Freedom to Speak

Hello,I am a girl. My name is pinki.now I am a little sweet girl.When I was 4 year old that time story I will told you .When I was very small I stold money and my mother scolded me a lot . I took some sweets and hide the some money. I was happy that time.But,When my mother found out she hit me a lot.After,she hit me some family members interrupted and save me but that fair remember my whole life.My mind, my whole life this is fair with me. I have two brother but my mother cannot say anything to him.But,me as a girl this is difficult to live that time. I always scared for everything.if I do wrong something they will hit me a lot with stick, slap anything that's why I suffering many things. I cannot happy that time.My mother and father they shouting me all the time. I begging something buy me please, but they cannot buying for me anything. My brother's study in best school,but I am not.I where second hand clothes.I struggle many things that time. I cannot say anything to my parents because I cannot "Freedom to Speak". I cannot buy anything, I cannot see TV, I cannot go with my friends on their birthday my parents to don't allow something . They told me to stay in home,go school straight and come home and work so hard make a food ,helping my mother and helping my brother to iron their dresses , but anybody helping me so,I will very shut down that time. My parents are partial between me and my brothers. My brothers study in best school but I am not in a best school local school study that's why my mental health cannot with me. I was molested by my parents. My father all the time hit me and told me do work do not study, study cannot help you, only make food and do house work with your mum. All the time I think I am alone. I cannot speak to anything to anybody what's going on.Then I am little big. My brother doing everything but I am not doing everything, no permission, me to do something .When I was small kid one uncle abuseme .He is bad touch to my body but I cannot complain that uncle to my parents.Because,I am scared all the things. When I was go with my parents to another place for a vacation. My father, mother and my brother they back to home.But I am stay there. That night one person I was sleeping. Aunty and one there child sleep with me on same bed.But one guy come in the room he doing bad touching through my chest , all around my body.I am very shameful that time and stress.But I cannot speak because of all the time that fair in my mind and that guy pee onme.I am quite my eyes was closed cannot open my eyes. I thought please God help me, I thought I was wrong I am bad girl that's why God punished me.But he is bad guy I do not forget. I cannot told to anybody anything. God help me please.