Alice looked at the boy before her, because to her that's what he was a boy, he was eighteen years old, his world had been broken over and over again by changes that he did not wish for, did not get to choose, and now… another change had occurred without asking for his permission, because that was the reality, in this world, nothing asked for permission, you either had to keep going, adapt and try to change the outcome or you would fall down, but sometimes… even if you wanted to change the outcome desperately, it did not mean that you would succeed, it did not mean that at all.
Slowly walking closer to the bed, she sat down next to him and put a hand on his knee before turning her head to look at Alan whos upper body was laid down onto the bed, an arm over his eyes.
"I know that it sounds unfair, because It is, I know that and I'm sorry, I'm sorry that we can't do anything more to change this… but is it so bad? I know that the way it's happening isn't great but in the end, maybe you can learn to like the world outside of this small town? There's so much things out there, so many places that you can get to explore, to live in. And I will be there, helping you every single step of the way." Alice said softly as as her voice grew warmer, to her, whilst she could feel bad about his emotions, about what was happening to him, she also… didn't feel the despair that he was feeling, she couldn't sympathyse with that. She never had truly had a place, a location on a map that she could call home and if she had ever had that as a human… she had long forgotten about it.
'Am… am i excited about the fact that I'll get to be with him? Alone… for who knows how long, away from everyone else… just me… and him…. Mine.' Alice thought to herself as her thoughts turned immensely darker for but a brief split second inside of her mind and then she quickly shook those thoughts away as she focused back onto him once more, the thoughts were gone now, but they were still there, at the back of her mind, not at the front but there… waiting for their chance to bloom once more.
After a few moments of silence, Alan nodded his head slightly as he removed his arm from where it was shielding his eyes.
"You're right… I just need a bit of time to deal with it. Could you leave for a bit?" Alan asked slowly as he looked at her from where he was layed down on the bed.
Alice didn't reply verbally instead she simply gave a nod of her head before turning as she got up and headed out of the room without a single word more, deciding to leave him to deal with his own thoughts.
'She's not wrong… not wrong but those are not the word that I want to hear right now. Not the moment, not the time for me to hear those words.' Alan thought to himself as he felt his anger increase once more, at this point it was like he wasn't even truly inside of his own body, like he was noticing the emotions as if they were pigments of colour dropping inside of a water glass, clearly able to see them, clearly able to tell they were coming and what they were doing to him. It was a sort of detachment that he had never experienced before, not until now, it was in a way both frightening to feel it and also relieving, he was experiencing the emotions but he felt safe from their effects or atleast a subconscious part of him did as his conscious was clearly effected by them still.
"Wolves… Quileute tribe, I hope that you listen…" Alan said outwardly for a moment before stopping as he continued his line of words inside of his own mind.
'Because if you dont… If you truly do make me have to leave… I will come back, I swear it on everything that I am… I will come back and rip you all out of your houses one after the other.' He thought inside of his own mind as he almost shivered at his own outburst, he had almost said that out loud, forgetting momentarily that everyone in this house could hear his each and every breath apparently whilst being on a completely other part of the house.
'This… is annoying, I can't even slip. Not once or they'll be able to hear everything, It feels like I'm living with a camer tied to my head and a microphone tied to my neck constantly. And with how the system is… that's really not something that I want to to have to deal with.' Alan thought to himself before shaking his head once more and then slowly sitting up getting off the bed before walking towards the ceiling to floor windows on the left side of the room and looking out into the forest outside of the large Cullen Mansion.
Tomorrow would be a long day as Carlisle had said, and he would have to prepare, both mentally and physically for anything that could happen.
'I can't head into the dungeon, not right now, not here. I have to find a way to head there but these guys don't even sleep, they seem to be able to hear everything thats happening and my body most definitely disappears from this world when I head to the dungeons otherwise I'd be dead from Joanna already. How do i deal with this?' Alan thought to himself as he noticed another strangeness, it was something he noticed whilst looking at the forest outside.
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