As the words slipped out of his mouth, I then realized how dumb it is to even suggest that he
takes my virginity even tho I didn't quite ask him to pop my cherry directly
But obviously he would've have known he will break my hymen or barrier whatever society calls it these days.
I had thought the blush on my face , couldn't get possibly redder, I was wrong because it looked like someone put fire on my cheeks .
I looked at him with slightly opened mouth and prayed inwardly that a fly won't manage to get inside my mouth. I couldn't bear anymore humiliation in front of him
I was about to retort with something maybe something that would embarrass me more .But then Edward decided to open his perfect mouth and worded out
" I didn't take you for that kind of girl Isabella " he cocked his head to the side studying me intensely until I squirmed in unease .
With my jaw ticking in slight anger from hearing his word, I voiced out through clenched teeths " And what type of girl did you take me for Edward?"
His green eyes bore into my own, and I felt a flick maybe a zap running through my lower belly .
I blamed it on my nerves and probably anger and swept it to the side ,
it was nothing much to ponder on he was studying me intensely, I could tell by how he refused to even blink his eyes.
Growing uncomfortable by his stare I raised an eyebrow , telling him silently that I awaited his answer .
" I didn't mean it as an insult" he finally sayed , I find my eyes refusing to tear from a single drop of water
that came from the end of his dark hair to kiss his forehead , I watched with Keen interest as it rolled down his forehead , to the corner of his nose until it felt the brush of his lips where it crawled all the way down until his tongue peeked out to lick it.
My eyes widened slightly as I realized I was staring , well more than gawking at Edward I'd just fed his ego,
and I honestly wanted to jump out from his ridiculously expensive car and stomp my foot in a puddle of water like a kid throwing a tantrum .
So to save myself from further mortification , I fixed myself and played it cool by peering into his eyes
nonchalantly " then what did you mean it as?" I pushed
he didn't know me , so he had no right to judge me by just one look .
He studied me for longer his eyes unblinking before he tears them away, " you last seem like a girl who cares about this kind of stuffs. like someone who would want to cherish their first time" he admitted.
I stiffened.
Cherish my first time ?
before I know how cruel the world could truly be before I didn't have to stop daydreaming about a perfect
life. Before my life wasn't in shambles I did , once want to cherish my first time with someone who would be worth it.
But then a huge ass bus came barreling down the road and drove over my stupid rose colored glasses
and now everything was dull and black, the world was shiiit with many shitty people in it.
Every girl I know or heard had said the same thing , they regretted losing their virginity to the guy that popped their cherry . Because guys in real life aren't guys in romance fiction novels . They just want
one thing to just slip it in and don't care about the consequences.
Why this arrangement between Edward and I would prove to be the best decision I won't ever regret , was because I was actually doing this for a cause and there's no feelings attached. I wouldn't get hurt like the girls who crys and whine
that the guy used them only just for sex.
"Well you thought wrong I don't care about making my first time perfect or have a huge list of every guy who would deserve it ".