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Chapter 20 - Inside the Wall

POV: Seren Adaeze 

 I don't pull my hand back.

Every instinct I have is telling me to pull it back, step away, put some distance between myself and whatever just pushed a human voice through solid stone. But my hand stays where it is, palm flat against the rock beside the crack, and the warmth coming through it is so steady and so specific that moving feels like hanging up on someone mid-sentence.

Lucian is completely still beside me.

He heard it. I can tell because he has stopped breathing in the deliberate way people stop breathing when they're afraid that any movement at all will end something. His hand is still on the wall too, a few inches from mine.

The light pulses.

Not dim and steady like before. It moves now, in and out, slow and rhythmic, and I understand without being told that this is the breathing sound I heard a moment before the voice came. Whatever is on the other side of this wall is breathing and the light breathes with it.

"Say something," I say. To Lucian.

He doesn't look at me. "Like what."

"Anything. She said your name. She knows you're here."

His jaw shifts. He looks at the crack, at the warm orange line of it, and I can see him fighting with something. Not disbelief. The opposite. He believes it completely and the believing is the hardest part because twelve years is a long time to carry a hope that had nowhere to go and now it has somewhere and the somewhere is terrifying.

"Mum," he says. His voice comes out wrong, too low, and he clears his throat and tries again. "I'm here."

The breathing sound gets louder.

I press my hand harder against the stone without thinking about it and the symbols on the wall around my palm light up gold, just the ones immediately surrounding my hand, and then it spreads outward from there, symbol by symbol, running along the wall in both directions like a line of lights coming on in sequence.

Lucian makes a sound beside me that he immediately contains.

The gold light meets the orange crack and the two colours hold each other for a moment and the warmth against my palm becomes heat, not burning, not painful, but real and present and impossible to misread.

I close my eyes.

The images come differently this time. Not the flood of them like this afternoon. Something more controlled, more directed. A woman's hands on stone from the inside. Dark and close, not frightening, just small. A sense of enormous patience, the kind that isn't resignation but choice. The feeling of waiting that has become its own kind of living.

Then her voice.

Clear. Calm. With an exhaustion underneath it that has nothing to do with sleep, the bone-deep kind that comes from holding something for longer than a person should have to hold anything.

"Lucian."

He exhales sharply beside me.

"You finally found her."

The warmth drops out all at once. The gold light runs backward, symbol by symbol, faster than it came, and then it's gone and the orange is gone and the crack in the wall is just a crack in a wall and the ruins are dark and cold and completely silent.

I stand with my hand on the stone and I can feel it under my palm now as exactly what it is. Old rock. Nothing else.

I lower my arm slowly.

Lucian hasn't moved. He's standing with his hand still raised against the wall, palm flat, and I watch him wait for something else to come and nothing does. The silence is total. Even the ground has stopped its low hum. The island has gone quiet in the way it goes quiet after something significant, like a room after an announcement nobody knows how to respond to yet.

He drops his hand.

He stands with his back to me for a moment and I don't say anything and I don't move toward him because he needs the moment and I know what it looks like when a person needs a moment and the kindest thing is to let it be a moment and not make it into something else.

Then he turns.

His face is not the careful nothing I've become used to. It's not the red-edged exhaustion I found him in either. It's something in between that I don't have a name for, open and unsteady and very direct, and he looks at me with it fully, doesn't try to arrange it into something more manageable before it reaches me.

I hold it. I don't look away.

"She spoke," he says.

"Yes."

"She spoke and the wall lit up and none of that happened before tonight." He says it slowly, not building to something, just making sure the facts are in order before he goes anywhere with them. "I have been coming here for a year. I have pressed my hand against that wall more times than I can count and there was nothing. Just stone." He looks at my hand, the one I pressed against the wall. "Then you touched it."

"Lucian."

"She said you finally found her." His voice is level but only just. "Twelve years. She's been in there for twelve years and in all that time the wall never made a single sound. Not once." He looks at me steadily. "Until you touched it."

I feel the weight of that settle onto me. I don't push it off. It lands and I let it land because pretending it didn't would be dishonest and he just stood in front of me with his whole face open and dishonesty feels like the worst possible response to that.

"I don't know what I am," I say. "I don't know what this means."

"I know."

"What she said. Finding her. I don't know what that means either."

"I know that too." He looks at the dark crack in the wall. "But she's been waiting twelve years for you to get here and now you're here and I think we just ran out of time to figure it out slowly."

The ground hums back to life beneath my feet. One pulse.

Then from somewhere deep in the interior of the island, in the direction of the footprints we didn't follow, there is a sound.

Not wind, Not the sea.

A knock. Three times deliberate

against stone from the inside.

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