside and outside the crystal at the same time but how is this even possible."
She contemplated for a while until a thought struck her mind
"Right, it's all a dream. Anything can happen."
She roams her eyes around and reads what's written on the walls. Those walls were filled with every story that she encountered, every pain, every joy that she carried within herself.
"These are all my memories... Does that mean, I'm stuck through my own memories in a crystal?"
She stared intently at the crystal, writing down everything that happened to her in her diary. Then, suddenly, the word "escape" came to her mind. "So, I don't feel pain in a dream, and as it happened to me before, when I feel scared, my eyes suddenly open, but even then I still find myself inside my dream. This little fear won't do me any good. I will have to deepen my fear; I will have to reach the depths of it. Where I can do everything right and find peace" Is it loneliness? No, i quite like to be alone, I can enjoy my own company in a better way. The dark? No, the darkness that I used to be afraid of in childhood, now I find solace in the same darkness. Death? Yes, it may be so because I still want to live, it is obvious, who would want to die at my age.
"i think i understood at least this much, I have to take my own life inside my dream. It's obvious that after all, a person is his own source of destruction and comfort, but how will I do this. How can anything worse happen than this?
Then a sound comes from behind her, of a door opening, she herself is drawn towards the sound. When she reaches that door, she realises it's leading to the roof of a building, the view from there was stunning.
Inaya: "Did I succeed? Yes, what did I lose? Everything. In the end, I was left alone. There's no doubt that after enjoying so much of my life, I will have to pay its price too."
She kept walking her steps until she reached the edge of the building. Now if she had just stepped a bit more further, her story would have ended. Her tears of grief had dried up. Now she was just staring at the view in the open sky, waiting for her death. She wanted to express one last wish. She knew that she had no one there, no one would listen to her, but still she wanted to let those words out of her mouth.
Inaya: "And my last wish is that when i fall, I actually fall and die. Even if I come out of this dream, how long will I live in life, when I know i have to die one day, why not just end it now."
She writes in her diary, "And i hope my heart stops. I am lost in this world. Whose world does this belong to? A soul wanders around me like some unknown entity. Even after all this happiness, everyone's sorrows have become my sorrows. But who shares my sorrow? Sorrow is much more effective than happiness. I wish I truly end myself."
Then she takes a step further and falls down from that building but before she died, there was a different smile on her face, a smile that she had never discovered ever before, she smiled from her heart for the first time. Then finally her eyes never opened, her existence vanished from the entire world, nothing remained, who knows whether she did the right thing or not. She fell into a coma as she had taken so much emotional stress and her brain got badly damaged from the inside and she died. In the last moments of her life she had no one except herself, no one with whom she could talk to. She fulfilled her own wish.
"People spend their entire lives chasing happiness, but they can't always have it because the strange truth of life is that no matter how long your story is, its final outcome always leaves you alone."