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Chapter 20 - Chapter 20- I Know What This Is

The café felt too small.

Too loud.

Too suffocating.

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Ethan stood there, frozen.

Lia's words still echoing in his head.

"That's not enough, Ethan."

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And she was right.

He knew she was right.

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Because what he had been giving her—

Half answers.

Half feelings.

Half truth—

It wasn't fair.

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Not to her.

Not to himself.

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Lia grabbed her bag slowly.

"I should go," she said softly.

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Ethan's heart dropped.

No.

Not again.

Not like this.

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"Wait."

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His voice came out sharper than he expected.

More desperate than he wanted.

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Lia paused.

But she didn't turn around immediately.

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"Please," he added, quieter now.

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That made her stop completely.

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Daniel looked between them, then stood up slowly.

"I'll give you guys a minute."

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Ethan didn't even acknowledge him.

Didn't look at him.

Didn't care.

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Because right now—

There was only Lia.

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Daniel walked away, leaving them standing there.

Alone.

Again.

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Lia turned slowly.

Her eyes met Ethan's.

Guarded.

Tired.

But still…

There.

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"You said it's not enough," Ethan started.

His voice wasn't steady.

But it was real.

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She didn't respond.

Just waited.

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He took a step closer.

Then another.

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"I know," he said.

"I know it's not enough."

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Her brows furrowed slightly.

Because this…

This was different.

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No deflection.

No running.

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Just him.

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"I've been saying 'I don't know' because it was easier," he continued.

"Easier than admitting that I do know."

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Lia's heart started beating faster.

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Ethan let out a slow breath, running a hand through his hair.

"I've been trying to convince myself that this doesn't mean anything."

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A pause.

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"But it does."

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The words landed.

Heavy.

Certain.

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Lia's fingers tightened slightly around her bag.

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Ethan stepped closer again.

Close enough now that the distance between them felt thin.

Fragile.

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"I know what this is," he said quietly.

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Her breath caught.

"…what is it?"

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He looked at her.

Really looked at her.

No fear.

No walls.

No hiding.

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"It's you."

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Silence.

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Confusion flickered across her face.

"…what?"

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Ethan swallowed.

Then said it properly.

Fully.

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"It's you," he repeated.

"It's always been you."

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Her heart stuttered.

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"I come to that stairwell because of you," he continued.

"I stayed because of you. I changed because of you."

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Each word felt like a piece of something breaking open inside him.

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"I didn't want to admit it," he said.

"Because I was scared."

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Lia's eyes softened slightly.

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"Not of you," he added quickly.

"Of…feeling like that again."

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The truth sat between them.

Clear now.

Undeniable.

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"But that doesn't change anything," he said.

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A pause.

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"It doesn't change the fact that I think about you all the time."

"It doesn't change the fact that I hate seeing you with someone else."

"It doesn't change the fact that when you stopped coming…"

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His voice dropped.

Lower.

Quieter.

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"…I missed you."

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Lia's breath hitched.

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"And not just the place," he added.

"Not just the routine."

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His gaze locked onto hers.

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"You."

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Silence fell again.

But this time—

It wasn't heavy.

It wasn't breaking.

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It was…shifting.

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"I didn't say anything before because I thought if I didn't name it… it wouldn't be real," Ethan admitted.

"But it is."

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Another step closer.

Now they were barely inches apart.

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"And I'm done pretending it's not."

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Lia stared at him.

Her emotions all over the place.

Shock.

Relief.

Fear.

Hope.

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"…Ethan," she whispered.

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"I like you."

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The words were simple.

But they carried everything.

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"I don't know how to do this," he added.

"I don't know how to be… normal about it."

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A small, almost self-aware laugh escaped him.

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"But I know I don't want to lose you."

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Her eyes softened completely now.

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"And I know I don't want you with him," he admitted.

Then quickly—

"…not because I get to control that."

A breath.

"…but because I want you with me."

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Silence.

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Lia's heart felt like it was going to burst.

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Because this—

This was everything she had been waiting for.

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But also everything that scared her.

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"You're late," she said softly.

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Ethan blinked. "…what?"

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"You're saying all of this now," she continued.

"After everything."

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"I know."

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"I gave you a chance," she said.

"I asked you what this was."

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Ethan nodded slowly. "…I remember."

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"And you said you couldn't."

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Her voice didn't break.

But it was close.

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Ethan swallowed.

"I know."

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Silence.

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"But I'm saying it now," he said.

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A pause.

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"Is that enough?"

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The question hung between them.

Fragile.

Terrifying.

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Lia looked at him for a long moment.

Really looked at him.

At the way he wasn't hiding anymore.

At the way his voice wasn't guarded.

At the way he finally looked…real.

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Then she took a small breath.

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"It's a start."

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Ethan's chest loosened slightly.

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But she didn't move closer.

Not yet.

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"Don't make me regret it," she added softly.

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"I won't," he said immediately.

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And for once—

He meant it without hesitation.

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They stood there.

Close.

Not touching.

But not distant anymore.

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Something had shifted.

Something real.

Something fragile.

Something new.

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And this time—

Neither of them walked away. 💕

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