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A prayer Without Hands

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Aren is a knight who fears one thing more than death—doing wrong. In a world shaped by conflict, where every decision carries consequence, he chooses restraint. Silence. Distance. He convinces himself that by avoiding action, he can preserve something pure within him. But the world does not wait for certainty. When his hesitation leads to loss—lives that could have been saved, harm that could have been prevented—Aren is forced to confront a truth he has long avoided: Good intentions do not protect others. Guided by a perceptive commander, a quiet but unwavering companion, and a king who sees through every excuse, Aren begins a journey not of strength—but of responsibility. To act. To choose. To carry the weight of consequence. As battles intensify and choices grow harsher, Aren must face the ultimate question: If every action risks being wrong… is doing nothing ever right? A Prayer Without Hands is a story of faith, responsibility, and the dangerous comfort of inaction—where true devotion is not found in stillness, but in the courage to act. ---------- DISCLAIMER : Hey! This is my first novel. It's a slow-burn story that may challenge you intellectually. I'd truly appreciate any feedback to help me improve, enjoy!
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Chapter 1 - The silent one

Once, some 1,400 years ago, there stood a kingdom of remarkable prosperity. It was known not only for the vastness of its lands, but also for the strength and fairness of its ruler.

Stone fortresses rose beneath clear skies, their walls catching the morning sun like declarations of unshakable resolve. Within the city, streets bustled with merchants carrying harvests, vibrant cloth, and fragrant spices, while the clamor of the marketplace mingled with the ringing of iron from the blacksmiths' forges.

Yet beneath the noise lay a rhythm, a steady pulse that held the kingdom together. Laws were enforced firmly, but never cruelly. The people trusted their king—a leader whose name was spoken with reverence in every household, whose judgments were seen as guiding light in times of uncertainty.

The kingdom thrived between mountains and rivers, it's soil fertile, it's air cool, each season bringing abundance. Its people lived in safety, as though war and famine were but distant tales from foreign lands. Not far from the palace, in the training grounds, soldiers' voices rang out against the clash of steel, each strike echoing like a timeless refrain that would never fade.

Blades clashed with the dull thud of wooden practice swords, their echoes stretching across the cold morning air, piercing the thin mist that still lingered above the ground. Each strike split the silence with precision, as though the very air held its breath to make way for the movement. Boots scraped against stone in steady rhythm, like a heartbeat forced to remain calm amid tension. Breath escaped in controlled bursts—slow, layered—time itself seeming to hesitate, pausing each second to highlight the rise and fall of chests.

Commands were shouted, then repeated, corrected, and echoed again, until the voices became a kind of chant that bound the morning in place. The newly risen sun hovered low on the eastern horizon, reluctant to climb higher, its rays dripping slowly between the shadows of moving bodies. Everything seemed to slow: the flash of swords, the pounding of feet, even the dust rising from the earth, suspended longer in the air before settling back down.

This was discipline. This was movement. This was life—unfolding in a rhythm that bent time, making each moment feel eternal.

And at the farthest edge of it all—

Aren remained still.

A young sixteen years old boy, kneeling toward the qibla beneath the shadow of a weathered pillar, bowed his head, his hands resting lightly upon his knees—as though his body itself had become part of the aging stone. Sunlight crept through the cracks above, touching him only faintly, reluctant to disturb the calm he had built. His lips moved in a quiet rhythm, forming words that never rose beyond a whisper—words dissolving into the cold air, barely audible, yet heavy enough to hold the space around him.

It was a prayer—unbroken, undisturbed.

Even as the world shifted beyond him—swords clashing, commands echoing, dust swirling in the air—Aren remained within the circle of silence he had carved for himself. Time slowed around him, as though each second hesitated to reach him. The clash of steel grew distant, like echoes from another realm. The breaths of other soldiers came heavy, while his own flowed light, steady, as if following a rhythm only he could hear.

Beneath that fragile pillar, he was no part of the commotion. He was the still point that held back the current, the center of silence that made the surrounding clamor seem like passing shadows. His prayer became a fine thread binding him to something higher—something untouched by swords, commands, or time.

A wooden blade slid across the stone not far from where he knelt, ringing briefly before stopping with a dull scrape. The sound trembled in the air, waiting to be noticed, but was quickly swallowed again by the noise of training. The two sparring students paused only for a moment, their eyes flicking toward Aren, before one swiftly retrieved the sword. A murmured apology slipped out—light, automatic—and went unanswered.

