The journey of writing this book has not been easy.
Because this subject matter is incredibly difficult to write.
It is both sensitive and niche. With the writing skills of an ordinary web novel author, it is very hard to strike a balance between the conflict of a grand thematic narrative and the genre of popular fiction, while simultaneously achieving the effects of both reasoning and entertainment.
As a result, stories with this subject matter often either turn into dry, preachy essays or devolve into shallow, reskinned novels.
I have realized this. And I have truly felt these difficulties during the creative process.
Trying to balance fun and philosophy is simply too hard. As the number of characters increases and the scope expands, the writing feels increasingly arduous.
Therefore, whether before I started writing or after serialization began, kind-hearted people have advised me not to write such a thankless subject.
But I still want to write it.
I want to write it, simply because I want to write it.
Writing is a job, and novels are commodities. If you say I write books without the intention of making money, that is impossible.
But I have already tried writing purely for money, for metrics, and to cater to market tastes.
Locking myself in a dark room every day, staring blankly at the computer screen. Agonizing day and night over market feedback and reader opinions, and then racking my brains to conceptualize stories that I cannot even get excited about myself.
That is not happiness.
When I wrote *Lee Sin*, I had terrible writer's block, and the subscription numbers were average, yet despite the difficult conceptualization, I remained full of passion.
Meanwhile, my last book, *Conan*, had the best metrics and earned the most money, but toward the end, for the first time, I had the thought of giving up this job and changing careers.
Later, I suddenly woke up to reality:
Without realizing it, I had been alienated.
My creative motivation had shifted from "enjoying the pleasure of writing" to making money, making more money. If the money came too slowly or fame arrived too late, I would become anxious, conflicted, and lose sleep.
This had practically become a mental illness, one that could not be cured no matter what.
Because under the market order, everything becomes a commodity. A worker's labor is a commodity, and a writer's mental effort is also a commodity.
No matter how many sensational words I say, my writing is still just a commodity.
Commodities must consider the market; they must pursue profit.
I cannot change this.
But I still want to try to find a balance between reality and ideals.
So, at least in the choice of novel subject matter, I want to write the subjects I want to write, and tell the stories I am interested in.
Yes, this book about Janna will be very difficult to write.
I do not even have the confidence to write it well myself.
But I still want to write it.
Attempting to put one's ideals into practice within a fantasy world is something that inherently brings joy. At the very least, it is a story that gives me creative passion.
And because my skills are truly limited, this story will certainly not be perfect.
It is destined to be nothing more than a self-indulgent fantasy, a work of personal gratification.
But I still hope that this book will be liked by everyone. I also hope to find companions who see eye to eye with me and can enjoy the ride together.
Furthermore, I hope that everyone can find their own happiness in their work and life.
Thank you.
Thank you all for your support and companionship.