They say the dead don't speak.
They're wrong.
They speak through the ones left behind  in the way a widow's hands shake just a little too rehearsed, in the way a grieving father's eyes go dry three seconds before they fill, in the way a weeping man's voice breaks on cue, like he's done it before.
Elena Voss hears everything.
She is the city's most beloved grief counselor. The woman you call when the darkness becomes too heavy to carry alone. She has held more broken people than she can count. She has witnessed grief in its most naked, most savage form.
She has also learned something the living don't know.
Most people don't grieve the ones they've lost.
They grieve getting caught.
Elena knows this because she listens. She has always listened. But lately  lately she has been doing more than listening.
She just can't remember what.
The hours disappear without warning. She wakes on the bathroom floor at 3am still dressed. She finds receipts in her coat pocket for places she has never been. She finds things in her apartment that shouldn't be there. Things she cannot explain. Things that frighten her in ways she refuses to name even to herself.
Last week, two of her clients died.
The police call it coincidence.
Detective James  calls it interesting.
He keeps coming back to Elena  not because he suspects her, but because no one knew these victims like she did. No one sat inside their darkest rooms. No one heard what they whispered in the dim quiet of her office when they thought confession was the same thing as safety.
Elena is trying to help him.
Elena is also terrified of what he might find.
Because something is happening to her that she cannot explain and cannot stop and cannot tell anyone not her colleagues, not her doctor, not the detective who keeps looking at her like she is both the answer and the question.
She is losing herself.
Piece by piece. Hour by hour. In the spaces between one breath and the next.
And somewhere underneath the losing underneath the fear and the exhaustion and the black holes where her memory should be  something else is rising.
Something patient.
Something certain.
Something that has been waiting a very long time to finish what it started.
There is a man who comes to Elena every Thursday at four o'clock. He weeps beautifully. He speaks of his dead wife with his voice low and his eyes half-closed, the way people do when they want you to believe their pain is too heavy for words.
Elena doesn't know why she can't stop thinking about him.
She doesn't know why her hands go cold every time he walks through her door.
She doesn't know why, three nights ago, she woke on her bathroom floor at 3am with his name written on the inside of her wrist.
She doesn't know a lot of things.
Something inside her knows all of them.

she was always four years old in her dreams. Elena knew it wasn't real somewhere at the back of her mind but it didn't matter because she always reached out for her.


The garden always look the same , the one behind the small house with the broken gate , the grass still had that dull yellow, uneven and stubborn look no matter how hard she tried to fix it back then.


Sophie was there sitting quietly with her back turned , wearing that red coat again ,Elena had bought it too big thinking her daughter would grow into it soon and she did but at that moment it was oversized because she was just her little baby here.


For a second, Sophie did not move ,then she slowly turned .Elena felt her chest tightening her heart beat so fast as though it was threatening to pop out of her chest.


Something was wrong, her face.....it wasn't scary,not like nightmare ,it was empty like her baby was looking at a stranger, no smile , no recognition, nothing at all, like Elena meant nothing to her.


That was when she noticed , in Sophie's hands she held so carefully a moth.


Elena  jerked up to the sound of her phone ringing so loud .


Chapter 6 - chapter 6: Sophie