Or perhaps, unheard.

To them, he was a figure unmoving, stone-like, a statue left in the corner of the courtyard, unshaken by the world's uproar.

To the instructors, he was unreadable, perplexing, as though every gesture concealed layers of meaning never revealed. Their gazes lingered on him longer than necessary, trying to discern whether his silence was discipline, defiance, or something else entirely.

To others… he was something different altogether. Some saw him as a shadow to be feared, some as a center of calm, and others felt he was a secret walking among them—a riddle that would never be solved.

And beneath the crumbling pillar, Aren remained seated, his whispered prayer flowing without pause, a fine line separating him from the world around him. Time continued to slow in his presence—each clash of steel, each shouted command, each soldier's breath grew more distant, more foreign. He was the still point against the current, a silence refusing to dissolve into the noise.

"Look at him," murmured one of the younger trainees, adjusting his grip on a wooden blade. "He's been there since dawn."

"And you've been watching him since dawn," another replied, though without a trace of mockery.

"that's, strange..."

A pause.

Then—

"…Or admirable…?"

The word lingered. Not loud enough to disrupt the training, yet soft enough to spread, creeping between breaths and the clash of steel, like a seed falling into fertile soil.

Aren did not react. His breathing remained slow. Steady. Measured. As though the ringing of blades, the dust rising from the courtyard floor, the tension in the air—none of it belonged to him. As though he had already stepped beyond it all.

And precisely because of his indifference, eyes began to turn. One by one, young soldiers who had been focused only on their drills began to steal glances at the figure kneeling beneath the weathered pillar. Some looked with curiosity, some with faint admiration, and others with an unease they could not explain.

The small whisper grew—not into noise, but into an invisible layer that wrapped itself around the courtyard. It was as if Aren, through his silence, had created a new center of gravity—drawing attention without ever seeking it.

Even the instructors glanced his way, brows furrowed, weighing whether he was a distraction or something far greater. Yet Aren did not move, his whispered prayer flowing on, holding time at bay.

And in the midst of endless clamor, he became a paradox: a silence that grew louder precisely because it made no sound.

"Again!"

The command split the noise, cutting through the air like a crack that could not be ignored.

Captain Rhaelis stood at the center of the courtyard, his gaze sweeping across the trainees with trained sharpness, as though every eye he met was forced to bear the weight of judgment. His hands clasped behind his back, his posture rigid, unyielding.

Like a statue carved from stone that knew no compromise, his expression was etched from something unyielding—features frozen in a firmness that left no room for doubt.

"Your enemy will not wait for you to think," he continued, his voice heavy, resonant, each word striking not at the body but at the heart. "They will not stop because you hesitate. Whether you strike—or whether you fall. Try again."

The courtyard tightened instantly. Wooden swords rose once more, the air split again by the force of movement. Yet beneath it all, there was a pause that stretched long, as though time itself held its breath before the captain's voice. The young soldiers watched him with a mixture of fear and reverence, while the dust stirred from the courtyard floor drifted slowly, reluctant to settle.

Rhaelis moved no more than necessary. His stillness was a threat, his gaze a command. Every misstep, every motion too slow, seemed to be recorded in his memory. And under that watchful presence, the trainees felt the world narrow: there was only themselves, the sword in their hands, and the captain's voice—impossible to ignore.

Rhaelis's gaze shifted.

It did not linger long—but it did not miss.

In the corner of the courtyard, Aren remained seated. His prayer was undisturbed, unbroken. Even Rhaelis's voice, sharp enough to split the air, could not pierce the circle of silence he had created. For a moment, something flickered across the captain's expression. Not anger. Not entirely. Perhaps disapproval. Or something more restrained.

He said nothing.

Yet the silence left a mark. It was as though that brief glance had added a new layer to the courtyard's atmosphere: an unspoken tension, palpable though never voiced.

Wooden swords clashed again, the sound of strikes cutting through the air, commands rang with the same firmness—but beneath it all, an invisible whisper spread.

The trainees, though returning to their drills, carried the shadow of the captain's glance toward the figure beneath the pillar. Some dismissed the curiosity, while others let it grow into unanswered questions.

Aren remained unmoved. His prayer did not falter, his breath stayed steady, as though the world around him were nothing more than ripples unable to breach the silence he had woven.

And amid the noise that surged back into motion, the contrast sharpened: discipline forced to move, clash, and shout—set against one figure who chose stillness, who chose to step outside the current.

