Us din agar maine 'NA' bol diya hota…
toh shayad meri zindagi kuch aur hoti…"
Ye ek aisa khayal tha…
jo har din mere dimaag me baar-baar aata tha…
aur har baar mujhe andar se tod deta tha.
Din beet rahe the…
lekin mera dard bilkul bhi kam nahi ho raha tha.
Bahar se main bilkul normal dikhne ki koshish karti…
ghar walon ke saamne muskurati…
logon se baat karti…
Lekin andar se…
main poori tarah toot chuki thi.
Mere sapne…
jo kabhi meri pehchaan the…
jo mujhe zinda hone ka ehsaas dilate the…
aaj wo sirf yaadein ban chuke the.
Kabhi-kabhi main chupkese apna admission letter nikaal kar dekhti…
aur sochti—
"Bas ek kadam aur… aur meri zindagi badal sakti thi…"
Lekin ab…
wo sirf ek kagaz reh gaya tha.
Phir ek din…
Papa ne mujhe bulaya.
Unki awaaz me kuch alag tha…
na wo purani naramiyat thi…
na hi wo himmat dene wali taqat…
Jaise wo bhi andar se thak chuke ho.
Main dheere se unke paas gayi.
Unka chehra dekh kar hi samajh aa gaya…
kuch bada hone wala hai.
"Beta…"
unhone dheere se kaha,
"humne tumhare liye ek rishta dekha hai…"
Bas… itna sunte hi
mere pairon tale zameen khisak gayi.
Sab kuch ek pal ke liye ruk sa gaya.
"Shaadi…?"
mere muh se sirf ek shabd nikla.
Mujhe laga shayad main galat sun rahi hoon.
Main ready nahi thi…
main abhi jeena chahti thi…
main apne sapne poore karna chahti thi…
Maine himmat jodi…
"Papa… main abhi shaadi nahi karna chahti…"
Meri awaaz halki si kaanp rahi thi…
lekin mere andar ek umeed thi…
ki shayad wo samajh jayenge.
Lekin…
is baar meri awaaz un tak pahunchi hi nahi.
Ya shayad…
wo sunna hi nahi chahte the.
Ghar ke bahar se awaazein aane lagi—
"Ladki ko zyada padhane ka kya fayda?"
"Achha rishta baar-baar nahi milta…"
"Samay par shaadi ho jaye to hi accha hota hai…"
Har ek baat…
mere dil ko tod rahi thi.
Jaise har shabd mere sapno par vaar kar raha ho.
Main chup ho gayi…
Kyuki mujhe samajh aa gaya tha—
ye sirf meri ladai nahi thi…
ye meri aur poore samaj ki ladai thi.
Dheere-dheere…
Papa bhi badalne lage.
Wahi papa jo mere sapno par garv karte the…
wahi papa ab logon ki baaton me aane lage the.
Unki aankhon me ab bhi pyaar tha…
lekin us pyaar ke saath ek darr bhi tha—
"Log kya kahenge…"
Aur shayad…
👉 isi darr ne unhe mujhse door kar diya.
Ek raat…
main apne kamre me akeli baithi thi.
Maine apna admission letter haath me liya…
aur use ghurti rahi.
Aankhon se aansu girne lage…
"Kaash… main thodi si aur himmat dikha paati…"
Maine dheere se kaha.
Lekin ab der ho chuki thi.
Agla din…
ghar me ek alag hi mahaul tha.
Log aa rahe the…
rishtedaar baat kar rahe the…
sab kuch bahut tezi se ho raha tha.
Aur phir…
👉 Shaadi fix ho gayi.
Ye sab itna jaldi hua
ki mujhe samajhne ka bhi waqt nahi mila.
Ghar me khushi thi…
Maa taiyariyon me lagi thi…
rishtedaar muskura rahe the…
Sab ke liye ye ek khushi ka mauka tha…
👉 Lekin mere liye…
ye ek khamosh haar thi.
Main har din apne aap ko samjhane ki koshish karti—
"Shayad ye hi meri kismat hai…"
"Shayad sabke saath aisa hi hota hai…"
Lekin dil maan nahi raha tha.
Phir wo din aa hi gaya…
💔 Shaadi ka din.
Main dulhan bani…
Laal joda pehne…
aayine ke saamne khadi thi.
Sab keh rahe the—
"Kitni sundar lag rahi hai…"
Lekin main khud ko pehchaan hi nahi pa
Maine dheere se apne aap se poocha—
👉 "Kya yehi meri zindagi hai…?"
Aankhon se aansu ruk nahi rahe the…
lekin kisi ne notice nahi kiya.
Kyuki sabko ek khush dulhan chahiye thi…
Sachchai nahi.
Kuch hi ghanto me…
👉 meri shaadi ho gayi.
Main apne naye ghar aa gayi…
Sab kuch badal gaya…
Naye log…
nayi jagah…
nayi zindagi…
👉 Lekin ek cheez nahi badli—
Mere andar ka dard.
Wo ab bhi wahi tha…
utna hi gehra… utna hi sach.
Raat ko jab sab so gaye…
main akeli baithi thi.
Maine aasman ki taraf dekha…
aur dheere se kaha—
"Main haar gayi…"
Lekin ussi pal…
andar se ek awaaz aayi—
👉 "Ya shayad… kahani abhi baaki hai…"
Mujhe nahi pata tha
meri zindagi mujhe kahan le jaayegi…
Lekin ek baat clear thi—
Meri kahani abhi khatam nahi hui hai…"
Shayad maine apne sapno se samjhauta kar liya tha…
lekin kya sach me kahani yahin khatam ho gayi thi?
👉 Ya zindagi abhi ek naya mod dene wali thi…
Agar aapko story feel hui ho to vote kare ❤️
aur bataye— kya usse ladna chahiye tha?