Which side is reality?
The memories caused her pain, but they didn't scare her.
What she feared was whether a girl like Ichiko would also pretend to like her, just like her ex-girlfriend.
Whether she was just humoring the 'yandere' self, thus telling a lie called "liking."
"If even she doesn't want me anymore, then what reason does the me who transmigrated here have to live?"
The deeper the love, the deeper the pain.
Haruko didn't want to experience the pain of being abandoned like that again!
But just now, when she asked, Ichiko indeed hesitated.
Once the seed of doubt is sown, it's only a matter of time before it takes root and sprouts. An unstable mind is the catalyst for this seed.
Haruko forced herself not to think about those things. She was afraid to think about them.
Biting her tongue, Haruko said in a suppressed voice, "System, exchange a strong sedative for me!"
[70 points of emotional value have been deducted]
The needle pierced her skin. The black technology produced by the System made Haruko's face twist and twitch for a moment.
Her eyes gradually cleared, and reason regained the upper hand.
She leaned against the bed, panting heavily, "System, this isn't like you. Normally, you'd definitely say something."
[Apologies, Host. Your state is very strange. I was afraid speaking would affect you]
Haruko spread out her bloodless palm, her face stiff, "Tell me, am I a little abnormal, like the case in my dream?"
[Host, that was just a dream after all. You are you]
"If I sleep, will I feel better?"
Haruko developed a desire to escape. Strong unease surrounded her; she was scared.
She had been here for so long, yet she had never felt this kind of fear before.
She feared betrayal.
She feared that Ichiko would abandon her because of this.
She even felt fear towards her past actions of pretending to be a yandere.
"If... I mean, if..."
Haruko slowly began to question the System, "If I put pressure on Ichiko and she can't bear it, will she abandon me, not want me, and send me to a mental hospital?"
All her confidence stemmed from Ichiko's feelings for the original host, from Ichiko's 'White Moonlight' personality, which was so longed for and desired.
But in the original novel, didn't Ichiko also give up on the original host?
If she's just pretending to like me, then what's the point of everything I've done?
What cannot be possessed ultimately cannot be possessed.
[Host, I suggest you take a pill and get some sleep]
"I just woke up!"
Haruko covered her head again.
"Kai, did you hear that? There's a voice... a voice keeps talking."
"Possess her, possess her, possess her, possess her..."
"That voice is telling me to possess Ichiko..."
Murmuring the words, Haruko suddenly froze.
In the dream, didn't she also tell her past self to possess someone else?
"No need for Ichiko to like me, just possess her fully?"
This goal contradicted everything Haruko had been doing.
Dr. Kaito, Yuri, Shin, including Emi, who was recently sent to the girls' dormitory to work and get close to Ichiko—she controlled one person after another, constantly squeezing Ichiko's social circle.
She even went so far as to self-harm, all to make Ichiko focus all her attention on her.
Then, through daily interaction, make her slowly fall in love with her.
But who knows if this kind of liking is truly real?
For two years previously, her ex-girlfriend also acted like she liked her that much.
But the result was betrayal.
The voice in her ear seemed to resonate again: "No one can be sure if Ichiko likes you. What if she's pretending, and she betrays you when you love her to the extreme?"
"Possess her. Whether she likes you or not, she's yours!"
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