It was as though the courtyard itself had split in two: one world filled with clashes, and another containing only silence.

Time passed as it always did there—not measured by clocks, but by exhaustion.

The sun climbed higher. Shadows grew shorter. The rhythm of combat slowed as muscles burned and lungs strained.

At last, the final command came.

"Enough."

Relief spread in quiet waves. Wooden swords were lowered. Shoulders of the young trainees relaxed. Some collapsed where they stood, others laughed softly through their fatigue.

Aren opened his eyes. Not suddenly. Not with the sharp intake of breath of someone returning from elsewhere. Only… slowly. As though he had never left. He rose with unhurried grace, brushing the dust from his knees. For a moment, he simply stood there, observing the training ground and the others, worn from their effort.

And in that gaze, there was something different. Not mere empty observation, but as though he saw deeper than weary bodies and drooping wooden blades. As though he beheld the very core of discipline—not the movement, not the sound, but the steadfastness born of exhaustion.

Some of the young soldiers noticed his presence, though he had done nothing. Their eyes met the figure who had just risen from a long prayer, and within that silence there lingered a faint respect—unspoken, yet undeniable.

Captain Rhaelis, still standing firm at the center of the courtyard, turned once more. A brief glance, swift, yet enough to affirm that he had seen Aren's movement. No words followed, no additional command. Only a silent acknowledgment that the boy was there—and remained different.

Dust drifted slowly back to the ground. Laughter faded. Heavy breaths began to steady. And amid it all, Aren stood—not hurried, not demanding attention, yet still the center of a silence that could not be ignored.

"Still with us?" a voice called.

Aren turned.

One of the trainees approached, offering a thin smile balanced between teasing and genuine curiosity.

"You missed the entire session again."

"I did not miss it," Aren replied calmly.

The other blinked. "…You did not take part."

Aren's gaze shifted briefly to the scattered weapons, to the tension that still lingered in the air.

"I know…" he continued.

"…What you were doing just now is not the same," his companion replied.

Aren offered no answer.

The trainee exhaled through his nose, shaking his head slowly. "You know, some people think you're avoiding the training."

"And what do you think?" Aren asked.

There was no challenge in his tone. No defensiveness. Only a question.

The trainee hesitated. "I suppose…" He scratched the back of his neck. "I suppose you're doing something different. Maybe something… better?"

The word was spoken carefully.

Aren's expression did not change—but something in his posture softened, just slightly.

"What do you mean by 'better'?" he asked again.

"More… focused, I think. While all of us are here striking at each other, you…" He gestured vaguely. "You're doing something that feels truly important."

Silence wrapped around them. Not awkward, but not entirely comfortable either.

Aren's eyes drifted toward the far edge of the courtyard, where stone met the open path leading deeper into the city.

"Discipline is not limited to the body," he said at last.

The trainee nodded, a little too quickly. "Yes. Yes, that's what I meant."

Aren lowered his head slightly. The conversation ended there.

Yet though the words ceased, their echo remained. It was as if the air around them held onto the exchange, preserving a meaning not yet complete. The trainee stepped away, rejoining the crowd as it slowly dispersed, but glanced back now and then, as though still trying to grasp something he could not explain.

Aren remained standing, silent, his gaze following the line of the path that opened toward the city. The afternoon sun began to sink, casting long shadows that crept across the stone. Within those shadows, he seemed a figure belonging neither fully to the training ground nor entirely to the world beyond.

He stood between the two worlds—a still point holding back time, a presence that left others wondering even after the conversation had ended.

And when the courtyard was empty, its noise fading into the distance, Aren remained.

This time he did not kneel again. This time he stayed standing, watching the place where the others had trained.

Where… they had struggled.

Where they had grown.

A gentle breeze drifted through the open arches, carrying with it the hum of the city beyond the palace walls. Life continued as it always did—chaotic, noisy, unpredictable.

Yet within the courtyard, silence endured. The dust that had once swirled now settled slowly, leaving behind the faint scent of sweat and scraped wood. The shadow of the weathered pillar stretched long, as though drawing a soft curtain across the ground.

Aren stood amidst it all, his body upright but not defiant, his gaze sweeping over the empty space that had so recently been filled with strikes and shouts. There was still energy lingering in the air, the echo of effort from the young soldiers. He felt it—not with his body, but with a calm awareness, as though reading the resonance of the past.

