Lee Hakhyun seemed to be an unsuccessful author who didn't get any attention. He wondered if anyone would get curious about his story. I was interested in his story. He was the entire reason that I started writing in the first place. I wish I went to a Q&A event with other writers. It sounds nice to bond with other writers after all.
I wanted to write a story where I attempted to kill my favorite person. Would I be killed by her again or do I seriously love her so much that I would rather die by her hands than kill her myself? I already wrote a story where I tried to attack her and I ended up being unable to sentence her to death when writing it.
A Kim Dokja big fragment that became a writer huh? How interesting, I really love Lee Hakhyun, he faints a lot yet he still abuses his incite skill for others.
Opehilia Poet told me to give her a warning before I would vent which decreased my interest in talking to her. I was my authentic self after all, could I not be myself when talking to her? She didn't even need to comfort me or anything. I just needed someone to hear me out.
I smoked a second cigarette today, this time my brain went numb. Which was the effect that I was going for. I had to stand because I didn't want to sit on the ground nor could I even sit on the steps because the sign said so. They probably didn't want to smell smoke nor inhale second hand smoke. I was coughing while I smoked.
Truth be told, my problems and my presence was as harmful as smoking was. You will get second hand exhaustion from me because I was so exhausted from life and my problems. I would kill Slyius Xavier again though. Just the thought of that guy triggered my anger to kill him, said the Demon King of Codependency. Because of him, I lost everything stable that I had.
The group therapy talked about who their favorite characters are. I spoke about Yoo Joonghyuk and stated how he experiences life and death so many times that I would understand him and feel a connection to him. I should really make an ORV cupsleeve event one day. I wanted to meet other ORV fans after all.
We were doing Acceptance and Commitment therapy. They wanted a meditation video and I was hesitant to try it but I still wanted to try it regardless. It was a cognitive function exercise that they wanted to do. This was an imagination exercise. We were told to imagine a tree, water on the stream, and etc. I did not do as the video instructed me to do so truth be told.
I did however find this video to be relaxing, though I was bored of doing it. I resisted the urge to get out of the room and go for a walk. I was forced to be patient in this room. I decided to leave the room and go out to read "Only My Vaccine Can Save the World From the Zombie Apocalypse". I'm sure some people would think it's a hentai manga but I personally found the story to be enlightening on perspective.
Chris Page was a Leo, born on 7/28/2000. I was hearing from my friend Sebastian being kicked out of his apartment right before my eyes. He took drugs before but he was a year younger than me.
I was extremely worried for Sebastian, I ended up smoking a third cigarette because I was extremely stressed out on whether or not he would be homeless. I told him to not give up on life in hopes of saving him. I also told him that I would write him as pregnant and would be forced to give birth if he died.
This was a real life person wanting to die. Sonia is a badass who would survive in Scenarios: Ruined World. She would be a rebellious leader in the ruined World. She destroyed her boyfriend's stuff when she found out that he brought another woman home.
I smoked a fourth cigarette for today, four might be my limit. I need a soda or something because I'm really stressing out today. The burning sensation was there for me to consciously feel it. Maybe I was smoking too much for my throat to handle. I needed cold water to feel better. I also needed to smoke to feel better too.
I wondered if I needed to take a walk or something. I didn't even realize until I started smoking that my mouth was dirty. I didn't even eat my lunch properly. Something was wrong for sure. The wind was hurting my thumb. Smokers have the ability to control fire better than anyone else does. They would probably be fire benders.
I started violently coughing due to probably my fourth cigarette. At least I was less addicted than the people who smoked a whole pack in one day. I wasn't like my dad who smoked more than I did. This was self destruction after all. I am trying to make out with death nor did I care if I had lung cancer.
Guess I'll be getting throat cancer first if anything. I had hyperthyroidism after all. Ack, the burning sensation got more intense. I should have stopped but I didn't. Fuck my own life after all.
[ The Demon King of Liberation wants to write a story that would kill Slyius Xavier again. ]
I don't even know how many times I've killed you now but this will be the millionth time. This time I will burn you alive. I summon fate, Slyius Xavier is destined to die.
[ Fate has granted his wish ]
I will sacrifice my memories as they have been blurred already.
[ Exchange has been accepted by destiny as he really did exchange his memories ]
Slyius Xavier was doing his school work when all of a sudden, he gets a clear screen telling him this: [ You will die in 5 minutes ]
Secretive Summoner preparing and considering how to write his death considers how he would act. At first Slyius panics and starts preparing for self defense. He even asks Annis Hannah and the police for help.
I summon Hellbound
Secretive Summoner incarnates as a Hellbound monster and first punches him into the ground. Slyius tries standing up but before he could do so, he is met with his arms breaking by the monster. Then he is set on fire and disappears into hell. It was a brutal way to die after all. This was revenge as Slyius has not redeemed himself for burning children and the Zuozhe Xhao company while they were extremely vulnerable.
[ Destiny has been fulfilled and Slyius Xavier can not change his fate nor rewrite his own fate ]