From afar, the city's sounds grew clearer: the creak of cart wheels on stone, merchants calling, children running. The outer world moved swiftly, full of clamor, while the courtyard still held the final breath of training.

Aren did not hurry to leave. He allowed himself to remain, as though weighing something that could not be spoken. His eyes lingered on the scratches across the stone floor, on the wooden sword left behind, on the shadows shifting with the sinking sun.

And in that silence, he seemed a figure poised at the threshold of two worlds: one of discipline and clash, the other of chaos and life. He did not choose either. He simply stood, becoming a bridge unseen.

Aren's fingers curled slightly at his sides.

Then relaxed.

There was no envy in his gaze. No regret. Only certainty. Or something close enough to it.

"Silence can be mistaken for peace."

The voice came without warning.

Aren turned.

At the far end of the training ground, partly veiled by shadows stretching like the curtain of dusk, stood a figure Aren had not noticed before. A man of about forty, tall, broad, and commanding—his posture so firm it seemed capable of bearing mountains upon his shoulders. His hair was white, not from age, but from a lineage clearly marked upon him. His eyes gleamed golden, resting on Aren with calm—not piercing, yet heavy enough to make the air feel denser, weightier.

His attire was immaculate: thick, dark-brown cloth draped in clean lines. No gold, no excessive ornament, yet refinement radiated from the way he carried himself—from the authority that needed no display. His presence was power that required no recognition; simply by standing, the world seemed to adjust itself.

Aren felt his body straighten instinctively, a gesture of respect rising without reason he could name. Something in this man's bearing made it impossible to lower his gaze, as though his very being knew it was facing someone different.

The man stepped forward, slowly, just enough for the light to catch the edge of his form. His dark fabric absorbed the glow, while the sharp lines of his clothing emphasized a firmness without ostentation. Each step was neither hurried nor sluggish—a rhythm that seemed to slow time itself, giving Aren space to feel the weight of his presence.

Unconsciously, Aren lowered his gaze slightly, a silent gesture of reverence born from within. Quietly, he knew—though he could not explain—that this was no mere stranger. There was something greater, deeper, that made him feel small yet not diminished—like a student finally recognizing the presence of a teacher.

"My lord," Aren said, instinctively.

The king regarded him in silence. Not the kind of silence that demanded an answer, nor one that carried disdain. This silence was different—an observing silence, patient, weighing, measuring before choosing words. His gaze was like an invisible scale, judging not only what was seen, but what lay hidden deep within.

The courtyard itself seemed to hold its breath. The breeze that had drifted lightly now stilled, reluctant to disturb the moment. The long shadow of the weathered pillar shifted with the sun, yet even that movement felt ritualistic—an unseen rhythm, as though the entire courtyard waited for the king's words.

Aren felt the gaze pierce deeper than skin or posture. It did not stop at the surface, but pressed through layer after layer, searching for something concealed, something no other soldier could see. It was as if he were being opened, page by page, like a book that could not refuse to be read.

The silence stretched, slowing time, making each second heavy, each breath weighted. Aren dared not look away, though inside he trembled. The king's gaze was not mere observation; it was a search, a test that required no words—only the courage to stand beneath an unseen burden.

"Why do you separate yourself?" the king asked at last. His voice was calm. Firm. Not echoing, but heavy.

Aren considered his reply carefully.

"I seek focus," he said.

"From what?" The question came swiftly, precise. It made Aren hesitate.

"…From distraction."

A pause.

The king's eyes shifted briefly to the courtyard—to the scarred stone, the faint marks left by training—then returned to Aren. His silence was shorter this time, yet still deliberate, before he spoke again.

"And you believe this," he said, "is not part of what you must face?" There was no accusation in his tone. That absence made the question harder to answer. The words fell slowly, yet heavily, like a weight placed upon stone.

Aren lowered his head slightly, accepting the weight, but remained firm.

"I believe there is a higher priority than battle," he said at last, his voice steady.

Silence returned. Not longer, but heavier. The king's gaze stayed sharp, yet not oppressive. He studied Aren—not as a soldier, not as a subject. There was something else in his eyes—an unspoken recognition, or perhaps a curiosity unfinished. He studied him as one studies something incomplete.

The wind stirred again, carrying faint sounds of the city, as though the outer world waited for this exchange to end. Yet within the empty courtyard, time seemed suspended, awaiting the decision of the figure beneath the crown's shadow.

"Perhaps," the king said softly.

And then—

Nothing more. No correction. No approval. No denial.

The king turned and departed. His steps were calm, unhurried, yet each movement carried a weight that thickened the air. His shadow stretched long, then vanished beyond the stone arch, leaving Aren alone once more.

But the silence that remained was not the same. Something had changed—a resonance from the brief conversation now lingered, clinging to the stone, the dust, the breath of the training ground.

Aren straightened, not in defiance, not in defense. Only in acceptance—receiving the words as one receives a truth long known. He remained standing, his eyes following the king's path. His expression revealed nothing, yet within him was a calm slightly deeper, slightly heavier. As though those words had added a new layer to him—one that could not be shed.

The wind rose again, carrying the city's distant sounds, though now they seemed farther, more foreign. The empty courtyard became a space holding something unfinished, something waiting to return.

Aren drew a slow breath. Not to steady himself. Not to strengthen himself. Only to affirm that he was still here—within a silence now changed, longer, heavier. And within it, he felt that this exchange was not merely a rebuke, but the beginning of something greater.

Then, slowly, he closed his eyes once more and began to pray.

Beyond the courtyard walls, the city moved.

The king regarded him in silence. Not the kind of silence that demanded an answer, nor one that carried disdain. This silence was different—an observing silence, patient, weighing, measuring before choosing words. His gaze was like an invisible scale, judging not only what was seen, but what lay hidden deep within.

The courtyard itself seemed to hold its breath. The breeze that had drifted lightly now stilled, reluctant to disturb the moment. The long shadow of the weathered pillar shifted with the sun, yet even that movement felt ritualistic—an unseen rhythm, as though the entire courtyard waited for the king's words.

Aren felt the gaze pierce deeper than skin or posture. It did not stop at the surface, but pressed through layer after layer, searching for something concealed, something no other soldier could see. It was as if he were being opened, page by page, like a book that could not refuse to be read.

The silence stretched, slowing time, making each second heavy, each breath weighted. Aren dared not look away, though inside he trembled. The king's gaze was not mere observation; it was a search, a test that required no words—only the courage to stand beneath an unseen burden.

"Why do you separate yourself?" the king asked at last. His voice was calm. Firm. Not echoing, but heavy.

Aren considered his reply carefully.

"I seek focus," he said.

"From what?" The question came swiftly, precise. It made Aren hesitate.

"…From distraction."

A pause.

The king's eyes shifted briefly to the courtyard—to the scarred stone, the faint marks left by training—then returned to Aren. His silence was shorter this time, yet still deliberate, before he spoke again.

"And you believe this," he said, "is not part of what you must face?" There was no accusation in his tone. That absence made the question harder to answer. The words fell slowly, yet heavily, like a weight placed upon stone.

Aren lowered his head slightly, accepting the weight, but remained firm.

"I believe there is a higher priority than battle," he said at last, his voice steady.

Silence returned. Not longer, but heavier. The king's gaze stayed sharp, yet not oppressive. He studied Aren—not as a soldier, not as a subject. There was something else in his eyes—an unspoken recognition, or perhaps a curiosity unfinished. He studied him as one studies something incomplete.

The wind stirred again, carrying faint sounds of the city, as though the outer world waited for this exchange to end. Yet within the empty courtyard, time seemed suspended, awaiting the decision of the figure beneath the crown's shadow.

"Perhaps," the king said softly.

And then—

Nothing more. No correction. No approval. No denial.

The king turned and departed. His steps were calm, unhurried, yet each movement carried a weight that thickened the air. His shadow stretched long, then vanished beyond the stone arch, leaving Aren alone once more.

But the silence that remained was not the same. Something had changed—a resonance from the brief conversation now lingered, clinging to the stone, the dust, the breath of the training ground.

Aren straightened, not in defiance, not in defense. Only in acceptance—receiving the words as one receives a truth long known. He remained standing, his eyes following the king's path. His expression revealed nothing, yet within him was a calm slightly deeper, slightly heavier. As though those words had added a new layer to him—one that could not be shed.

The wind rose again, carrying the city's distant sounds, though now they seemed farther, more foreign. The empty courtyard became a space holding something unfinished, something waiting to return.

Aren drew a slow breath. Not to steady himself. Not to strengthen himself. Only to affirm that he was still here—within a silence now changed, longer, heavier. And within it, he felt that this exchange was not merely a rebuke, but the beginning of something greater.

Then, slowly, he closed his eyes once more and began to pray.

Beyond the training ground walls, the city moved.